Forcedly Yours

Chapter Six

The rest of the night was terrible, to say the least.

People just made us kiss and kiss thinking we were madly in love couple.

I certainly didn't like the way I started leaning into him the moment he started to kiss me and I most definitely didn't like the feeling of his hand on my waist. I hated how my body seemed to have its own mind.

Para akong nabunutan ng tinik nang nag-pasya na si Leyton na umuwi kami sa bahay niya.

And my feet were killing me.

"Where are we heading now?" I ask him, I'm so tired that it probably came out with an impatient tone.

Isang oras na kaming nasa daan. Ga'no ba kalayo ang bahay niya?

"Our house," matipid na sagot niya.

I carefully shut my mouth, knowing I might antagonize him. Sinandal ko ang ulo sa headrest ng upuan at tahimik na tumingin sa labas.

Pumasok kami maya-maya sa isang subdivision. Dumaan kami sa guard house ng tatlong beses.

Is this how tight the security in this place is? Napamangha ako. Isang guard house lang sa kasi ang nasa subdivision namin. Lagi pang tulog ang gwardiya.

Napaupo ako ng maayos habang manghang tiningnan ang magagarang bahay na dinaanan namin. It's late at night and though I can't see every detail, I can tell that all the houses are luxurious.

Leyton slows the car down on the corner and turns as the gates of a huge two-storey grey-colored house open. The gates automatically close when he parks the car and turns off the engine.

"You own this?" I say as if questioning how he could have afforded a home like this.

My eyes greedily takes in the lush green grass and the carefully curved bushes. Nakita ko rin ang buwan sa repleksyon ng isang pahabang swimmung pool sa kanang bahagi ng bahay.

"This is yours now, too," kibit-balikat na sagot niya bago ako iginiya sa loob ng bahay.

Nang napansin niyang di agad ako sumunod ay lumingon siya. I stand there awkwardly. Shifting on my toes, the heels are literally killing my feet.

"I'm not going in there with you," matigas kong sabi. Buti nalang at hindi nanginig ang boses ko.

For some reason, I still can't grasp that I'm married and have to live with him.

He gives me an impatient glare.

"News flash kitten, you are going in there with me and you can't do anything about it," he crosses his arms.

"No," Umiwas ako ng tingin.

Bakit ba ako nakikipag-matigasan dito? I don't understand myself.

"Right. Suit yourself," tumalikod na siya tapos sinara niya ang pinto.

May narinig akong kaluskos sa may mga halaman kaya napatakbo ako sa pinto.

Ni-lock ng walang hiya!

Kumatok ako ng malakas habang pa lingon-lingon sa paligid. Napatili ako nang may kaluskos na naman. Ito na ngang napala ko sa pagmamatigas ko.

Tapos bumukas yung pinto at dali-dali akong pumasok.

"That was not funny!" galit na bulyaw ko sa kanya. I was panting, my hand trying to ease my breathing.

"Who's laughing?" Seryosong tanong niya bago naglakad palapit sakit dahilan para mapaatras ako hanggang sa naramdaman ko na ang pinto sa likod ko.

His scent hits me first, he smells clean with hints of pine and leather. Hindi siya huminto hanggang sa gahibla nalang ang layo ng mukha nami ndahilan para mapapikit ako. Napapitalg ako ng haplusin niya ang nakapikit kong mata hanggang sa pisngi ko at huminto sa labi ko. His thumb rubbed it before grasping my chin.

"I like your fight. It makes me want to do things to you." nang-aakit ang boses na sabi niya.

"W-what things?"

He smiles darkly before leaning in to graze his lips from my cheek to my left ear. "Things I like. Things you will like. Want me to tell you in detail?" I shivered. "It involves you naked, to start with. You want to know how often I imagine you naked, Kitten?" he asks, his breath hot on my skin.

I gather all the strength I have and push him away, he relents, chuckling.

I glare while he smirks, removing his tuxedo and his cuff links. Something about him doing such a simple thing sends tingles all over my body.

