She Thought

       I searched for that word for a long time but how come it’s so hard to reach? Why do I need to take so many steps just to answer that? It is part of it? Do we really need to sacrifice and may kailangan bang mawala? I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s hard to exist to find the meaning of just one word.   “Axe, kamusta na? I really miss you a lot.” I stared at him. “ I’m sorry I thought I finally get it and find it, but hindi pa pala. Sorry that I wasn’t there for you when you need me , I was searching for my self that time din kasi but I didn’t know na you also need help pala. You know I will adventure this cruel world to search the meaning of it. Don’t worry about me okay? I’ll be okay cause I know that I have you by my side. I love you so much” Then I wiped my tears and walked away.   (2 years later )   “Maaaaaaa! Pupunta ako korea ngayon for a vacation kasama ko kaibigan ko.” I shouted. “Okay nak, pasalubong nalang” Mom said. “Ano gusto mo ma?.” “Kahit ano lang.”   While I was packing, I saw a photo with a two boy and I recognize Edriell then I smiled because he’s the one whom I lean on those times na I need help but the one who catches my attention is the guy next to him and I didn’t recognize this person he is not even familiar to my eyes but when I look to his hand, I saw a bracelet that was same as mine. It is just coincidence or there was something odd?   “Hoy Zia, naghihintay yung kaibigan mo sa labas!” My aunt is so loud. “Hooy ate, ikaw pag papasok ka sa room ko kumaatook kaaaa! “ I shouted back. “Hoy ikaw ilang beses na akong kumatok pero hindi ka nagbubukas tsaka wag mokong sigaw sigawan dahil mas nakakatanda ako.”she shouted again. “Papasukin mo ate, please!” I ordered her.   I immediately stand up and didn’t mind the picture or in case I’ll be curious all day hay nako !   “Hi Zia, did you pack all your needs already?” Reniella said. “Oo, I did na pero I just packed the important things lang na need.” I replied. “Madam, sorry pero ang dami kong dala” Reniella said. “Hoy Ella pwede naman tayong mamili doon ano kaba!” I scolded her. “Ella, tignan mo nga tong picture nato “ I asked. “Ano yan?”. “Eh kasi nakita koto tapos ito si Edriell diba? Eh sino naman tong isa?” I asked and showed the picture. “Wait hindi siya familiar sakin bhie eh, itanong mo nalang kay Ed. Saan moto nakuha?” she asked. “Yun nga eh, binigyan kasi ako ni Ed ng notes of his guitar chords for his new song and he wants me to practice to it but when I checked this just now I saw this na” I explained. “Bhie mamaya na yan, malalate na tayo sa flight HAHAH”she said.     Reniella is always there throughout all the years. There is always one person who’s always there when your world crumbles. I’m very thankful for her