My Husband's illegitimate Son

JANE POINT OF VIEW ‘’ My dear I am certain this time around the test will come out positive. ‘’ My mother says to me trying to calm my nerves as we await the home pregnancy test results. This home pregnancy test will be one of the many I have taken this year and with every test I am losing hope of getting what I really desire . In my five years of marriage my husband has provided me with not only luxuries but love and affection money can not buy . He has indeed given me the world he promised me when we first met. However , I feel like I have failed to give him one of his heart‘s desires and it haunts me every single day to know that as a wife I have not been able to fulfil one of the most important roles which is to give my husband an heir . I really want to give him a father's joy and an heir to his wonderful business empire . My husband has built our business empire with his blood and sweat to provide the lifestyle I am enjoying every day , therefore the least I can do is to ensure that I bear him a child who will carry our family‘ s name forward . Throughout the years I have tried everything in my power to conceive but nothing seems to work . I have been to fertility clinics , tried all the suggestions from the internet and I have even travelled the globe visiting modern and traditional doctors calming they can assist me with the problem I have but none of their methods or medication has assisted me in any way whatsoever . At a certain point I have even thought about trying surrogacy as one of my friends suggested but a part of me is against it solely because I want to carry my own child for nine months . I want to enjoy motherhood from the time I know a fetus is growing inside of me, to the first kick until I get to hold my baby with my hands after going through the pain of giving life . Personally I want to enjoy the first hand experience of it all and most importantly to be the woman I feel my husband deserves . ‘’ My dear time is up , let us check the results . ‘’ My mother says to me as we enter the bathroom where ten home pregnancy tests of different brands are lining up on top of the bathroom counter tops . ‘’ Mom , What if they are all negative ? Is this yet another disappointment ? Will I ever be a mother in my life ? Oh I can not master the courage to see these results , can you please check the results for me . I do not think there is any courage left in me to see the unbearable results . ‘’ I respond to my mother with eyes shut and my heart beating so loud , I bet even the servant working in the next room could hear it . After two minutes of suspense my mother gives me a tight hug and I just know she is about to break bad news to me . There goes my dreams of giving my husband the child he wants with all his heart . It is just so frustrating to go through this pain every single month . Am I not deserving to be a parent ? Am I not good enough to be a mother ? I break free from my mother ‘ s tight hug and immediately rush out of the bathroom with tears racing down my cheeks . ‘’ I will never be a mother . I am a useless woman failing to produce an heir for my husband . Without a child I will never be complete , my family will never be complete . ‘’ I shout out loud in pain , breaking everything I can get my hands on . ‘’ Jane ! please stop , you will hurt yourself . Not being able to have a child does not make you less of a woman . Your actions speaks volume when it comes to defining the woman you are . Moreover , five out of ten of the home pregnancy tests came out positive . There is a high possibility you might be pregnant . ‘’ My mother says to me and my legs instantly freeze just at the thought that there is a possibility I might be pregnant . ‘’ Tomorrow we should visit an obstetrician just to be certain before breaking any news to Marcus . ‘’ My mothers says to me before calling the servants to clean up the mess I made . MARCUS POINT OF VIEW Growing up in the orphanage has made me the man I am today and half the man I aspire to be one day . Growing up I have always thought that having a successful business empire and a beautiful wife will make me the happiest man in the entire world . My younger self thought that money and power would fill the void I had for the longest time, little did I know that a time will come in my life to desire to have something money can not buy . My age mates are busy building play houses in their back yards , running around the park with their children , going to father-daughter dances and football games while , I go from one business meeting to another . Every day after work my employees look forward to seeing their children at home while I go to a huge mansion with only two people at the dining table by supper time. I have more money than them but they seem to be the happiest . I guess this is the price to pay for my past mistake . A beautiful wife, money, and power are not filling the emptiness I have felt since I chose myself over the life I had created . A beautiful woman by my side and a six figure income in my bank account are just not enough to make me happy . Do not get me wrong I adore my wife with every fiber of my being but what good is building a great business empire if no one will continue the legacy I worked so hard to build from nothing . Most importantly, I want to be a father more than I need an heir to carry my name forward . I want to experience true love from the joy of fatherhood which I robbed myself of decades ago . I want to be part of every stage that comes with being a father from feeling my baby‘s kicks in his or her mother‘s belly , to holding my baby in my arms for the first time , first step , first word and to teaching my offspring about everything there is to know about life . However , as much as I want to experience fatherhood with all my heart , putting unnecessary pressure on my wife is something I will never do . The society we live in is already putting so much pressure on her to have a child hence , I will not put her through the same ordeal at home because my wife has been by my side since the day I met her . She loved me when I did not have a cent to my name and supported me from the first business idea I ever had . Therefore , the best I can do in return for her love and support is to be a loving husband to her . I failed to be a responsible father in the past hence I will not add being a inconsiderate husband to my list . ‘’ Sir , Mr Miller is requesting to see you right now . Should I let him in ? ‘’ My personal assistant asks me . ‘’ You may bring Mr Miller to my office and please organize some refreshments for us . ‘’ I respond to my personal assistant who just told me my brother-in-law is requesting to see me . Gift Miller is married to Linda Miller , my wife ‘ s elder sister and my worst mistake in life . Gift seldom visits me in my office let alone at home so his visit to my office today came as a surprise . I wonder why he has come to see me today ? What could he want to discuss with me during working hours ? Most importantly , does his wife know he is here to meet me ? Why the sudden unannounced visit ?