Alone in the dark

do i stay or do i go

joes pov

yes her becoming close to another man kills me and makes me very jealous but i know she would never cheat on me or hurt me

i dont want anyone to try to take my place as her mate and i dont want anyone to play dad to my pups i am working my hardest to make sure she see the good in me and how far i have came and that i would never hurt her or my pups 

i will die to protect them at all cost i will do all i can to keep them safe

Ayla's pov

i dont know what to do any more i want Joe so bad but i am worried that he will hurt us again if he loses control 

i just hope that what ever choice i decide its the right one and everyone is happy

i got alot of thinking to do over the next few days 

i asked Joe to stay a few days with me and he agreed 

i honestly dont know what to do anymore over the next few days joe and i have talked alot and we decided that no matter what i choose that we will remain civil for our pups 

but over my time of thinking we have decided that if i decide to come home joe has to keep working hard to contro him self 

i dont even know what to do anymore, i know i love him very much and he melts my heart and i know my heart, mind, and soul are captured by him

he is always on my mind and he keeps me smiling i know i belong with him so i guess i will fight to keep us whole 

*joe, i think its time to talk, i want to be with you but i want to be sure that your going to change and your not going to become violent again, i sure hope that you will continue to fight the urges that may come before you, i want you to continue to do well and i want to continue life with you and our pups. i want to work towards forever with you and i know it will not be a easy journey, love was never meant to be easy but it will always be worth it because you are what i want and you i will always fight for* i say 

joe smiles and drops to his knees holding onto my waist i hear gentle tears falling down his face and i slowly drop to my knees and hug him kissing him

man i love this man Yes he is far from perfect but he is prefect for me and i will continue to love him threw it all

joe stands up and scoops me into his arms pulling me close to him and gently kissing me 

i keep on kissing him and soon it becomes very passionate and before i know it we are f*****g hard core

man i forgot how good he is in bed. 

he is so gentle as he kisses my body he is gentle on me and takes care of me like i am a delicate rose

he f***s me like its the very first time

*f**k me harder, i promise i wont break* i whisper into his ear 

he f***s me harder and i am in heaven 

he picks me up into his arms pushing me against the wall kissing me as he f***s me harder and harder 

i cant help but scream and moan f**k he is amazing at f*****g me

*damn baby* joe says as he keeps on f*****g me harder and harder 

i am a moaning cumming mess 

after we are done f*****g Joe gently lays me into bed and lets me catch my breath 

*that was amazing* i say once i can breathe 

*yes it always is with you baby* joe says

*gosh i f*****g love you baby* i say as i get up and head for the shower 

joe is not far behind me we both get in the shower and clean our selves up 

today is the day we will be heading home and i wont lie i am happy and excited but also nervous and scared

its been a lil bit since i have seen my pack and also my mom and dad and i am a bit nervous i am getting bigger each day and looking more and more pregnant 

i dont want anyone to say anything because i left the alpha while i was pregnant with his pups but i am sure noone knows as to why i left when i did

*baby are you alright, i can feel that you are stressing about stuff* joe says

*i guess i am ok i am just worried what everyone will say when i return since i was pregnant and left the Alpha while carrying his pups* i say 

*Baby dont worry about that at all i promise it will all be alright, i told them all why you left and i also told them it was my fault and that i stepped out of line and you did what was best at the time and maybe the moon godess will see the good i am trying to do and give me a second chance with you and look she sure did bring you back to me but one thing i do know is that i wont mess up this time because your all i want and all i need for the rest of my life!* joe says

*your right i am just over thinking and worrying about it all, i am sure it will all be okay* i say i get my things packed and the guards and joe carry them to the car i hurry and check over the room one last time 

i find a letter in a sealed envelope that i know what not just there hmmm

i grab it and the envelope says 

Dear Ayla

i slowly open it unsure of how it got there

Dear Ayla, 

i have heard that your a very special girl and i also know you poses very special powers that no other wolves carry. you have 1 of 2 options the fate of your pack is all yours choose wisely 

option 1: you meet me at the park just a few miles from your hotel in 30 mins and your pack stays safe and your mate is also safe along with your pups but you will not raise the pups your mate will get your pups to raise.

option 2: i will kill your entire pack, i will torture your mate and pups after they are born until they are dead. Ayla i dont recomend you test my patients 

choose wisely and know that i will do as i promise i am a man of my word

one way or another you will be MINE! i wont stop until you are mine! dont test my kindness because you will regret it very soon!

always yours,

Trax

i wipe the tears that have fallen from my eyes i have no idea what to do i know i got to keep my family and pack safe along with my mate and pups 

but i know Joe will not stop until i am found so what do i do anymore

i dont want anyone to get hurt i dont want anyone to die because of me