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when life gives you lemons you make lemonade they said. but for me I threw them out the window and gave up just like that. a heart break is one of my weaknesses, it tears my whole soul into bits of pieces and changes my whole attitude and the way I see the world. right now the world is full of s**t and lies, nothing is worth living for anymore because everyone’s lips is wet from all the lies. call me bitter but I was betrayed by the love of my life. I was at high-school at the time and she was 2 years younger than me, we did everything together from eating, walking, fighting, and more. little did I know she would have the balls to replace me in front of my face. betray me and have the balls to call me. its been months now since we broke up, like i said, break ups? they change me. they break me. right now I’m into playing with other people’s hearts, making them feel loved and when they fall for it I leave them in thin air. I know its mean, but I’ve got no other idea then let others feel the pain that I feel every night, the way all of you sleep so soundly not thinking that others like me are drowning in their own thoughts barely surviving the circle of life. so my only option? is revenge “you up for it?” meet my best friend toby. he’s one of the varsity players of the basketball team while I’m the lead guitarist of the school band. “listen toby, I’m still f****d up by the drug you slid into my drink last night” i said while folding my t shirt “aight okay get upset about that, but did you or did you not get laid last night because of it?” he said patting my back aggressively “shut it tool, we’ll meet after class I’ll think about it” I said while I walked the halls of this school Toby back then was an absolute loser that nobody wanted to talk to. he was one of these guys who would read a book in the cafeteria or hide at the bathroom to eat. I took him in and tutored the f**k out of his senses. he maybe part of the varsity team but he’s not a d**k, he doesn’t harass ladies and stuff, he has this little sister named Sabrina, which he loved so much that he dedicated his whole life to protecting this little girl. thats one of the things I love about toby. he’s a gentleman hours has passed and it’s almost time for the party that Toby was buzzing about, that party is one of the parties that I would never go to, I hate remembering my ex, her friends and everything it makes me so mad and destructive i don’t want to be destructive in another person’s territory. I have ethics. “listen man I really can’t go to that party, plus I cant take my dad’s car alright?, and I don’t wanna f*****g walk home” I said “dudeee, you don’t have to walk alright? my mom let me use her civic, we’ll park it at the back and I’ll take you home even before you get wasted” he said with a devilish laugh “listen no is not an answer okay?” “whatever pick me up I need to change, my shoes are dirty from chem” “alright princess see you in a bit” “hey toby?” “yeah?” “no f*****g drugs” “HAHAHAHAH alright i’ll lay it down” he said while raising his hands signaling he surrenders Party, Drugs and play with people’s heart has been my hobby for the past months. my body has been weak lately and its also one of the reasons why I don’t want to be in this party, my body has been signaling rests lately and I don’t have the time to give it a rest. and I want to be there for my friend and maybe get laid again. *BUZZ BUZZ BUZZ* my phone vibrated from my back pocket so I grabbed it and saw my Tweetit and had a notification, I directly opened the dm that said “Goodnight hehe” a message from @havefaith “goodnight i guess?” i responded with no hesitations “hehe no class tomorrow?” she said “nah I have” “cool, listen I’m a fan of your work I always wondered how it would feel like to meet you in person” she said and this message made me smile, someone actually listens to my songs? “wow thank you, we can meet tho soon maybe” “yeyy I’m counting on it” “yeah just tell me we can figure things out” I said, eh maybe she want to get it with me Idk lets find out “wait are you? bisexual? by any chances?” she said which completely got my attention “very much” “wow because same, how many boys and girls have you dated?” she said directly to the point which caught me off guard “a few but I prefer girls, girls are more attractive then men” I said with a straight face because toby was running late “right, men suck they cheat on you” she said which gave me the idea that her ex probably cheated on her which gave her the idea that maybe girls are better than boys? “not all, girls cheat too you know like my ex” I said “wow she did?, thats cold” “eh its fine completely over it” I lied it still haunts me “same hehe” *Buzz Buzz Buzz* its Toby, Finally “dude where are you I have been waiting in the sake spot for hours” I said “bro listen I’m sorry we won’t go to that party man I just saw Melissa in the party, and things might get messy when you go there too you know, nobody told me that she would be there” he said “alright thanks for the heads up Toby see you in class” I said almost crushing the phone in my hand. I appreciate how toby knows everything about me. I hate the fact that I was given the chance to remember this girl. whatever. maybe things will get better in time