His to Ruin.

Chapter 8

DREY’S POV

Coming out of my closet to my room I notice Jacqueline's eyes are glued to her phone while she lies on my bed.

“Jacqueline, are you busy? I want us to talk”

Then she dropped her phone and sat up looking at me, then I went to sit next to her on the bed.

“Do you feel safe with me?” I asked looking at Jacqueline waiting for answers.

“Drey,” she said while reaching out to place her hands on mine. “I feel safe with you, regardless of what I know about you now, I still see you as a good person and I don't think it'll change. If I did see you as someone I don't feel safe with I wouldn't be here, even after knowing you’re hiding things I still came here cause I care about you. So yes regardless of very obvious reasons as to why I should avoid you, I’m still drawn to you and I feel safe with you but I feel I need an explanation of what is going on Drey”.

“Yes you deserve an explanation, but I need you to know that I’m not a bad person, and I’d understand if you don't want to be around me anymore”.

“Something terrible happened when I was much younger. I keep on blaming myself till today, because what if I had just listened, what if I had not left the house that very day, maybe my mother would still be alive.

My father right from the time he entrusted me with a gun, as a child he told me we were hunters, with time I got to understand that he never meant animals, even though he referred to his rivals as one.

On my ninth birthday, I wanted something different, so my friends and I planned to go out to hunt animals this time, and by animals I mean rivals. I just wanted to make my father proud. I felt my father was ashamed of me because I couldn't even shoot properly, I wanted to but I couldn't, I was too scared, but other kids my age whose parents were in the same line of business as my dad were very good with it. After much training and help from my friends, I decided that on my birthday I’d make my dad proud of me. So my friend Luke and his brother Carl accompanied me to my dad’s rival’s territory, we did not have the intention of hurting or killing anyone, but unfortunately our plan failed.

I told my mother about it but she just said I’m still very young and persuaded me to have the usual birthday party. I was very upset cause I did not have her support but my mind was already made up, so after the party that night I snuck out. The initial plan was to get our hands on the drugs in their possession not all of it but a huge amount of it so they could have some losses. Turned out that my mother got to know and she followed us without our knowledge. We got to the building where the drugs were kept and we were surprised we were not yet caught, when Luke was trying to hack the vault open my mother came in and she looked like she was panicking and asked us to leave immediately but a man followed her in immediately and grabbed her and held her at gunpoint, we were scared, I tried to shoot but I couldn't still do it, the man that held my mother seemed to be having so much fun because he couldn't stop laughing, she tried to tell us to run but her mouth was covered by the man’s hands, Luke took the gun from me and shot the man’s foot, with that we all tried to excape but it was too late, the last words I heard my mother say was to run and never look back no matter what. I ran with tears in my eyes and felt my mother let go of my hands. Unfortunately, I didn't run fast enough and I got caught by their boss, he was very glad that he had the son of Macmiller in his hands, before you get confused Macmiller is my last name, it is the family’s name. He planned on using me to get back at my dad, people say they were once friends but had a serious fallout, then the next thing I saw was my mum falling to the ground in a pool of her blood all because she was trying to keep me safe.

I bit the hands of their boss who held me and ran towards my mother crying begging and telling her I’m sorry for everything, at that point I was praying for it to all be a dream but unfortunately it wasn't it was all real, then I got hit in the head and zoned out. I was held captive by them and I blamed myself from that night up till now that I was the cause of it all. Fortunately, Carl and Luke were able to escape and informed my father about everything, luckily my father rescued me. He was broken and upset for years. My father, although him being the boss of his territory was very jovial and kind to those who worked for him, but after that incident, he became cruel and cold to them. I felt horrible and was determined to get revenge so I took my training seriously and got better. I later got to know that my father told everyone that I was already dead when he got there. My father knew, that life was not for me and decided to fake my death and made me answer to his middle name, at first I thought he disowned but got to understand with time he was doing it for my safety because no one who has been held captive by that evil man who was once my father's friend has ever escaped alive. My father later remarried so I could have a mother figure which makes Daniella my stepsister”.

It was after explaining things to Jacqueline that I realized I had tears rolling down my face. I have never cried in front of anyone aside from my mother, but now here I am sitting with Jacqueline letting all my walls down. Now my heart is pounding not just because I relived my past in my head but because of what Jacqueline would do or say, I don't want to ruin what I have with Jacqueline. I think I’m in love with her. We just sit in silence for a while but her hands soothingly caress my lap.

“Drey, you know you can't keep on blaming yourself. You were a child being naive, you were a child just being a child and unfortunately, the worst happened. So this is why you never liked your birthday. For your father to understand and not blame you every day for it you need to forgive yourself too. So you think after this I'd see you as someone terrible? You were a child who made a mistake that led to something awful but that doesn't make you a terrible person.

You know what, after taking you to the hospital for them to check the wound properly, I'd love to show you something very special and beautiful”.