I shivered, not from the fear or cold this time.

Wala sa loob na napayakap ako sa sarili ko. "W-where's my room?"mahinang tanong ko pagkaraan. Gusto ko nang hubarin 'tong gown ko, gusto ko na matulog at kalimutan ang araw na'to at higit sa lahat, I want a break from him.

The house is even more beautiful inside. Paintings hung on the wall and the dim lights gave the house an almost seductive touch. Pinterest-worthy and no doubt, expensive.

He mockingly gestures his hand toward the stairs as if asking me to walk in front of him. Naglakad ako at nilagpasan siya at dire-diretsong umakyat sa hagdan. Tahimik na nakasunod siya sa'kin dala-dala ang over night bag ko.

I feel oddly comforted by the simple act of service.

Marahang hinawakan niya ang braso ko bago binuksan ang malaking pinto na gawa sa kahoy.

I gasp. My eyes appreciatively sweeping the room. Tumambad sa akin ang isang grey king sized bed na may dresser sa magkabilang gilid. May malaking flat screen TV sa mismong harap at maliit na cleopatra couch sa paanan ng kama. I instantly fell in love with the big mirror in front of the bed and the dim lighting. The lighting makes everything dramatic.

Mabagal na naglakad at umupo ako sa gilid ng kama. I start to unstrap and remove my sandals, groaning when I feel the immediate relief as I free my feet. Marahang minasahe ko ang talampakan at napapikit. I'm so tired I feel like I'm going to pass out. I still need to get out of this dress though. I look up when I remember I'm not alone.

Nakasandal si Leyton sa may hamba ng pinto. His legs are crossed, and he watches me with amusement. His lips twitch as if he's holding back a smile.

"Uhm. Okay na ako. Thank you," mahinang sabi ko.

Akala ko aalis na siya pero nanatiling nakatingin lang siya sa akin. He raised his brow when I pointedly look at him, silently forcing him out of the room.

"This is our room," his lips curved to a mocking smile when he saw my jaw drop.

Wala sa loob na napa-atras ako nang naglakad siya palapit sa akin.

He stood behind me and I felt him lightly touch my neck before pulling the hairpins out one at a time.

"K-kaya ko na-"

"Relax, wife," mahinang sabi niya. "These are going to hurt your head."

Tinanggal niya ang huling hairpin at marahang pinaharap ako sa kanya. Tucking a few strands of the messy hair under my ear.

"Do you need help with your gown?"

Napalunok ako sa sinabi niya. Hindi nakawala sa'kin and ibig niyang sabihin. Sinundan ng mga mata niya ang paggawlaw ng lalamunan ko bago binalik ang tingin sa aking mukha.

"I-I can do it myself," nauutal na sagot ko.

"Maybe I want to take it off you. After all, you look all shiny, like a present." He taunts. "And I like unwrapping gifts. I have a feeling you're going to be my favorite one yet."

"I'm not an object," I hiss.

He smiles as if he finds me adorable. "Ah, you're right. You're my wife. Mine in every way."

"I'm not yours," ganti ko bago umiwas ng tingin. "I'm my own person."

"If you say so." He pinches my chin and forces me to look up to him. "Tell me why you're fighting this, wife."

Umiwas ako ng tingin. "You stole my freedom. I don't want this. I don't want you." Naiiyak na sabi ko.

He pushed me on the bed before I could blink and bit my neck so harshly I was sure his teeth pricked my skin. I hissed and he licked the area and pressed soothing kisses as if to say sorry.

"You don't want me?" he asks still kissing and licking on my skin. "Not even a little bit?"

His hot breath sent shivers all over my body. Every touch of his tongue is making my eyes close.

Even with all the sensations, I feel myself shaking my head. And I'm mildly proud of myself for still being able to stand against him. In my own little way, anyway.

Nilayo niya ang mukha sa leeg ko at tinitigan ako sa mata.

"Prove it then."

Kunot-noong tiningnan ko siya. "Prove what?"

