Mated or fated? (Completed Book #5 of the blood moon saga)

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I roll my eyes

"Why would you not be allowed?"

"Because toasty will get jealous if I can go and he can't"

I scoff and shake my head

"f*****g alpha's. He can come but he needs to be on his best behaviour and none of this you can't touch me s**t I have a life and have survived for 18 damn years without him in everyone's ear growling at them because i'm apparently his. So you don't have a mate?"

"Nope not yet. I'm a lone wolf just biding his time waiting for his one true love.."

"Oh please you're not really that soppy are you?"

He lets his head fall back and laughs and I hand him a coffee.

"No, I'm joking. I don't have a mate not yet anyway"

He says when he can breathe again. His laugh was honestly beautiful. We make our way back to the office and I take a deep breath before I go in. My mate is pacing the office and dad sighs when I arrive

"Thank the heavens, will you tell your mate to sit the f**k down he's wearing down the carpet and my patience"

I snort and hand dad his coffee and brain hands Xavier his.

"Sorry I'm just nervous"

I sit down on dad's desk and decide to cut the bullshit and talk to the boy.

"Ok look I'm sorry for freaking out on you earlier but you were looking at me like you were going to eat me and I'm not used to that kind of attention and I didn't like it. Plus you were a complete asshole. Who the hell approaches someone who you're meant to care for like that? Total douche move. And when I woke up this morning and dad told me I look like s**t and need to go change I had no idea I was changing to come face to face with my mate"

Dad snorts behind me

"You did. Thank heavens the boy didn't see you like that he would have ran the other direction. Like a cranky scarecrow with absolutely no fashion sense"

I scoff at him and give him the stink eye. I ran my hand from my head to my feet

"When your all this who the f**k needs fashion and to be honest I would have preferred him to run away it would have made this entire thing easier to deal with"

Toasty snorts at my words and him and Brian chuckle at us and I'm reminded of how damn appealing that laugh is. But it's not xaviers laugh that tugs at my heart, it's Brian's and I'm so confused by it. I close my eyes and sigh.

"Sorry we went off topic. Look I'm sorry about earlier I just wasn't expecting all this but Brian explained about your siblings"

"You told her that? Why the f**k would you tell her that? I don't want her to come back because she feels sorry for me because I lost them. I want her to come back because she wants to. You should not have told her that brain f**k. I'm sorry Megan I never wanted that to even factor into your decision. It wasn't fair"

Why the hell is he shouting at Brian again! I growl feeling protective of him. He raises an eyebrow at me and Brian smiles a wide smile stopping my heart

"don't blame him, I was about to drive over him. It's the only thing that made me stop and think then he explained that you're only an hour away and that James could come with me if he wanted then I started to consider it.

But look, I'm not a girly girl. I don't walk around in fancy clothing and I don't brush my hair because it's too damn long and I don't have time for that s**t. I have a wolf that comes with me everywhere I go and I mean he watches me Pee. I'm not polite and I fight with the pack and train with the pack, I drink like a dude in the desert when I happen to go out and I drive bikes, I wear leather jackets and doc martens. Don't even think about me pushing a baby out of me. I watched my sister give birth and that is possibly the most terrifying thing I've ever Seen. And I'm not a morning person like ever. So if you can and I mean it when I say you need to take the time to think about me and all my bad habits and you really think you can accept me for who I am and not want to change me then we can take it slow and start building a relationship. I have to get ready for this dinner and to go to the pub before Keagen sends a search party out for me. You can come to the pub but you need to be good and I mean it toasty you need to behave. So think about all that and then we will talk again"

I lean over my grinning father and kiss his cheek. He winks at me and I turn to leave but toasty puts his arm up to stop me.

"I accept you for every flaw you think you have, I make my men train at night because I prefer to sleep in. I'm always grumpy before coffee. The Wolfpack that came to your defence this morning is completely Amazing and I would be honoured to have as many as you like, come and live with us. I don't drive bikes but I do drive cars and I'd love to race you some time. I personally think fashion is overrated and doc martens and leather jackets would look amazing on you in particular. I like your hair away from your face. Why hide something so damn beautiful. I think every Luna needs to fight with her pack and train with them although I have a feeling you will be training them and that attitude is golden. Although I'd rather you not call me toasty in front of OUR pack I do appreciate the fact you have already given me a nickname that only you should call me. To be honest the moment I watched you make my big bad beta scream like a baby you stole my damn heart so I'm in. All in"

Well fuck..

