it was all a dream

Alesha's POV Today's the the day I begin my new school after my aunt accepted my pleas to stay with her and her family for the last school year. After what ensued in my last school, I decided to get a change of environment and start afresh. I'm only sixteen but I've had to endure problems meant for thirty year olds. If I have learnt anything in whatever that ensued, that is to keep going and never give up. This is a huge school and I just hope I can fit in or better still be invisible till I graduate. I don't plan on making friends but, should I meet nice people that would want to hang out at times when they're free, I'll always be available. Making the first approach is sometimes a huge challenge for me and I really wish to overcome that weakness. I have been shown to my class and I decided to take a seat at the back so no one notices me to cause any future troubles. I plan on graduating in this school since this is last option so I don't want to make any mistakes and graduate peacefully. During these last days, weeks, months and year in school, I plan on making the most out of it with or without friends and I just hope it will be worth it and go as planned. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even realize when the English teacher walked in. I was lost in a trance until one of my fellow students knocked me out of it. "Well, Ms Greene since it's your first day here I'd love for you to introduce yourself to the entire class so we can properly address you". the teacher said standing right in front of me. Oops, I just realized I never introduced myself here too. By the way my name is Alesha. Alesha Greene. I completely zoned out right after I heard his demand." Earth to Ms Greene ", the teacher said snapping his fingers before me.Yet I couldn't focus, fear had gripped me to the extent that I couldn't even identify my surroundings anymore. All sorts of questions popped up in my brain. What if someone from my previous school knew me here, what if I end up disgracing myself, what if I don't measure up to their expectations? D**n, I really lack confidence and self belief. I think I should be working hard on that to eliminate that trait I possess. All the negativity in my head made me forget my existence in the classroom. I was brought back to the present state when someone nudged me in the shoulder and I did the introduction, couple of the students were kinda interested whereas the others did not. I heard a part of them snickering and murmuring about the incident whereas others gave me looks that screamed " weirdo" but I turned deaf ears to them because I'm bent on completing the school's full year. During the class, I got one friend who came in late for the class. His name is Arthur, he's cool and I hope that we can be best friends moving forward. I don't plan on keeping any friends but with him, I think I can manage. At the end of the class, we're given a project to work on. We're asked to write a letter to our pen pals and since I currently have no friends, I think I might not be able to participate. the teacher evaded my thoughts and said it carries ten percent of our scores. I tried asking Arthur if he'd like for me to write to him but he was engulfed in series of conversations right after the teacher left. I decide to go for lunch and ask him later.