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Meredith : Making up
Sukey's fast asleep when I reach our cabin. Moira says she'd been expecting to babysit for longer. I ask her to stay awhile, and hide myself away in the bathroom while I think things through. I was in love with the Captain before, but I'm not sure that I still am. I'll always be grateful to him for rescuing me. First, from my fear of s****l intimacy and, secondly, from Kempton. But does that require me to love him without question? His manipulation of me and his desire to control me niggle away at me.
I push them to the back of my mind. He deserves to have me listen to him at least. I get up from the bathroom chair and stand in front of the washbasin to tidy my hair and renew my lip gloss. The girl who looks back at me is pale and strained. All the happiness I fe