That's was..

Harper

Damn hot! Jezzz can we keep him pleaseeeeeeeeee Megan pleaseee

Me

Maybe. f**k that was actually.. like.. no words.

I study him. I watch his brilliant green eyes light up even further. They were beautiful and the tiny golden specks were hypnotising. My arms are crossed over my stomach as I look up at his tall frame.

"Well you talk the talk let's hope you can walk the walk. I'll see you at dinner you can even sit beside me as long as you bring tequila"

He smiles and it lights up his entire face. I admit there is a pull there but I'm sort of dissatisfied that it's not stronger like my siblings' mates. It makes me want to kiss him to see if it would suddenly click into place. But I refrain from it

"It's a date. I'll see you at 6 then. I'll be the one with the tequila"

"It's not a date but Good. I better go then"

I walk past him but stop and take a sniff of his intoxicating scent and shiver then leave the room and head back towards my bike. At least he smelled good. James is waiting for me in the kitchen. I tell him everything and his eyes light up.

"Only an hour! Yessssss! If we wanted we could see each other every day. This is good Megs"

"It is, isn't it. That's if I decide to go. Where is your fiancé?"

He rolled his eyes

"Where do you think"

"Keagen"

I groan she really does have a hard on for tonight for some reason and I was so sick of talking about dresses and shoes and makeup. What happened to just jeans and a T-shirt for dinner. Why such an effort. I decide to avoid her at all costs

"Wanna go get lunch? I need to stay away from her at all costs she will have me looking like a Barbie otherwise and I'm not in the mood"

"That's why I was waiting for you, gran wants us over for lunch. I said I'd go but if you don't want to we can do something different?"

"Nah grans is good but we are taking my bike. Haa I nearly made Brian Pee himself it was amazing"

"I know Caden told me. f*****g p***y"

Harper

Damn hot pussy

Me

You can't drool over them both Harper. Why is our bond not like everyone else's?

Harper

I don't know. It's confusing.

Me

Can you talk to Brian's wolf

Harper

I can try, why?

Me

Because maybe he knows what's going on?

I cut the link and go back to cackling away and head for the bike and spend the rest of the afternoon with gran as she showers us with attention and fills us with food.

She cackled away as I filled her in about toasty and she apparently knew his parents and said they were not very good people and didn't treat their kids well, but when they died and my mate took over things in the pack changed for the better and they all seem really happy now.

He treats them all well and they are very laid back. They are not a huge pack but they are a close pack. By the time we leave I am feeling happier about my future and even if my mate is a douchebag at least his pack isn't.

Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to be Luna to a small laid back pack? Pack life was good here but I hate the structure and formalities that come with being Boss and the thought of not having to deal with that at least not all the time made my mind ease a little.

Soon I was actually getting excited about seeing him. I tried to shake the feeling but I couldn't and finally I gave into it. But I wasn't sure if it was excitement to see him or excitement to see if the bond had grown.

Everything would be easier if I fancied him loads or if he was funny or nice, but he wasn't those things and I didn't like the thought of living without those qualities forever

As I stood under the stream of water my mind wandered to Brian's body and what it could do to mine. What he could make me feel with his touch because I was certain I could c*m just by the tone of his voice. Without even realising it my hand slid down my body and my fingers made their way between my wet lips.

I moan as I think of him touching me, I rub on my hard bud and add a finger inside myself. I slowly pump in and out of myself and the pressure between my legs intensifies.

My core clenches as I imagine his tongue running over my body and how it would feel to have his teeth sink into me. I c*m holding back my cry's and fall forward and rest my head against the cold tiles of my shower until I come down from my high

I didn't even feel guilty that I didn't feel that way for Xavier. I'm not sure what was happening but thoughts of brian invaded my brain and I couldn't turn it off.

I decide to link Baylee as I brush my tangled hair out

Me

Do I have to wear a dress to this thing or is Keagen telling me lies cause I don't want to look like a damn barbie doll

Baylee

Haha she's lying to you, you can wear whatever you want, just make sure it's clean and isn't old and holey

Me

I'm getting seriously offended, do you all think I don't change or shower or what is the deal

She cackles down the link as I roll my eyes and cut it. I locked my door and just in time too, because Keagen started to bang on the other side of it.

