My everything

Chapter fifteen - You can't talk like that

Abby's POV:

They are gone. I can't believe this is real. It's like yesterday when I met them for the first time. Granny accepted me as her grandkid. I never thought she would go away so soon. I know she was old enough, but it's not fair. She deserved to live. Grandpa as well. At least there is one good thing. As I have said to Luke, they will be together. I'm sure that he wasn't going to survive without his wife. They loved each other a lot. It would've been hard for him to be without her. The problem is that now my boyfriend is alone. I will always be by his side, but it won't be the same. I can't replace his grandparents. Also, I don't want to do it. They will always have a special place in his and my heart. Since the first day, they made me feel as if I was at home. Granny was so happy to see me. I will never forget what she told me in the hospital. It's like she knew what would happen. She didn't want to fight, but I don't know why. Now I will take care of Luke. I know what my dad will think, but I don't care. He can't keep telling me what to do. I am not a little kid. It's not like he didn't get mad when I slept at my boyfriend's house last week. We didn't do anything, but my dad didn't want to understand it. I explained to him what had happened and why I had stayed. That was not a valid reason for him. I stopped trying. On the other side, my mom was supportive. She didn't say anything against that. I spend every day with Luke. My dad doesn't like it. Soon, we'll graduate. We have schoolwork to do, but that is the last thing on my mind. I want to focus on my boyfriend. He needs my support. Also, I promised to take care of him. Well, not only to his granny. I promised it to myself. I will never leave him alone. I hope that with time things will get better. Seeing him upset is not something I like.

Sam, Sarah, and the baby came home yesterday. Luke's mom has scheduled the funeral for today. It will be only us. They didn't invite anyone else. Honestly, I was surprised to be on the list. I'm sure Luke took care of it. There is no way his parents will want me there. They have treated me like a ghost since the beginning. It's not like I care. I don't need their opinion on anything. After all, there is a reason why their son cut them off. Well, I'm not surprised by his decision. They deserve it.

I woke up and looked next to me. Luke was sleeping peacefully. I decided to stay with him last night. Dad didn't like it, but I ignored his comments. If he continues like that, I might move out as well. My boyfriend is doing well alone. I can move here to help him. Well, if he wants me. I kissed his cheek and carefully rubbed it with my thumb. I feel bad for him. His grandparents meant a lot to him. They were the only people on his side. Now he has no support again. I am here, but it's not the same. Soon, he woke up and looked at me.

- Hey, are you ok?

- Yes, I'm fine.

- Why are you upset? Everything was fine last night.

- I feel bad for you.

- I understand your worries, but I'm ok.

- You have to meet your parents today.

- It will be formal. I don't want to talk with them.

- What about Sam?

- I don't talk with him in front of them.

- You can invite him here. The house is yours.

- No, it was to my grandparents. I live here, but it's not mine. I hope that I don't have to go back to my parents.

- I won't let you do it. - I said, and he chuckled

- I would love to see how you will do it.

- Wait and see.

- Let's eat breakfast. We have to go out later.

I made the bed, and Luke went to make breakfast. I wanted to make it, but he didn't let me. When I was ready, I went into the kitchen. The food smells so good. I have no idea what he made, but it's heavenly. I sat at the table. He put a plate in front of me. My boyfriend is a great chef.

- The waffles are amazing.

- I'm not the best cook, but that's all I can do.

- You are perfect, my boy.

- Thanks. Said from you means a lot.

After breakfast, both Luke and I went to the cemetery. He didn't want to meet his parents. Their relationship is complicated, but they should forget the differences and focus on the day. When we arrived, there was already a place for his grandparents. Sam was there with Sarah and the baby. I don't think you should bring such a little kid to something like this, but I guess they can't leave it. Luke let go of me and went somewhere.

- Hey. Finally, I can meet you.

- Hi, Sam. You look better in person than on the camera. - I said, chuckling

- Thank you.

- Can I know who this baby girl is? Hi.

- That is Kylie. Say hi. - Sarah said

- Where is Luke? - Sam asked

- He walked away. I will find him and come back.

- Tell him he has ten minutes.

- Ok, I will. Thanks.

I found my boyfriend on the ground behind a tree. I know how he feels. The thing is that he can't stay away from everyone. People express emotions differently, and there is nothing wrong with that. I want him to forget about the problems and go there.

- Are you ok?

- I'll be fine.

- Sam said they would start after ten minutes. It's better if we go.

- Ok, I'm coming.

The ceremony was peaceful. Sarah was staying away with her baby. I know she wants to be here. That's when an idea came to me. I can take care of Kylie while she is here. Well, if she agrees to that. I only want to help. That's it. I walked up to her, and she smiled.

- Hey.

- Hi. Did something happen?

- No, I am here to offer you help.

- With what?

- I can take care of Kylie while you are with Sam. I know he needs you.

- Really? Will you do this?

- Of course. Well, if you let me.

- Sure. Take her. Kylie will be happy.

- We'll see about that.

Sarah left the baby and walked to Sam. He was happy to see her. I want to be there next to Luke, but Kylie can't see all this. It's not like she will understand something. It's better if she is away from that. I won't lie. She is cute and looks like Sam. I mean, no offense to Sarah. I was playing with the baby when someone came.

- What are you doing with my baby?

- Your baby. This is Sarah's and Sam's baby.

- Sam is my son, so the baby is mine. Now give it to me. I don't want your dirty hands around it.

- Excuse me? My hands are clean.

- Give me the baby.

- Sarah has let me take care of it. I asked her personally.

- I don't care. I don't want my granddaughter around strangers.

