Not Gone, Just Forgotten

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

Kaden's POV

Still lying on the floor I couldn't get that picture of her out of my head. Her eyes were so beautiful, that bright purple. Goddess I could stare into those eyes all day, I would willingly get lost in those eyes for hours. 

And if her eyes are purple, that means its true, she is the Moon Goddess... Holy s**t!

Hearing her breathing from the bathroom I could feel her start to hyperventilate, making my way over to the bathroom I sat with my back against the door.

"Hey, it's okay just breathe baby, I'm going to sit right here okay?"

I heard a whimper come from the other side of the door and then a sliding sound which I assume was her leaning against the door. Listening closely her heartbeat started to slow down and her breathing was becoming more controlled, it pleased me to know that she was calming down with my scent around her, even if I wasn't holding her.

"It started when I was 3." 

Feyres voice wavered as she began but I listened intently, noticing how her emotions would be portrayed through her voice.

"That was when I shifted, 10 years earlier than any other wolf. My mother knew at that point that something was different with me, and since that point my wolf was hidden from everything. When I turned everything changed, I had to hide who I was on the inside and the outside, I'm sorry but I had to hide from you too. I know it's not right but it's the only way I've managed to stay safe all these years."

The pain was evident in her voice and all I wanted was to hold her and never let go, standing up I moved to the closet chucked on some sweatpants and sat right back down against the door. I didn't hear anything come from the bathroom for five minutes before the lock turned. Kneeling to face the door it opened slowly and revealed my little mate with tears streaming her face. Immediately I scooped her up into my arms and took us to the bed, propping myself up against the headboard and pillows I placed her between my legs, her head resting on my chest. 

"When I met you that day in the meadow I knew what you were to me, I could sense as soon as I looked into those beautiful green eyes. But it scared me, the fact you had found me when I was taught to hide. After that day I didn't bare to think about you."

At those words I felt a sharp pain in my heart, knowing that my mate didn't want to think of me. I looked at her as she was looking at me from her place against my chest, her hand started to trace around my chest where my heart beat under her fingertips.

"It was the worst mistake I had ever made, leaving that meadow and not letting myself think of you, of my mate. But in my eyes I had to protect you as well, running away was how I protected you because I knew if I stayed you would have died and it would have been my fault."

She sat up and moved herself so her legs were around my waist, her eyes never left mine as my hands went to her hips. I knew she wanted to say something but I felt she was scared, rubbing her hips with my thumb trying to comfort her she seemed to physically relax under my touch. 

"Whatever it is you need to do, go for it. I will be here with you the whole time."

Her smile meant I had said the right thing, she brought her hands up to my face and caressed my cheeks.

"Kaden you have to promise me you wont freak out when I show you. Do you promise?"

"Yes I promise I wont freak out."

She seemed to have renewed faith in me as she took a deep breath and then closed her eyes. I waited patiently for a minute, thinking she was kind of crazy when I noticed her hair. It was shifting from the dirty blonde hair that I loved with her freckles to a beautiful silver, going straight down from the roots to the tip of her hair. Feyre moved her head to face me and her new hair reflected the sunlight coming in from the windows, I was completely and utterly mesmerised.

"Kaden?"

Looking away from her hair thats when I noticed her eyes, they were stunning. She had one green and the other was a mix of a sea blue and purple, just like her wolves purple eyes. I was in a trance, she was even more beautiful now, her hair suited her so much more and her freckles reflected the silver off her hair whilst still making her face seem so tanned and beautiful. But her eyes, they showed her true self, the side of her that she had hid for so many years from everyone she met. The fact that she trusts me enough to show me this side of her makes me fall deeper in love with her than I already am.

"Will you please say something, you're starting to scare me with your staring. If this is too uncomfortable for you I understand, I mean its a lot to handle, I'm so-"

I cut her off with my lips, not knowing how to properly say everything I put everything into that kiss. All the pain I felt when she left that meadow, the yearning over the years, and the joy since I found her. I didn't want anything more I just wanted that kiss, for her to know that I will never leave her know matter what happens.

"I love you, Feyre. Nothing in the world could ever change that, and your appearance it is but one aspect of you, I love them all. Although this look does suit you more."

Feyre chuckled at my statement and wrapped her arms around my neck, nuzzling her head into the crook of my neck I felt her mumble words that made me feel high.

"I love you too, and I am never going to run away from you like I did in the meadow."

She gave me quick peck and then removed her arms from my neck, snuggling herself against me. I moved to pull the blanket up over her as I felt her breathing even out. Stroking her hair as she fell asleep, I marvelled at the strands of silver around my fingers, I never wanted to move, this was how I wished to spend every minute of every day for the rest of my life.