His Cursed Mate!

So much to think about

~Jazabell~

I've never given much thought on what I would do once I met my Mate, but seeing him now in person, it's like the start of something new, but not really because I'm afraid what he'd think of me once I told him that I've already met him in my dreams.

Dreams that make me blush,

But I knew I had to be honest with him, I couldn't start anything without honesty. I was raised better than that and besides honesty is an integral part in any relationship Fated or not. Supernatural or human. I couldn't lie to him and omit things. He had to accept all of me just as I am or none of me at all.

Scars included,

I don't know how I was even going to begin this topic of conversation. What could I possibly tell him? Hi I'm a freak because I've seen you in my dreams and they're not cute dreams where the girl is running in slow motion and her guy is chasing after her. No, these are full blow erotic dreams, I've felt his hard body twitch beneath my hands. He's been so close to marking me. We've been intimate.

Oh s**t,

I've been intimate.

Not with him,

Physically anyway,

Goddess forgive me for I have sinned,

I hope Thierry forgives me.

"Stop," she whispers.

"Uh...." did she just speak? I swear it freaks me out every time she does this.

"I can feel your distress human,"

I sigh. Right!

"Relax, Thierry will understand, besides Jace's bits didn't touch ours. You needed something only he could provide and it helped you. I don't blame either of you."

I'm shocked to say the least this is the most she's ever spoke to me. I mean I get it. I wouldn't want to be stuck with someone so damaged like me.

"Theirs nothing wrong with you." she huffs.

Yeah right, everything is wrong with me. She probably hates what I could become. Why do you think nobody ever talks about creatures like me?

Hybrids.

"That's not...." I cut her off.

"Save it wolf, nothing you say can change what I am. I know I don't deserve you. I don't deserve Thierry either, but I'm going to be completely honest with him and if he decides to reject me then with dignity, I'm going to accept it."

"I....I....I'm sorry human," she murmurs. She sounded hurt.

But I needed to lay the cards on the table no matter how hard and scary I found just the thought of it. He promised dinner and a conversation. I don't know where it would go and how it would end, but I also had to apologize for my indiscretion and apologize to the pretty platinum blond vampire girl that was mated to Jace.

I hoped all three of them could forgive me?

If they didn't well....I would just have to find a way to make it up to them. I don't know exactly how to make it up to Thierry and the Vampire girl, but reminder I had to stop calling her that and ask her for her name personally. It was the least I could do.

"Your morals are admirable," the wolf in my head whispers. I can see her watching me and I don't know if I like it to be honest. Its strange to see her surface so much in such a short amount of time. Every time I think of Thierry I swear I can hear her purr and it's

cute that the thought of his name makes her melt.

After a hot shower, I stayed in my towel so I could look over my clothes and pick something nice to wear. Suddenly I realize I just turned into that girl. You know the aloof one that didn't pay attention to what she wore, but now she has a mate and she wants to impress him.

Yeah, I'm officially pathetic.

"You worry and over think too much," the wolf says.

"Suddenly you have all these opinions of me?"

She gives me an eye roll. "I mean, just be yourself."

Myself? I honestly didn't even know how to be myself. When I was the odd girl out. Everyone looked at me weird because I couldn't shift and because I didn't know the name of my wolf. ""You can't be serious?"

"Very serious, wear that cute black top with the ruffle things by the waist and your favorite skirt." she says then covers her eyes with her paws.

I pull out the clothes she suggested and placed them over me so I can judge myself in the mirror. It wasn't bad a bad look. I actually looked kinda good.

"Kinda? Are you blind human?"

"Uh what? No, wolf are you? Have you seen what I look like naked or otherwise?"

I see her gold eyes roll. "I know everything about you and I also know how beautiful you are inside and out. Scars and defects and all. You are beautiful and I'm sorry for making you feel as if you aren't worthy. Do you honestly think that Celeste would have gifted me to you if you weren't?"

My head falls in shame. I try to hide so much of my emotions and she just opened the door to them and shoved them right out and into my face. I didn't think she knew how little I thought of myself.

The wolf huffs and says. "I see and feel every single thing you feel even though I lock myself away I'm just as much a part of you as you are a part of me and I'm sorry for locking myself away from you."

Well theirs nothing she could do about that now. I sigh deeply and change into the outfit she chose. I zipped my skirt on the side and buckled my belt. It really suited my curves, I can't lie about that, as I look at my reflection in the mirror, but I also notice that my stormy grey eyes swirl with gold.

That was a peculiar combination.

"Sush human, there's nothing wrong with our eyes."

"Now stop being such a wuss girl and go find our Mate. I've waited long enough." she growls.

My eyebrows furrow. "Easy for you to say."

She paces back and forth a few times then shucks out her white coat. I swear the tip of her pelt had a blue aura to it.

"Just be your normal authentic self." she says one lat time.

Oh Goddess please let this work out for me. I'm promise I'll be better, I'll do better. I just don't think I could bare to lose him after seeing that he was real and he existed and he didn't just exist in my dreams. As much as I hated to admit it. I Like having someone that was specially made just for me. That he couldn't fit with anyone else ever.

That sounds horrible I know, but its nice to know that I had someone waiting for me too.

With one last look and a swipe of gloss on my lips I open my bedroom door to head out when I crash against a very happy and very mated Vera.