"Megan open up I need to get you ready"

"Nope, not today. Baylee said I can wear what I want so I'm getting myself ready thank you"

"Megs you don't want to look like s**t for your mate do you"

I scoff and open the door

"No Keagen I don't want to look like a fake version of myself in front of my mate! Or anyone for that matter! Big difference. Now move along so I can get myself ready"

She growls at me but I ignore her and close my door in her face and lock it. I hear her stomp down the hall. I dry my hair and let my natural wave flow, taking bits to each side and plaiting them and pulling them back to keep the hair from my face. After all, apparently it's a beautiful face.

I decided on a tight black crop top that comes halfway down my toned stomach. Then I pull on my tight black ripped jeans that make's my ass look remarkable. I stick on my new doc marten heels and sit down to do my makeup.

I add a little liner to my eyes and smoke it out just a smidge. I forgot the concealer and slob, I really didn't need it, unless I didn't sleep. then I couldn't wear enough. I add just a little red lipstick to my lips and buff it out slightly so it's more like a tint than anything. When I'm done with that I throw on my new leather jacket and look myself over in the mirror.

Happy with myself I took a selfie for my i********:, I'm biker chic 101 and I reached just under 200,000 followers. I don't do much. I just pose on my bikes and I mostly look like s**t so I don't really understand what the fascination is but people started sending me cool jackets and trousers for free and then eventually they started paying me to model them.

After that started happening I ended up with even more followers and it pays well and I don't have to go sit in a boring office all day or depend on mum and dads trust fund so it gives me a sense of purpose. After I upload a few photos I leave the room and head for the kitchen. I grin when I see Lola.

"Wana take photos of me on my new bike?"

"Yeah you look hot"

"Thank you, you are as beautiful as always. But how the hell do you walk in those things"

She shrugs and grins and links her arm with mine. We head outside just as the sun starts to set so it's the perfect backdrop for my picture. We take a few pictures and then I edit the lighting a little and post them

"I'm going to drive the bike over. You want to come with me?"

She screws her face up

"With you in this dress? No thank you James is driving us over when Keagen finishes getting ready. Mum and dad is already there"

I smile and nod, then I throw on my helmet and head back to the packhouse. I park in the garage and go in the back door to avoid any unwanted attention from people I don't know.

As I walk in I can't help but smile at my mate. He's in a tight black T-shirt and dark jeans with black dress shoes. His muscles ripple under his shirt and Harper starts to purr in my head. Making me roll my eyes at her. A smile was one thing, a purr was completely overreacting, he wasn't that damn hot.

When he sees me he stops and gasps and swallows loudly looking me over and checking me out. I bite my lip as his eyes meet mine and I give him a genuine smile.

My heart doesn't flutter as his face lights up the way it does when Brian's around, he smiles back. I was waiting for it to get stronger. For me to want him unconditionally but it wasn't working and I was getting annoyed and bored of the entire thing.

Emmet pulls me from my daze as he walks over to me. I hunch down a little so I'm eye level with him.

"Megan, you look so pretty tonight. So so pretty"

I grin. He's so sweet I wish I could take him with me when I leave

"Thank you emmet. You look so handsome tonight too."

"Yes I'm very handsome. I always am"

I laugh at him, he turns around never looking me in the eye and points to xavier.

"That man, your mate?"

He walks over cautiously but stops away from him not getting to close

"Yes. Say hello to toasty"

"Hey emmet it's nice to meet you"

Xiaver puts his hand out to shake emmets but he ignores it and looks him over.

"Toasty. Your parents must not have liked you much that's a weird name"

I snort and laugh as toasty's face falls and he throws me a dirty look

"My real name is xavier. Your sister just likes to tease me and call me toasty"

Emmet looks at me

"I think toasty's better. I will call you toasty"

Emmet walks away and I can't help but laugh.

"Seriously Megan I can't believe you"

I slap his chest and laugh even louder and he chuckles along with me as I pat his chest trying to stop myself from snorting. But as my hand hits him again his eyes darken and he catches my hand and looks around the room. When he seen the coast was clear he raised an eyebrow in the air

"Now who were you thinking about when you used these to do bad things to yourself"

My giggling fit comes to an abrupt end as what he said registers. My face flushes instantly and I wish the floor would open and swallow me up.

But the sparks light up my hand and I gasp at the contact realising this is the first time our skin has made contact. I almost cry out at the sensation as he takes my fingers to his mouth and says so quietly only I can hear

"What exactly was I doing in that head of your when the imaginary me made you c*m"

If only he new what I was thinking there would probably be murder on the menu tonight.

My mouth was dry and I was so shocked I had no words to say. I just watched as he sucked my fingers into his warm wet mouth. My entire body tensed and I wasn't sure if I liked the feeling.

