Mutilate The Fear (Completed Book 5 Of The Atonement Saga)

“Tristan keeps looking over here, I think tonight may finally be the night” Tristan was a complete nerd but in the best possible way. He was one of the very few people I actually felt like I could depend on or trust. Mel has fancied him her entire life, they are both witches so they won’t know if they are mates until they are close enough for their magic to touch and she has been dying to know if he’s the one for forever. “Just go for it girl, even talking to him might bring it out” She chews her lip looking at him, Tristan turns and smiles at her, I wave him over and she nearly passes out “What are you doing! I’m going to kill you” She goes to run away making me laugh as he excuses himself and comes our way, i grab her shirt and yank her back towards me. “No way I’m so sick of being in the middle, your going to at least talk to him” She jumps from foot to foot nervously as Tristan walks over, he pulls me into a side hug and wags his fingers at Mel she blushes like crazy They quietly look at each other awkwardly, I shake my head after a moment of awkward silence “My gosh that’s enough, off you go over there both of you and talk, your both driving me insane” I scold them, They both beam bright red clearly feeling the exact same feelings for each other. I wanted to knock their heads together and kick some bloody sense into them. “Look Tristan all you talk about is Mel and mel all you talk about is Tristan. Just go for it” I tell them both, Just then an arms thrown over my shoulder and I jump in surprise glaring at the culprit “s**t sorry” Emmet says handing me my drink and giggling, he was clearly drunk so i nod forgiving him as i take the drink and take a sniff of it, it smelled so bad i pull it back and away from my face. “What’s up peeps!” He asks everyone, Tristan glares at him, he really didn’t like him atol. “Nothing I’m just about to go talk with mel, see you in a minute Ali” To my surprise he takes her hand and leads her away her eyes widen and she looks back at me mouthing oh my gosh. I laugh shaking my head and I give her a thumbs up “About time they talked” Emmet says chuckling “Yeah it really is” I take a drink and cringe. It definitely tastes different so I sniff it but it smells no different, he wags his hand in front of my face “The keg had a line so I just used cans of beer and poured them into a cup, they taste like s**t but it does the trick” He says with a cheeky wink and a grin, I nod taking another mouthful as I look around the party for anyone else to talk to, everyone was either making out or in a tight nit group of people. I skipped a few years in school so all my friends that are younger aren’t here, just the older friends like mel and Tristan. Emmet and his group of friends were known as the wild ones, they were always drinking and partying and doing something they shouldn’t be doing but they never hurt anyone they were just always in trouble. “Come on let’s go chat the guys” He pulls me over to his crowd of rowdy friends, I was immediately uncomfortable around them being the only girl. I decide to drink up and get the f**k out of dodge, this is not my kind of party. Halfway through my glass it finally starts to hit me, my eyes go a little blurry and I feel a little giddy. Everything was distorted and weird but I think it was finally making me sleepy so I down the last of the cup and I went to wander off. Everything was spinning, looking to the sky i didn't know if it was the lake or the stars twinkling, Emmet takes my hand so my face snaps to his touch. It felt cold and boring, I couldn't feel the warm tingles that I had when Dexter or Hunter touched me. It didn't give me butterflies in my belly, instead it gave me the heebie jeebies “Hey where are you going, beautiful?” I blink up at him a few times as the world around me starts to sway, I could see 3 different versions of him, all 3 looked slightly different. He might be pretty but he's not so pretty that I would want 3 of him. The only people i want 3 of is Dexter and Hunter “I need to sit down” I giggle as I grab onto him to keep me up straight “Yeah you really do, come on” He pulls me towards the cabin, everyone and everything sways, I couldn’t see straight as my eyes distort and everything had lines around them, boys surround me, some i seen before, others i had no idea who they were but all of them were blurry, all of them were at least doubled if not tripled. “I need a nap” I groan, my body felt tired as I stop walking and lean against the wall, my head was starting to get really really sore, pounding so hard it felt like i had an open wound that was pulsing to the beat of my heartbeat “Come on I’ll just have to carry you” He throws me over his shoulder and I giggle bouncing around the place. My stomach rolls as I swing my hands from side to side, leaving a trail in the air around me. Swiping my hands across my face I could see every colour of every rainbow, every design you could imagine appeared in my face. “Damn that worked fast” I had no idea whose voice it was, I could hear them speak but trying to understand what the words meant was a different story. “Yeah she must be really tired for it to work this fast, are you sure she’s out, if they figure out who we are we will be dead” Somebody snorts so i look to that blur with a voice, wondering what he meant “No its fine, by the time she wakes up she won't remember a thing and she will be too embarrassed and confused to do anything about it and she will just drop it” “But the others were knocked out, she's not?” “Just give her a second, it will work i promise” Nausea hit me, but before I had the chance to get sick I was thrown onto my back, I rolled heaving, the place was covered in dust, my stomach emptied itself all over the floor, only adding to the rancid smell of the room. “Looks like no foreplay tonight boys she will just get sick over you all” Suddenly the darkness around me closes in, my body feels foriegn, like it was there but not there, like it was there and I could feel it but i couldn't move it. I felt sedated to the spot, unable to move a muscle as one of them pulled me up the old stinky mattress. “Who’s talking? Who’s there?” I ask, desperately trying to look around the darkened room. I could see shapes but not faces, the shapes start to laugh, the sound distorted, but by now I can’t even focus on any one thing as someone tugs on my trousers. I could feel it, but I couldn't move to stop it as the panic inside me started to rise. I had no idea who these people were or what they were doing but I didn't like it, I didn't want them touching me. I wanted Hunter and I wanted Dexter, they were the only thing that was certain, the only thing I knew for sure was real at that moment. But that also brought with it the revelation that they really were not here at this moment, just confusing me further. “Stop” I try to say, unsure if i was successful or not, i wanted to move my arms, i wanted to push them away but there was more than one, my eyes can’t focus but my heart starts to beat rapidly as i start to panic, trying to kick my heavy feet and legs, I feel their hands on me but I can’t find them. I can’t see them, I don't know what’s happening or what they were doing but I knew it was wrong. It all felt wrong but my limbs would not move, my mind won't stop racing as I try to think of a way, any way to end this but my brain can't work, nothing would work. “Stop struggling or it will make it worse princess!” Was I struggling? It didn't feel like i was even moving so i push harder hoping my arms and legs would cooperate with anything inside my body that would or could move, even if i can't feel it move hopefully it will make them stop “No! No nooo Stop” I cry out hoping my voice would work, hoping this was all just a huge mistake. I try to get off the bed but I can’t even see my hand. Everything is so confusing and dark, but then I feel my arms being ripped up by my head, all I could see was shapes in the darkness and there were alot of shapes and alot of noise.