Unknowingly falling

When he tricked me

Chapter 4

Mary

I was desperately waiting for Friday to arrive, and for it being Tuesday night was just torture. I was so excited to go with Alex, to see if he meant it as a romantic date. I just hope to god he didn't mean it as a friendly date. What would I do if he really was just being friendly, and was not interested in me as I was in him? Well, maybe I shouldn't dwell on it. After all, he seemed really excited to tell me he made the team and he did ask me to go with him in some sort of way. That's got to count for something, right?

This was thoughts going on replay as often as my playlist on Spotify that contains my ultimate favorites. If it weren't for that one of the songs was at the end, were the vocals were barely a whisper, I wouldn't have heard the soft tap on the glass door to the balcony. It wasn't a fancy balcony, really. In some movies, the balcony is the ultimate romantic scene. My balcony, would fit a horror movie or something. Yep, old and rusty.

I took of my headphones and placed them beside my pillow and went to check if a bird or something had crashed into the glass door. It happens a rare time now and then. I opened the door. I frowned when I saw nothing besides the really rusty table and chair. Imagine the really old outside furniture, standing in pouring rain day out and day in, and you know what kind of balcony furniture I have.

I was about to close the door when I saw the small stone, lying on the floor with something wrapped around it. I picked it up and took of the piece of thread that hold some piece of paper in place.

Meet me by the small oak by the bleachers at school? I have something I want to tell you, in a more romantic place then from the window frame where other people might hear. -Alex

My heart started hammering more and more for each word. Could this mean what I think it means? He wants to tell me something, in a romantic setting. Was my crush mutual? Oh my god.

I closed the door and rushed over to the bed to pick up my phone and check the time. It was only 9 P.M. My mom and dad were working late again, and maybe I could manage to get to meet Alex and getting back before they got home.

I quickly checked my outfit, it was okay. I dragged a brush through my hair and fixed my make-up. I ran downstairs, grabbed my jacket while running out the front door. I decided to take the car this time, because I really shouldn't be running all the way over there right before meeting Alex.

I was smiling excitedly for myself while driving. I was so sure he was going to ask me out on a date, maybe confess that he has feelings for me, or something along those lines. I was glad it was almost pitch black outside, because I'm really sure I'm going to be blushing tonight.

My hands gripped the steering wheel a little tighter as I got nervous. I was looking forward to meeting him, don't get me wrong, but who doesn't get a little nervous when their crush ask you to meet him at a romantic place?

I parked in my usual spot at the school parking lot. I took a deep breath and let out a small excited squeal as I excited my car.

When the oak tree reached my vision I stopped for a second before I speed walked over there. I saw the silhouette of a guy standing there, leaning against the tree with his hands in the jacket, a leather jacket. When I got closer, a gasped escaped me.

It wasn't Alex, it was Sean. I can't believe this. "Sean!" I yelled angrily, making him jump as he turned around to face me.

"I want to say something to you in a more romantic place" I quoted the note, using air marks. I can't believe he did this!

"You came" he stated.

I let out a snort; "Of course I did, because I thought you were Alex! Do you realize how happy that note made me when I thought it was him, and then I find out it is you?" I yelled, hurt and angry.

"Ouch" he muttered, looking down for one second then meeting my eyes. "I'm sorry, but in my defense I knew you wouldn't have agreed to talk to me or meet me if you knew it was me. Can you just please stay and hear me out?" he pleaded. Did he really except me to stay after this prank?

"No! I'm risking getting grounded if my parents come home before me, but Alex was worth that risk, you are really not" I shot at him. I knew that for some reason, that those words would hurt him, but he hurt me too. Getting my hopes up like that, just to be let down in the worst way possible.

"Okay, maybe I deserved that...but I'm begging you to stay and hear me out" he tried one more time to make me stay, but I wasn't backing down.

"No" I said deadly serious, turning around. He was quick to reach out and grab on to my upper arm.

"Hey, what the hell do you think you're doing?" I yelled at him. What the hell happened to him? I really thought he was the player type of guy who didn't give a crap about girls except getting laid, so why the hell is he acting like he is everything but the words I just described him with?

"Making you listen to all I have to say. I don't give a damn if you get grounded, because you need to hear me out. Promise to stay and I let go" he said.

I really wanted his hands off, so I agreed. "Fine" I said through clenched teeth. He let go of his grasp and I took a step back because we were standing way to close for my liking.

"I don't know what happened the night we spent together, other than that it was something different than any other experience I have ever had. Then the day when you fell in gym I don't even know why I was so quick to volunteer to take you to the nurse, or maybe I do know, but it is all so confusing." He said, took a deep breath before continuing; "All I know is that when I asked you out and said because I thought you wanted it that way, it was really because I wanted it. I also have never ever chased a girl before, and that's because you're so different and I think I really like that. Can't you just please go with me to the party on Friday? Please, I promise I won't try anything if that's what you thought, but I really just want to spend some time with you, getting to know you. Please go out with me?" he said, finishing his speech.

I was at a loss of words. Did I make a massive mistake that night, choosing him? This is exactly what I wanted to avoid, feelings. How could I have ever known that Sean would turn out like this? He had spent the night with hundreds of girls, so why me out of all people?

"Sean. I already told you no-" I started saying, rejecting him again.

"I know, but I just wonder why. Give me a reasonable answer as to why you won't go with me, something you don't like about me or anything" he said. God, he is just never giving up.

I was a little baffled. "I-I..." Then the light bulb went off in my head; "Alex asked me, and you already know I like him, otherwise you wouldn't have signed his name" I said.