The entire moment reminded me of a dog licking my fingers and shiver trying my best not to gag.

A laugh from behind him pulls me out of my trance and he takes my fingers out of his mouth but holds my hand in his as random people start to walk into the dinning room. He pulls out a chair for me and sits beside me and pours me a large glass of tequila.

"We can finish that conversation later"

I let him hold my hand as I down the glass of tequila in one go and finally I have enough saliva to actually talk to him.

"So anyway, where is Brian?"

He rolled his eyes

"He is probably still standing in front of a mirror somewhere doing his hair"

I chuckle and nod

"Yeah he seems to be the Ken doll type"

Harper

He doesn't even need to stand in front of a mirror he's perfect just the way he is

Me

Would you stop or at least make up your mind it's hard enough to deal with these confusing as f**k feelings without you making it worse

Harper

I'm sorry. But I'm just as confused.

Xaviers voice pulls me from my conversation with Harper

"That he is. You look beautiful tonight. You really pull the biker chic look of but I swear i've seen you before but I can't place where"

I bit my lip and shrug

"Do you have i********:?"

He furrows his brows and looks at me

"I do, why?"

"That's probably where you seen me I'm bikerchic101"

His eyes widen and he pulls out his phone and goes to the app. He doesn't have any pictures up on his page but he scrolls through his feed and my new pictures pop up

"Well damn my mate is famous"

I chuckle and shake my head

"definitely not famous. I don't know why anyone follows me never mind pays me to take pictures"

"I have an idea Your the ultimate package"

He pulls the picture up and takes the hand that he's holding mine in and never lets me go but trails his finger over my face in the photo

"That face and those eyes would make any man weak at the knees. But pair it with this body and those curves.. hell I don't know how I'm ever going to focus right again. And see that ass and the way you pose on that bike. Damn every man wants you and every girl wants to be you and that is why you are what you are"

He looks at my blushing face like he would jump in front of a bullet for me. But again I was confused, I don't think I want him to jump in front of a bullet for me.

"You're very charming when you want to be arnt you?"

"I'll spend the rest of my life charming you baby"

I smile at him trying to distract myself from the sinking feeling in my stomach. Instead I concentrate on his eyes. I get completely lost in his eyes and his scent along with the tingles from where he's touching my hand. As long as he didn't talk or I didn't concentrate on his face then maybe I could do this.

Someone clears their throat and I turn my attention to Brian who sits opposite me.

"Nice to see you both get along"

"I figured out why she's familiar looking"

He hands Brian the phone and he whistles

"Damn girl that is hot"

I blush and toasty growls making my brain laugh and me growl at xavier! Why does he do that? It pisses me off! He looks at me confused but I don't care and turn my attention back to Brian, now his face doesn't give me the creeps.

"Oh calm down toasty he's just telling you how damn lucky you are to have all this"

I wink at him and he chuckles then kisses my hand again and my body tenses.

"As long as he knows that it's me that has all this, then we are cool"

"Oh don't get your panties in a twist because your jealous I like her more than you"

His words made my heart beat faster and I blushed. Damn body betraying me like this

Harper

I'm sorry I can't help it brians so beautiful

Toasty's face falls at brain and I cackle as Brian winks at me and pours us all a glass of tequila.

My stomach does a flip at his wink and I can't help but grin like he is my most favourite person in the world

Harper

I think he might just be that

Me

Harperrrrr please stop it, your confusing me

Soon the food arrives and I try to pull my hand away to eat.

"Can I have my hand back now please"

"Nope"

"Ugh yes"

"Nope

"Yes"

"Nope"

"Yes"

"Nope"

"And why the hell not"

We get the attention of a few people sitting around us but I ignore their smirks and insulted looks. f*****g stuck up assholes

"Because it's mine"

"Actually it's attached to me so it's technically mine"

"And you are mine so it's mine"

I growl at him and he smirks at me as I try and fail at pulling my fingers from his monstrous hand. I didn't even know hands come in this size jezz

Harper

Ha can you imagine what's in his pants if that's the size of his hand

Me

Harper seriously your ridiculous

I cough and splutter at the thought and he reaches over with his other hand and pats my back

"Are you all right over there?"

"Yes now please May I have my hand back"

"Nope"

"Oh for the love of.. this is getting us nowhere"

"Exactly so be quiet and eat your food"

"Don't tell me to be quiet and give me my damn hand back"