Start From Zero

Oh no....I am late again. Forgot to introduce myself. I am Jen and this is my story. Hope you guys enjoy and please comment. Thank you. Jen Why am I always running late? My teacher will definitely kill me this time. I am in big trouble. I am already half an hour late and I still need to walk to school as I cannot afford the bus fair. I have been staying up till very late to finished of my homework as the deadline to submit my work is today first period. I have to work part time after school to earn some pocket money as our family is not wealthy. We are practically living on a day to day basis. Mum has just been discharged from the hospital due to her 3rd stage of cervical cancer. I had been very busy travelling back and forth from hospital, school, home and work. Life had been hectic and hell for me as I don't have enough time to do my homework and rest.  I have informed the school that I am going to remove myself from school at the end of the term as I could not cope with my life at the moment. Even though after many months of battling cancer in the hospital and thank God she is being discharged now, I still need to bring her back to the hospital frequently as she still need to go through with her chemotherapy.  It is going to be a long process but I still thank God for giving me my mum back as I almost lost her to cancer last month. I am really proud of my mum for being a fighter and never give up that easily even thought I know how much she suffered this few month during her stay in the hospital. At least she is back home now and what I need to do is to build up her strength so that she could keep fighting with a full belly. Once I give up school, I will only need to work, cook her some good food to replenished her health and look after her as she haven't got any strength to walk so she will need help with everyday routine. Even though life is extremely busy for me but I thank the Lord everyday. I am a very optimistic person so I am able to overcome most situation as calmly as possible. But this few months had really taken its toll on me. I have never felt that desperate in my whole young live. Now I know that we should not take anything for granted. It might be in front of you one minute and you lost it the next. Life is so unpredictable that you should really count your blessings everyday.  It is finally the end of the term and the headmistress wanted to see me. So in I went and she ask me to reconsider my decision as it is such a shame to pull out now as I only need one more year till my graduation but I seriously got no other option. So I left her office with a heavy  heart knowing very well that it would be the very last time I am going in there. I went straight to work after school so I could earn more money by working more hours. The pay is not great but begger's can't be choosers. It is either that or no job at all. So another thing to count my blessings I guess. At least no more school and no more homework which is great as I can earn a bit extra with the free times I hava got in my hands.