Something dark went over his features, intimidating me a bit actually. He stepped closer, so close that if I would turn my head upwards, I'm pretty sure our lips would crash. His mouth was so close to my ear when he whispered something; "You're reason wasn't about one single thing about me that you don't like, because you can't think of one thing. However, I think you're just afraid to admit to yourself that you do remember our night better than you think" he whispered huskily in my ear, making shivers go down my spine. Oh god. He knows what he is doing, reminding me of that night while standing so close. I can't say it didn't have any effect on me, but I'm a girl and he is in fact really hot, but that's just it...I think.

I think I was in some sort of a trance, because I almost didn't notice how he tilted my chin upwards, meeting his eyes. He also wore a proud smirk on his lips as he looked into my eyes. "See, you do feel something, it is written all over your face right now" he said proudly, like he had accomplished something. The thing that terrifies me is that I can't deny that he is right. Maybe it did something to me, being so close, with his lips near my ear, but that doesn't mean I have romantic feelings for him. To say it straight out. All that did was just...something.

"Sean..." my voice raspy as I turned my face to the side. Why did he have to do this. Why couldn't he just leave me alone like we promised each other? All he does now, is messing up my feelings. "I can't be with you." I said.

"Just tell me why" he said, not giving up.

"Because people can't trust you!" I suddenly erupted, yelling in his face and took a quick step back. What the hell just happened? Did I finally admit the truth to myself, that I didn't even I knew yet? I thought I just didn't like him. How was it that it was a reason I had never thought? Was that really the reason all along?

"What? I may not be the best person in the world, but people can trust me, especially the ones I care about" he stated.

"Trust you? We promised each other that the night wouldn't change anything, like it never happened. I kept up my end of the deal, but you didn't. Therefore, people can't trust you" I fired at him.

"You know. I actually never promised I would stay away from you, because in that situation, you were the most likely to get clingy. I did keep up my end of the deal, which was helping you out that night fulfilling your wish" he said, and it started to sound like he was getting angry.

Uh oh...That is true. He actually never promised that. "Still, why the hell did I have to promise to stay away when you clearly don't want me to?" I asked harshly, crossing my arms over my chest.

"Because I didn't know things we're going to turn out like this!" he yelled.

"Can't you just f*****g accept that I turned you down, you can't win over everyone!" I yelled back.

"But I can't get you out of my head. It's driving me crazy!" he said, sounding desperate, like he didn't know what to do anymore.

"It's not my f*****g problem!" I continued the yelling.

"Not your problem? You started this when you asked me to take your virginity!" he said. I can't believe he is pinning this on me. We were crystal clear that night we wouldn't know each other after that, and he and I agreed on it, so it's none of my fault!

"And we both agreed that we we're stranger after that night. So how can you blame me like this when I'm no different than any other girl who throws themselves at you? I did the exact same thing as them, so don't talk to me like I did something bad!" I said harshly, glaring at him, hoping looks would actually starting to kill.

"But the problem ia, you are not like the other girls, but none of us did know that! Okay, so it is none of our faults that we didn't know, but that doesn't solve the problem we have right now" he said, calming down a bit.

"Our problem? Are you kidding me! It's your problem, not mine!" I said through clenched teeth. Then a new, almost random question suddenly popped into my head.

"Wait a minute...How the hell did you know where I lived, and which room was mine?" I asked, deadly calm. Was he stalking me or something?

"Don't look at me like I'm some stalker creep. One of my friends knows, he lives nearby and heard you yelling at your neighbor from that window one night" he explained. Oh, so he probably means the night Alex moved into the house next door.

"Okay, fine. Anyway, are we done here now?" I asked, getting tired of this constant obsession or whatever the hell his problem is.

"You really can't even ever consider giving me a chance, when after all I have never been anything but nice to you?" he asked. I couldn't deny it. He may have a rude personality, but he has actually never bullied me or anything, or anyone for that matter. He did help me when I asked him, he carried me to the nurse and...he has paid enough attention to me to know I like Alex.

I didn't know what to answer to that, so I just threw my hands up in the air and let out a puff of air before turning around, praying my parents weren't home.

*

I opened the door silently. I closed my eyes tight, in case I would be attacked by a scolding from my mother or anything, but as I stood there after closing the door for a good ten seconds and nothing was heard I let out a relieved breath I didn't realized I was holding.

Everything was silent. Not even a message from either my mom or dad. Love you too guys. The time was almost 11 P.M. They could have at least sent a message saying good night or something.

Let me tell you, having parents that are almost never home gives you these advantages: Parties whenever you want, don't have to worry about coming home drunk, can be out as late as you want very often, get money from them when they feel guilty about almost never checking in, and a lot more, but none of that matters more than the feeling that your parents actually loves you. I wonder sometimes if my parents actually care for me or just keep me alive.

I think many kids or teens if you will, think it's embarrassing having a close relationship to their parents, or have to ask them for a ride before you or your friends can drive, or permission to do this or that, but if you have that, it will be so worth it when you get by that stage where you would rather die than be seen with your mom or dad in public.

Being all alone is not worth it. I rather take embarrassing parents any day over loneliness when your friends or possibly boyfriend isn't available.

I went up to my room, might as well go to bed. Before I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth I went over to my window in my room. Maybe it was a little creepy to check if the light in Alex's room was still on. Maybe if he was still up I could text him.

Sadly, the light was off, and my friends are probably asleep. They usually fall asleep early on weekdays. Alex is asleep, and my parents aren't here. The only person who is awake at this time, and is the only one who thought of me so late is Sean...But that does not mean anything, so I push that thought away, it doesn't count. It's not like my friends, or Alex for that matter doesn't care, they just like to sleep early.

I just happen to feel lonely when I'm all alone.