- Look, miss Adams. I don't care if you like me or not. I won't let you talk like that to me.

- The baby.

- Why? So she can have the worst grandmother ever.

- What did you say?

- What you heard. Now leave me alone.

- GIVE ME THE BABY. I DON'T TRUST YOU.

- FINE.

- Did she hurt you, little one? Don't worry. You won't see this girl again. - miss Adam said to the baby

- What is going on here? I left the baby with Abby. - Sarah said

- How can you leave Kylie in her hands?

- Why? Abby is a good girl. I trust her.

- She is not what you think she is. The baby was crying in her hands.

- What? That is not true. Stop spreading lies about me, old lady.

- Excuse me?

- You are not excused.

- Mom, you can't talk like that.

- Thank god you are here, Sam.

- You need to apologize to Abby.

- What? This girl is the same as your brother. There is nothing good in her.

- Mom! Stop it!

- Sam, it's ok. I don't care about her. I'm not the one who has a falling-apart family. - I said and walked to Luke

- Hey, Abby.

- Hi, mister Adams. It's better if you can control your wife.

- Why? Did she do something?

- Ask Sam.

- You don't need to fight with her. She is impossible. - Luke said

- I will talk with her. - mister Adams said and left

- How are you? Well, apart from the obvious.

- The same. Numb and empty.

- Can I do something?

- No. No one can.

- Do you want to snuggle?

- Your clothes will get dirty.

- Same as yours, but I don't care.

Luke didn't say anything and rested his head on my shoulder. I didn't say anything and hugged him. I don't know what else to do. It's not like this is not enough, but it won't help much. Sam came to say that they were going home. We got invited, but I declined the invitation. It's visible that his mom doesn't want me. Also, I don't think that Luke will want to go there. We stayed in front of the graves for a while. I met these people only a couple of months ago, but they made me feel as if I was at home. My boyfriend feels worse. After all, he spent his whole life with them. I looked at him, but there was no reaction or emotion. It's like he doesn't know what to do. I kissed the top of his head, and he looked at me.

- Everything will be fine.

- No, it won't. Nothing will be the same, Abby.

- You still have me.

- I know, but you can't deal with my parents. Mostly mom.

- I'm not scared of her.

- You don't need to fight with her because of me. It's not worth it.

- It wasn't because of you. She didn't like that I was taking care of Kylie.

- That is something Sam and Sarah have to decide, not her.

- My hands are not clean.

- What?

- That's what she said. She didn't want my dirty hands around the baby.

- I'll deal with this later.

- No, leave her alone. You know that I don't want you to argue with them. I don't care what she thinks about me.

- But I do. She can't treat you like that.

- As I said, I don't care.

- When do you have to go home?

- I don't have a specific hour. I would like it if you let me stay with you.

- Can you stay for the night? Again.

- Sure.

- What about your dad? I'm sure he doesn't like it.

- True, but that is not his choice.

- You can move to my house if you want. The doors are always open for you.

- I was thinking about it. For now, I will stay at home. If my dad keeps playing on my nerves, I will do it.

- The invitation is always available.

- Thanks.

- Granny would've loved it if you moved in.

- Well, she might see it.

- How?

- Look there. Both of them are watching you. They might not be here physically, but they always will be here. - I said and pointed to his heart

- It will never be the same.

- I know how you feel, but being stuck in the past won't help you.

- Will you help me with that?

- Of course. I won't leave you for anything in this world.

- Thanks. It's nice to hear it.

- I will always be by your side.

After some time, Luke and I walked home. I helped him make dinner. That will count as lunch as well. None of us is hungry, but we have to eat something. I offered him scrambled eggs. It's easy, and you can put as much as you want. His body is here, but his mind isn't. I walked up to him and gave him a tight hug. I don't know what else to do. Things will never be the same. It's like part of him is gone. I might not be perfect, but I will do everything possible to help him move on. We can't bring them back. Well, we can always keep the memories. It's hard to let go of the people you love. I know it. The thing is that you have to let them be free.

When dinner was ready, we sat at the table. No words were needed. The thing is that I don't know what to tell him. I know how he feels, and keep asking won't make it better.

- What do you want us to do after dinner?

- Go to the lake.

- Are you sure? - I asked with a slight smile

- Yes, I am. Lately, I have ignored you. That's why I want to make up for that.

- You weren't ignoring me, but I like the idea.

- We haven't been there in a while. After all, this is where everything started.

- No, it started with this game.

- Maybe, but we made it official there.

- True.

After dinner, we went to the lake. Everything was so peaceful. I would love to stay here with him forever. Dad might not like him, but I do. I love this boy more than myself.

- I love coming here. Everything is so pretty.

- Just like you.

- Let's say that I believe you. - I said, chuckling

- It's true. You are pretty.

- If you say so.

- Promise me that you will never think low of yourself.

- Why?

- Please do it.

- Ok, I promise. I will never think low of myself.

- Thank you.

- How long do you think we can last?

- Hopefully, as long as possible. I don't want to let you go. Now not. It will be too much for me.

- Don't worry. I won't leave. Nothing and no one can make me do it.

- That's why I love you so much.

- I love you too.

Luke and I stayed at the lake until 11 pm. Later, we walked home. I texted my mom so she could know where I was. Dad will be mad again, but I don't care. He can't tell me what to do. My boyfriend needs me, and I will be with him. He doesn't want to understand it, but the problem is not mine. I am not leaving Luke's side for a second. I don't want him to be alone right now. He might not show emotions, but I know he has them. It's better if he lets everything out, but I know he won't do it. I will be patient with him. I hope that after some time, he will be able to move on. I want the happy Luke back.