Prologue
A pleasant picture scenes flash before me. All the cells in my brain activate and electrify with what flashes before me it feels physical and real. I don’t just see the scene I am living the scene. I can smell the spring flowers on the green grass that stretches expansively before me. I feel the soft grass beneath my feet the sun is warming my whole body and bringing a brightness to the scene. I see the beautiful little girl her hand tightly gripping mine as she smiles. She is spinning with me and we are singing and playing childish games. All our cares are cast into the world and we are living recklessness in this moment. We live for this moment. We are oblivious to everyone and everything around us. She smiles and it brings even more lamination. There are sparks where our hands touch but they are calming and sedative. We are one. She wraps her arms arounds me and I fling mine around her. We are done with the games and we fall breathlessly to the grass. When her hand leaves mine, I feel a loss. It is bearable because I feel her near me. I hear her say my name in her sing song voice.
“Ailith, are you listening to me?”
My cheeks flush I was not listening to her at all but when she calls my name, she gets my full attention.
“No Drea but I am now” I beam a smile at her. I know when I smile, she will laugh and forget my transgression. You best friend and soul sister always gets your full attention.
“When we grow up and we find our Mates do you think we can still be close?” I see the sadness and hear the desperation in her voice. I know that she feels what I do some day we will be inevitably be separated. I have felt the pain of that separation in the waning feeling that sits deep within my soul. I can feel the love from my future Mate and that dulls the sensation but I long for Drea she is my soul sister. She is like a piece that fit perfectly in my soul. A piece that brings completion to me. I do not lie to her I never lie to her. I cannot lie to her even if I try, she knows me better than anyone in this world. She knows all my flaws and imperfections, all my strengths and weaknesses. I know all hers that is what brings us this completion.
“Drea you know the answer as do I, we will always be close in our hearts and souls but when we get Mates, they have to be first. Our children will take some of that space too. But always in the center of our hearts as long as they beat our bond will dwell in a space there too.” I place my hand in the center of my chest not only to bring emphasis to this point but to help bring me comfort.
“I know Ailith. I know it well I just like to hear you say it” She laughs and pushes me over and I run barefoot and wild trying to catch her as she races through the field tiny flowers breaking and being crushed by our carefree trample in the field. I do not have to race far she grabs my hand we begin to twirl again. I look into her smiling hazel eyes and watch her long hair black as night twirl in rhythm with her. Drea is the most beautiful girl I know her eyes change with her emotions and she is full of emotion. She tells me I am beautiful too, but I hate my mahogany hair it is curly and unruly. The music of our voices fills my ears and I am lost in this spring day. I want this to last forever. I can feel it begin to slip away. I begin to cry as the music fades and the bright sun behind us fades into the darkness behind my eyes. I can feel all the warmth, laughter and love fading. When I wake I am shaking and sobbing. I cannot stop the sobbing and I let the tears run unabashed down my cheeks. I am weeping now, and I try to smother the sounds of mourning that want to break free from within. There is a longing and an ache. I feel so empty. Gone its all gone.
