My everything

Chapter fourteen - We lost them

Luke's POV:

Granny is not getting better. I don't know if the doctors can't do anything or if she doesn't want to fight anymore. Looking at her makes me think that she wants to go away. My granny is old enough, but I didn't spend much time with her. She needs to live. I want to be with her for a little longer. The other thing is that my grandpa won't take it if she goes away. I will take care of him. It won't be the same. After all, they have been many years together. Probably that's why my granny wanted me to keep Abby. She wanted us to experience what they had. I would love to do that, but not now. I have other things in my head. Honestly, I have been ignoring my girlfriend for the last few days. She doesn't mind, but I will make it up to her. Once things get better, I will spend with her every minute of the day. I am not the perfect boyfriend, but I'm glad she doesn't complain. That's why I like she is patient with me. Some clingy girls want to receive everything the moment they say it. I had luck with Abby. Maybe I should've stopped our game a while ago and asked her out, but it was fun. I want to take her to the lake again. It's our place, but I don't have much time for it. I don't want to keep ignoring things and people. I want to focus on my grandparents now. It's not like I can do something to help them. There is nothing I can do. I mean, instead of watching and hoping things get better. At least Abby is with me all the time. I don't want to be alone. The fact that I can't do anything is killing me. I don't know what I would've done without her. These people don't mean anything to her. Well, she accepted them as part of her. Abby and my granny were good friends. She needs to live. I hope that in the end, everything will be fine. I don't want to lose her.

It's the weekend. For me, every day was like that. I skipped school for a couple of days. Mostly to keep an eye on my grandpa. Granny is sick, but he can't stay away from her. Last night, my granny convinced him to go home. That's what he did. Later, he went to the hospital and stayed there the whole night. I couldn't do anything to stop him. Grandpa was sure he would stay there. That only proves how strong their relationship is. I want Abby and me to have the same. Hopefully, I won't do something stupid to mess up. I will never forgive myself for that.

Currently, I am still at home. Abby called me half an hour ago to say she would be here. Later, we'll go to the hospital together. I need to pay more attention to her. The thing is that I can't be at two places at the same time. When everything gets back to normal, I will be with her. I know she is patient, but even she has limits. The girl won't wait for me forever. If it had been someone else, they would've walked away. Luckily, Abby is still here. Soon, there was a knock on the door, and I went to open it.

- Hello.

- Hi. Come in.

- Are you ready?

- Yes, I am. Let me take some things.

- Where is your grandpa?

- He went to the hospital.

- Why didn't you call me earlier then?

- We walked back home because my granny told us.

- Ok, and?

- Later, he went to the hospital and stayed the whole night.

- That is cute and sad.

- Why?

- It's cute because he loves her so much that he doesn't want to leave her even for a minute. At the same time, it's sad because no one knows how long she will live. Watching someone slowly pass away is the worst thing ever. I hope that he won't experience it.

- I don't know what to tell him. He didn't want to listen to me.

- Leave him alone. He will be fine. Otherwise, you two will end up arguing.

- I don't want that to happen.

- That's why you have to leave him alone.

- I did it. Let's go now.

Abby and I went to the hospital. I offered her breakfast, but she had eaten at home. We bought something only for my grandpa. My granny has food every day. I don't know what they serve her, but it looks delicious. Abby and I walked in and saw them talking. Is it weird that I want us to look like that when we get older?

- You want the same, don't you? - Abby asked, whispering

- Yes, I do. Look how happy they are.

- Aren't you?

- I am, but I have a long way to go with you.

- Don't worry. We'll get there one day. Be patient.

- Hey, don't ask for too much.

- I want to enjoy my time with you.

- That is something I can do.

- Thanks.

- Oh, hey. Why are you staying there? Come here. - granny said

- How do you feel, granny? - I asked

- The same as before. - she said, coughing

- Are you ok? This didn't happen before.

- That started last night. The doctor came to check on her and gave her medicine. - grandpa said

- Granny, you look very pale. Did the doctor say something else? - Abby asked

- I am fine.

- Why you don't want to fight anymore? You can't give up now. Do you know how many people need you?

- No, he needs you. I already told you this.

- Abby is right. I need you. Granny, you can't leave me. I don't want to go back to my parents.

- Don't worry about this. You won't go anywhere.

- Why do I have the feeling you are not telling us everything? - Abby asked

- Everything will be fine. - my granny said, coughing

- Luke, her skin is changing. There are some yellow spots. She is way too pale. We have to call the doctor.

- I will do it. - my grandpa said and went to find him

- You will be fine. I promise you. - I said, looking at my granny

Soon the doctor came and made us go out. I don't think the news will be good. A nurse quickly walked out of the room, went to take something, and came back inside. The signs are not good. I feel like the worst thing possible is about to happen. Hopefully, I am wrong. She can't do this to me. To my grandpa and Abby.

- Hey, are you ok? Sit down. You look pale as well. - Abby said to my grandpa

- That is the end.

- What? Why?

- What the nurse brought was to wake her up. Probably her heart has stopped.

- Don't talk like that. Everything will be fine. You will see.

- Abby is right. Granny will be fine.

- Look at me. Don't give up yet.

- I can't live without her.

- She will be ok. Trust me. Take a deep breath. Please. We can't lose you. - Abby said

We kept waiting outside for the doctor. Soon he came out, sweating. It's like he has run a marathon. He looked at us with a sad expression. No, he can't do this to me. This is not true.

- I'm so sorry.

- No! This is not true!

- We lost her.

- What? How? - Abby asked

- Her heartbeat stopped.

- I don't understand. She looked fine. - I said

- Hey, wake up. Please. You can't leave us to. Grandpa, please. Don't close your eyes. You have to help me.

