Fixing the broken bad boy

Chapter twenty - Distant

Xavier's POV:

I don't know what happened, but I liked it. I never thought that I could make out with Alexia. The most surprising thing was that she was sober. She didn't drink any alcohol. I did, but it won't be me if I don't do it. I have to say that this was probably one of my best make-outs ever, and I had a lot. I have no idea what happened to her, but I would love to repeat it. Luckily, her parents weren't at home. Well, I think that they expected something to happen. We need to be at home alone more often. It looks like I have some effect on her. I can probably get close to her, but I don't know if it's a good idea to continue where we stopped. The next time, we might get carried away, and I'm sure she won't like it. I have no problem giving girls what they want. Let's say that when it comes to Alexia, things change. I don't know what she did to me, but I don't want to play with her. I mean, what we did felt good. Well, I don't want her to think that we can be something more than friends. I can't give her what she needs. I'm afraid that I will cheat on her, and this is the last thing that I want. She doesn't deserve it. I might be many things, but with her, I am careful. If I make a mistake, her parents can easily throw me away. I have nowhere to go, so I better be a good boy. It's not like this is hard. Well, in the beginning, it was. I feel like I can be myself with Alexia and her parents. They treat me nicely, and I'm glad to stay with them. I don't know what I will do with their daughter, but I hope this won't affect our relations.

I woke up and checked my phone. It was 7 am. I can make Alexia a little visit, but I have to behave. It's not like I'll do something to her. It turned out that the bottle with alcohol got left on purpose. Mister Dean was sure that I couldn't resist. Luckily, he wasn't mad at me. Well, I didn't drink that much. Let's say that it was enough for me to trick Alexia. I will never do that again. At least not in front of her.

I got out of bed and went to Alexia's room. She was still sleeping. I laid next to her and kissed her. I don't know why I did that, but it felt good. Soon she woke up and looked at me. She wasn't happy to see me in her bed but didn't say anything. Instead, she snuggled. I kissed the top of her head and rubbed her back. It's not a lie that I would love to repeat what we did, but it's better if this doesn't happen. I don't want her parents to think that we are dating.

- Alexia, are you ok?

- Yes, I'm just sleepy.

- I can wake you up quickly.

- Thanks, but I don't want to do it.

- Why? You had fun that night.

- This will never repeat. Understood?

- Yes, ma'am.

- Good. Now I need to get ready. Will you go to your room?

- Can't we lay down for a while? Only five minutes.

- Sure, but then you will go away.

- I will.

We laid in bed for a while. To be honest, I could do this a whole day. Well, I know that she won't let me. That's why I will enjoy the moment now. Later, I went into my room to get ready. Both of us went for breakfast. It was silent. Miss and mister Dean were talking with each other. Alexia didn't even look at me.

- Kids, is everything ok? - miss Dean asked

- Yes, why? - I asked

- Because you are silent. I thought that something had happened.

- No, we are good.

- Let's say that I believe you.

Alexia got up and went into the backyard. Something is going on with her. I walked after her and saw her sitting on the ground. I wanted to pull her for a hug, but she didn't let me. I don't know why, but I feel like she wants to stay away from me. I didn't do anything to her. If it's for what we did, I don't see anything wrong with that. I looked at her, but she didn't turn around. I don't understand. Why is she ignoring me?

- Will you tell me what is going on?

- Nothing.

- It's visible that it's something. Can I know why you are ignoring me?

- I'm not.

- Alexia, stop lying and answer me.

- I have to go to school.

- Not that fast. I need answers. - I said and grabbed her hand

- Xavi, please let me go.

- I will after you tell me everything.

- Fine.

- Ok, I'm listening. - I said and looked at her

Nothing. Alexia kept looking at me without saying anything. I am so confused. I want to know what is going on with her. Out of nowhere, I received a kiss. I won't lie that I liked it. I pulled her close and deepened it. Let's hope that her parents won't see this. I don't want to explain anything to them. Not now. Soon she pulled away and looked at me.

- I have to go.

- Wait!

We went to school together. The whole time Alexia didn't say anything. I'm starting to think that she regrets this. There is nothing wrong with making out with someone. Moreover, we didn't go far away. I don't know why she is distancing from me. Whatever the reason is, I don't like it. Both of us walked to class. I sat next to her. Now or never. I will ask the question. I hope that she will be honest and tell me the truth.

- Do you regret this?

- What?

- That night. Do you regret it?

- No, I just feel weird. You have nothing to do with that.

- I think that I do. Otherwise, you weren't going to ignore me.

- Can't you drop it? I don't want to talk about this.

- But I do.

- I don't care. Now leave me alone.

She didn't talk to me until the end of the last class. Can I know why this hurts me? We used to be close, and now she doesn't even want to see me. I don't know what went wrong. I can talk with her parents. That means I have to tell them what we did. Alexia will kill me. The other problem is that I want to do this again. I don't care if she gets mad at me. I want her close to me. No other girl has made me feel this way. When it comes to her, I'm different.