"Prove you don't want me."

Naguguluhan na tinanong ko siya, "Paano?"

He bites his lip and smiles darkly. "Tell me you're not wet."

Napasinghap ako sa ibig niyang sabihin. Suddenly aware of what was happening between my legs, I clenched it. I become painfully aware of how his body is pinning me. And by the darkening of his eyes, I know he felt it when I squeezed my legs together.

"Wala akong dapat patunayan sayo," namumula ang mukhang bulyaw ko.

I squirm, trying to push him away. He is much stronger and bigger. My efforts were futile but I didn't stop until I was too tired to move.

Hindi ko namalayan na bumaba na pala ng bahagya ang gown ko. It was showing some cleavage earlier, but now my n*****s are almost showing. Sa katunayan ay nakikita ko na ang kalahating parte ng...Natatarantang sumulyap ako kay Leyton.

With a clenched jaw, his eyes zoom in on my breasts. Particularly on the brown part of my n****e peaking out of my dress as if teasing him.

Bumigat ang paghinga ko nang banayad na hinaplos niya iyon gamit ang isang daliri.

"f**k, baby," he rasps before leaning down to kiss it.

I let out an involuntary moan when started to use his tongue, swiping over the exposed part of my n****e gently. As if losing patience, he sucks and I can see his lips forming a suction.

It was too much. The way he licks, kisses, and the pure want on his face. It was making me feel things I didn't want to feel.

I turned my head to the side. I feel the first few drops of tears escape my eyes.

He's right. I want him. But I don't want to want him. I cried silently as my fight slowly drained from my body. I'm too weak for this man and I don't think I'm immune to the way he makes me feel.

He stills as if sensing my tense muscles. He turns my head toward him, making me open my eyes. More tear escaped. Galit na sinundan niya iyon bago inalis ang katawan sa pagkakadagan sa'kin.

I'm all out crying at this point, feeling so helpless with myself. With the way, I can't control my body around him.

"f**k," he mutters exasperatingly. Giving me one more look before walking out and slamming the door.

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Ilang minuto din akong nakahiga at nagpakalma ng sarili bago pumasok sa banyo.

The interior was beautiful as expected but I can no longer allow myself to admire it. Sa halip ay napatitig ako sa namumulang bahagi ng leeg at dibdib ko.

I don't have big breasts. They're barely a handful but the way Leyton looked at them...like they're rhe most beautiful thing he's ever seen. I shook my head, unwilling to accept his desire for me, and started taking everything off, and took a shower.

I spent at least ten minutes there. Napagtanto kong naiwan ko pala ang overnight bag ko sa kwarto kaya nakatapis na lumabas ako. Tanging ang banayad na tunog lang ng aircon ang sumalubong sa'kin.

I rummage through the bag and wince when I find them all to be too revealing. Lingeries. What was Karina thinking?

I settled for the one-piece pearl nightgown, blew my hair dry, and lay down.

My eyes were too heavy, my body was literally begging for rest but my mind was still reeling.

I need to talk to Leyton. I figured that I couldn't hate him forever. I have to find a common ground. I need him to trust me enough to give me some freedom. I realized just from the past few months how possessive he can be. But I still don't understand why.

I still don't like him. I don't like his brooding and arrogant nature. Most of all, I don't want him to fully control my life.

But my body wants him. And that's something, right?

Never akong nagkainteres sa s*x. Sure, I've heard and read about it but I never felt anything like the way Leyton makes me feel.

Wala sa loob na sumulyap ako sa wall clock. Mag-iisang oras na 'nong nag walk out siya. I shake my head feeling ridiculous for worrying about him. I'm sure this house had plenty of rooms.

Kakausapin ko siya bukas. Kung gusto kong mabawi kahit na konti lang ng kalayaan ko, kailangan kong kilalanin ang asawa ko.

Napatigil ako. It felt too real when I said it in my head.

Asawa ko

I closed my eyes, exhaustion pulling me away from reality.