- Ok, you need to listen to me. Take a deep breath. It would help if you kept your eyes open. I know you can do it. - the doctor said

- It's not working. - I said

- We'll take him to a room. Hey, bring a wheelchair.

The doctor went with the nurse to a room. Grandpa needs to hold on. I can't lose him too. I left Abby in front of the room. Then I went to see my granny. This can't be happening. I sat next to her on the bed.

- Why? Why did you leave me? You promised to take care of me. Remember? You said that I wouldn't feel the same as at home. I trusted you, and you left me. Why did you do this to me? I thought I meant something to you. I don't want to be alone. Neither to go back home. You are the worst person ever. I love you, but this time you hurt me. Why? I don't understand.

I was staying there like a little kid who dropped his ice cream. Soon, I felt a hand over my shoulder. I looked up to see Abby. She was supposed to be in front of my grandpa's room. Abby was looking at me with sad eyes.

- What happened?

- I'm sorry.

- No. You are kidding me. Abby, this is not funny.

- It's not a joke. He received a massive heart attack, for which his body wasn't prepared. The news for your granny made him receive it. I'm so sorry. If I can do something, please tell me. I'll do it.

- Leave me alone.

- Luke.

- LEAVE!

Abby didn't say anything and hugged me. Honestly, I want to die now. Nothing else left me except for my girlfriend. She can't do anything to help me. No one can. I feel like I never spent enough time with my grandparents. They were the only people who liked me the way I was. Granny saved me from my mom. She took me to her house and let me stay. I don't know what else to say. I hate my life right now. I wish I have been gone. That way, I won't feel the pain.

- It's ok. I'm here.

- It's not fair, Abby. - I said and hugged her tightly

- I know, but we can't do anything. Life can be hard sometimes, but we have to move on.

- Now I have nothing.

- No, you have me. I will never leave you alone. No matter if you want me around or not. I am here. With you.

- Please don't go. Only you left.

- Hey, you can calm down. I'm not going anywhere, ok? I will stay here as long as you need me.

Abby stayed with me for a while. Later I texted my parents. Mom said she would take care of everything. I don't want to go to her house, but I don't know if I can stay in my grandparents' house anymore. It's not mine. Soon, they came and went to talk with the doctor. Dad came but didn't say anything. They ghosted Abby again. She didn't say anything and left us alone. Of course, I walked after her. I don't want her to go.

- Abby, wait!

- What?

- Don't go. Please.

- I will be back. You and your parents need to talk.

- You can't leave me with them alone. Please, stay with me. I need you. This time is for real.

- Don't you think this is a private conversation?

- You are part of me. I won't hide anything from you. Please come with me. Please.

- Ok. I will be with you.

- Thank you so much.

Abby and I walked inside. Mom said she would call Sam. When he comes home, she will make the funeral. The conversation was formal. She didn't say anything to me. Also, she acted as if Abby wasn't with us. I'm not surprised. The thing is that I don't have the energy to fight with her. My parents walked home. Abby and I went to my grandparents' house. I walked into my room and laid on the bed. Why do I feel numb and empty? It's like part of me is gone. My girlfriend came and snuggled. That is the only thing that left me. If she goes away, I have no other reason to live.

- Abby?

- Yes.

- Can you promise me something?

- Sure. What is it?

- I want you to stay with me as long as possible. I will do whatever you want. All I want is to be with you. I have no one else.

- We already talked about it. You can't get rid of me so quickly. - she said, chuckling

- I'm serious.

- Me too. I'm not going anywhere. No matter how much you want it.

- Can you stay here for the night?

- I would love to, but I can't. You know why.

- Please.

- Ok, I will tell my mom that I'm here.

- I know your dad will get mad, but I want.

Before I could finish my sentence, Abby kissed me. I won't lie. That feels good. I need this now. The pain won't go away, but at least it won't be here for long. I hope my girlfriend won't have problems with her dad because of me. That is the last thing I want to happen. We won't do anything. I'm not in the mood for that.

- We lost them, Abby.

- I know, and I'm sorry. She was like my grandmother. No matter that we weren't blood-related.

- Granny liked you a lot.

- Me too. She was a good woman.

- I don't know what to do now.

- Look at it from the positive side. Both of them are together now. Otherwise, your grandpa was going to be alone. I don't think he was going to survive. It was visible that they loved each other a lot.

- She was his queen.

- And he was her king.

- Yes, he was.

- Do you want us to watch a movie? Maybe it can cheer you up.

- Thanks, but I only want to lay down. I'm not in the mood for anything.

- Ok, then. In that case, do you want to snuggle?

- I am a boy.

- So? I love playing with your hair.

- If that is what you want, ok. Let's switch.

- Thank you, my prince. You are a good boy.

- No, I am a sad boy.

- Hey, everything will be fine. You will never forget them, but soon or not, you should move on. My grandparents died when I was young, so I don't remember much. I know it's hard for you, but that's why I am here. I promise that you won't feel alone even for a minute. I will never leave you alone.

- Thank you. I needed to hear this.

- For you always. You can take a nap if you want. It will make you feel better.

- Thanks, but I'm good.

- Ok. I love your hair.

- And I love you.

- I love you too.

Abby and I stayed in bed for a while. Later, we went to make dinner. I guess I have to learn how to cook. That won't be easy, but I have no choice. While we were making dinner, Abby texted her mom. At least she doesn't hate me. I mean, not the same way as her dad. I don't think that he will ever like me. It's not like I care. Now I don't have time for this. He is one of the last people I want to see. I have other things to worry about. The others are my parents. At least I will see Sam soon. Saying my last goodbye won't be easy, but I should do it. I hope that this is a dream and I will wake up soon. The reality is not something I like.