TTMA [Complete ✔️]

6. Restless

Knox's P.O.V

Ever since I found out the girl in the hospital room was supposed to be my mate I haven't been able to sleep. The bond kept pushing me to go to her and it took everything in me to fight against it. Kane has also been fighting with me nonstop, causing me headaches and sleepless nights. Tonight, was no different.

I tossed and turned, getting stuck in the blanket a few times and rolling the sheets into a mess rather than perfectly straightened along the sides of the bed. My head was pounding as beads of sweat trickled down my forehead. My body was no different, sweat dripping from under the blankets.

I groaned, snapping my eyes open and clenching my fists before slamming them on the mattress.

''Will you let me sleep?" I growled at my wolf.

''Not until we go see our mate!" He growled back, causing me even more pain, but I chose to ignore it like any other time.

''I told you, that girl isn't our mate!"

''Even if you try to deny it-" Before he could finish his sentence, I slammed the mental wall, refusing to listen to his whining.

He pushed on the barrier, causing my brain to feel like it was being violently shaken. I turned the blankets into a ball and threw it across the room, the fabric falling on the floor.

I pushed my body up, but quickly found out I was too weak to stand on my own. Clutching random objects for support, I made my way into the bathroom, where I took a quick shower and put on the first pieces of clothing I grabbed from my dresser and wardrobe.

I checked my phone to see it was only ten to three in the morning, the moon still high up in the sky, but went into my office anyway.

It had now been two weeks since my pack and I rescued the girls from the trafficking ring and searching for their identity was harder than I had initially thought. For those two weeks, we had only found five girls from one hundred and fifty and they were yet to be returned to their packs as they were still getting treated and healing.

My Beta and I have been working hard to seek reports of missing she-wolves from other packs and most have been helpful to give them to us without a fight. Even then it took a while to skim through them and match the report to a rescued she-wolf.

I placed my elbows on the table and ran my hands through my hair in frustration. My eyes were hurting from the lack of sleep and the staring into a screen, yet I couldn't even get ten minutes of sleep. If I wasn't a werewolf, I would have lost my mind a long time ago.

And still, being the only one awake had its perks. I got to enjoy the peace for a little, I got to be alone, away from the hungry eyes of unmated she-wolves and the expectations of the pack. When I was younger, I used to think a lot about whether I would meet their expectations, but it seems that there is no such thing as meeting them. No matter how hard you try someone will always find a reason to complain so now I simply do what I see fit.

Time passed, the moon was replaced by the colors of the sun that shone high up in the sky. The peace and quiet were replaced by the pack members attending to their duties and the laughter of the pups.

Training had started and finished, without me this time. I let my sister and the Beta train the warriors since I could barely lift my head from exhaustion. An Omega came early in the morning and brought me breakfast, which was still sitting on the tray, untouched. My eyes refused to leave the reports, scattering through each word and picture with great attention.

But no matter how many reports I went through all I could think about was hers. Her name, her family, her age, a photo of her, her pack, everything about her. I wanted to drink each and every detail and store it in my mind. I wanted to get to know her. All of her.

I hated myself for it. I hated myself for the fact that this was me and not Kane. The fact that I had no one to blame, but myself for caring about her, for letting the bond start breaking my shield piece by piece.

No matter how many girls' pictures I saw none could compare to the beauty of the back of her head I had caught. I had seen so little, and yet it seemed like I couldn't push the image away. No matter how many girls had been captured all I cared about was finding her report, and returning her to her family, where she would finally get a chance to be happy.

Letters and words got mixed up, my vision blurring. I rubbed my eyes, forcing them to keep going when I heard a knock on the door.

''Come in," I replied, not bothering to sniff who the scent belonged to.

My Beta walked in, taking a seat on the leather armchair in front of the desk. I noticed him eyeing my untouched breakfast with a scowl, which he quickly masked.

''Alpha?"

''I'm working, Beta! Something you should also be doing if you want to keep your position in this pack." I snapped.

''I just wanted to make sure you were alright." He said, his gaze wandering back to the food.

''Why?" I asked sarcastically, rolling my eyes before going back to the report of a sixteen-year-old she-wolf that went missing two years ago from Silver claws pack.

''You just look like you haven't slept in days." He confessed, irritating me further.

''If that's the case then you would know not to push my buttons, Beta!" I clenched and unclenched my fists under the desk. The words stung like venom, leaving no room for further discussions, that could only waste my time.

I was way past the point of thinking, believing, that someone could actually care about me or my wellbeing. No one truly did, therefore, I preferred to be alone than to mourn the loss of someone else leaving my life. I didn't need another scar or painful memory of another person I loved disappearing. I didn't need to feel trust for someone, who would break it the first chance they get, and I especially didn't need the emptiness that followed. I found out the hard way that if you shield yourself from the world it can't hurt you and I stuck with that.

More hours passed, the sun getting ready to set and I was still huddled over countless never-ending reports and papers. I had been brought lunch by the same Omega, but this time I just send her away with both the trays. I didn't have the time to eat, especially since my Beta had decided that working apparently wasn't something he was going to bother himself with.

A scent, which I made out to be my sister's, hit my nostrils before the door was forcefully pushed open.

''Brother!" Rosalie screeched. Her brown, straight hair laid on her shoulders, the light grey lock contrasting her otherwise dark hair. Her green eyes threw daggers at me as she walked closer, never breaking eye contact.

''There's something called knocking, Rosalie!" I scold her as she takes her seat, where her mate had sat earlier today. We both rolled our eyes in synch.

''Yes, Alpha!" She mocks, emphasizing my title.

''Why are you here?" I grumbled, already having had enough of her childish antics.

I went back to the words on the papers and screens around me, but with each passing minute, the letters became more and more blurry, and harder to read. My sister carefully eyed me, not speaking for a few seconds.

''My mate-" She started, the word sending a weird feeling to my heart and making Kane rise and fight for control. He won, my eyes shifting to his red ones, my nails turning into claws. I gripped the edge of the desk as I fought him, sending splinters of wood flying across the room.

Rose flinched and jumped out of the chair, her fear filling the aura of the room. She brought her arms up, close to her face, shielding herself from the splinters. Her wolf, Rain, surfaced taking control over her and growling at me in defense.

At the sight, Kane retracted himself back into my mind and gave me control, while Rain did the same with Rose. She sat down with hands that clutched her heart as she stabilized her ragged breathing.

''What the f**k, Knox?" She asked, finally having normalized her breathing and heartbeat.

''Alpha." I corrected her. ''You used to call him alpha!" She grimaced, a look of sadness crossing her features. She walked closer to me and looked me in the eyes.

''Because I was afraid of him, but you aren't him. You are nothing like him!" She whispered, her eyes glued on mine.

A/N: Hi friends! Thank you for giving my book a chance and I hope you are enjoying it! A bit of a shorter chapter, but Ice might be starting to break and Knox hates it, what do you think?