After school, we walked home. Alexia's parents are at work, so we are alone. Alexia went straight into her room. It looks like she won't talk with me. Well, I won't let her get what she wants. Without walking, I walked in.

- Hey, you can't come like that. There is a door. You are supposed to knock on it.

I didn't say anything and walked up to her. Before she could say anything, I kissed her. She was quick to kiss me back. I think that I found her weak spot. I carefully picked her up and put her on the bed. I don't know how far we'll go, but I have wanted to do this since that night. We have been making out for half an hour already. I was breathless, but I didn't want to stop. There is something in her which makes me come back to her. It's like she has done something to me. Soon I pulled away and looked at her. She gave me the same look as in the morning.

- Are you ok?

- What?

- You are staring at me.

- I'm sorry.

- Alexia, what is going on with you? It's visible that you want it, but then it looks like you regret it. Why?

- I shouldn't be doing these things with you.

- Why? I don't see anything wrong.

- Because we are not dating. I don't even know if we are friends. I can't keep doing this.

- Don't you want it?

- It's not about what I want. Moreover, you can't keep one girl close to you. Soon or not, you will dump her. I don't want to be her.

- Do you really think that I will dump you?

- Won't you do it?

- I made a mistake coming here.

- Wait, don't go!

- Why? It's visible that you don't want me here. It's better if I move out.

- What? You can't do that. Where will you go?

- I don't know. I'll find a place.

I was about to go when she grabbed my hand and kissed me. I won't lie that this surprised me. Sometimes I can't understand girls. They act as if they want you, but in the next moment, you two get distant again. I pulled her close and deepened the kiss. It's official. Alexia can't get compared with any other girl. Well, probably because she is not a user. Usually, other girls only want me because I look good. She is not one of them.

- Don't go.

- I won't, but you are making it hard for me to stay here.

- I know, and I'm sorry.

- It's ok. I forgive you.

- Thank you.

- What do you want us to do now?

- Nothing. Can't we just lay in bed?

- Sure. No problem.

- Thanks. Come here because I need my cuddle buddy.

- You will have one. - I said and laid next to her

I looked at her and saw a smile on her face. I kissed her cheek, and she blushed. Soon she fell asleep. I would love to see how far we'll go, but I don't want to rush. I wrapped my hand around her and decided to sleep with her. Soon someone touched me. I thought that this was a dream and continued sleeping. It happened again.

- What!?

- Be careful with the tone. - mister Dean

- I'm sorry. I didn't see you.

- It's ok. Wake up the sleeping beauty and tell her to get ready. Well, you too.

- Why?

- We are going out for dinner.

- Ok, I will wake her up.

After an hour, all of us went into the restaurant. I have the feeling that the food will be expensive. The waiter gave us the menu. You have to be kidding me. Who will pay ten dollars for a salad? I can get it for five.

- Kids, choose whatever you want. We are paying. - mister Dean said

- Can I know why? - Alexia asked

- Well, from the next month, your mom and I will have a bit bigger salaries than now.

- That's great.

- Boy, why are you looking like that? Aren't you happy?

- I am. The prices are great. - I said

- Don't think about them. Eat what you want.

- I can try.

The dinner was good. The prices might be high, but the food was delicious. Later, we walked home. It was 10 pm. Miss and mister Dean said that they were going to bed. Maybe we have to do this too. After all, we have school tomorrow. I wished Alexia good night and went into my room. Soon I turned to the other side and felt something. I took my phone and saw that it was Alexia. What is she doing here? It's not like I mind, but she never said she wanted to sleep here.

- Hey, can I know what you are doing here?

- Sleeping.

- I know, but you have room for that.

- Your bed is softer.

- If you want, we can switch rooms.

- No, I want to sleep with you.

- Ok, you can stay here. If your dad asks questions, you will answer him.

- Yeah, whatever. Let's sleep now.

- Yes, ma'am. Good night.

- To you too.

- Do you want to snuggle?

- Yes. Also, I want a kiss.

- What?

- I'm kidding. I don't want anything.

- I don't mind giving you one.

- No, thanks.

- You know that I don't listen. - I said and kissed her.

- Thank you.

- You're welcome.

- Can't you live in my room?

- I'm sure that your parents won't be happy.

- Why? We are only sleeping.

- It's enough that I am at your house. Let's not rush things.

- Fine. I will convince them.

- Won't you fall asleep?

- I will. Good night and sweet dreams. - she said and kissed my cheek.

- To you too.

Luckily, she fell asleep. I know that she is not serious about me moving into her room. There is no way that mister Dean will allow this. To be honest, that is better. We spend a lot of time together. Moreover, we are not dating. I don't want her parents to think that we are. As I have said before, I can't give her what she needs. I'm afraid that I will cheat on her. I don't want to be like my parents. Alexia deserves someone who will love her. Only her. I am not this person. I hope that we'll be happy no matter what happens to us.