We spent the day wading in the lake, catching up with Trey and Gemma and I'll be honest and say that I spent most of my time staring at her. If i could observe her full time, I would. And for the first time, when Gemma brought up the subject of Colton I didn't bolt. I didn't panic. I didn't run for the hills and bury my head in the sand. Syd held my hand and I told Gemma what my mind had deduced from the whole saga. I was frank and direct and it felt good to talk about him and not worry I was betraying someone. Like Trey, who'd been there every step of my journey. I told her that he was someone I trusted. Someone I loved, like a brother, and he'd broken that trust. That I was devastated that he'd been taken from us, but that my conflicted emotions only led me to one conclusion. That I wa

