Pregnant with the Bad Boy

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He was wearing a suit, it was black and sat perfectly over his body as if every inch was made after his movement, he was wearing a dark tie that looked like it was in a twisting pattern and he looked nervous until he saw the car and smiled immediately, I smiled, I do not know if he did not see me but it did not matter, I was so relieved to see him that I waited every second to arrive as I drove slowly to the entrance where he stood and walked to the door when I opened and he saw me, his eyes widened like he had never seen anything more beautiful in the whole world, I thanked myself for taking the extra time on myself and unbuttoned my belt when I turned to him and he lifted down me straight down in his arms and I suddenly could not breathe where we stood in each other's arms and I just stared stupidly and crazy fondly into his warm brown eyes that looked at me so that I felt the heat deep inside me as I always did nowadays . 

“Hello.” I touched his nose lightly with mine and he smiled lovingly and kissed me lightly on the forehead when I looked at him again, damn I was really in love with him. I swallowed my revelation, I wanted him to be mine and no one else's.

“Hello.” He had his hand on my back and held me tight as if I would fall if he did not hold me, which was truer than I wanted, he gave me the glow to live again, to see the light again after Dylan.

“I have missed you…” I pressed against his chest for a few seconds and listened to his heart beating fast like mine which gave me hope for the future when he released me a little and just smiled mysteriously in the way only, he could when I looked up again.

“And I you Jennifer”. I'm loved how he said my name every time, I was so grateful he said my full name every time, I did not want to be called any of what Dylan had said to me by him.

We were interrupted by a man who showed up in shorts and a pique when Grant gave him the keys quickly without letting me down with my eyes and I understood that they would park it, I was stupid sometimes.

“You've made my evening so much better.” He smiled charming and I blushed, I was glad he felt the same way and that I was not a maniac who could not be without him for more than three minutes.

“so, what's so awful tonight?” I laughed as he looked at me secretly before replying that it was the most natural thing in the world.

“My family.” I froze when we had started walking towards the restaurant and was sweating in the cold evening air, was he joking with me?!

“Grant…” I sighed loudly when he just looked at me as if it was not even a big thing, it was a big thing in my world.

“I thought you said it was just business?” I looked disappointed on his happy face as he shrugged and looked like I should have known.

“it's the same thing.” His smile was calculating, and I did not hope he had planned this, but the risk was there considering how I was dressed, I was really annoyed now.

Don’t say that you expected me to come to you?” I looked shocked as he just looked confident and part of me wanted to laugh at his planned, the rest of me was angry.

“Maybe…” his did not even look remorseful and I sighed again, of course he had done considering how needy I was all the time.

I weighed on my feet, I had two choices, go my way and pissed and then spend the rest of the evening crying that I missed him, or I stayed and faced the music.

I sighed again and looked at his happy face that looked at me confidently, but I had begun to understand that he was really nervous when I rolled my eyes at his handsome face, I did not want to cry, and it could not be as dangerous as he said that it was with my own family in mind.

“Okay, I'm going in, if you tell me what we are?” I honestly looked at his eyes that were disturbed for a few seconds that he did not know either, I felt calmer that he was as confused as me when it came to it.

“What are we?” He looked like he was thinking for a while when I started to lose patience and was just about to leave when he wrapped his arms around me so I could not go anywhere and looked tenderly into my eyes where I stood taken by his love for me.

“You mean if we're together or just having s*x?” His voice was too loud for me, and I blushed again as he laughed at my nervousness, I wished I could hit him hard if he had not held me so tightly in his arms.

“Yes.” I blinked at him as he laughed lightly as if I should know the answer and smiled as he moved his nose towards mine and I felt my heart go faster again.

“So, you want to be my girlfriend?” he looked at me seriously when he knew he was afraid I would back off, just like I did with everything else, but now that I was standing here, I wanted nothing more than for him to be mine.

“I think so… if you do not think it's too early?” I looked anxiously at his face which was amused again as if he knew something I did not know.

“Jennifer, I do not think it's too early.” He smiled charmingly at me, and I relaxed as he kissed me slowly, so it almost hurt in me when he stopped, and I looked breathlessly at his warm brown eyes.

“But next time, just ask, if it's something you want.” I angrily narrowed my eyes at him for a few seconds as he laughed and nodded before he took my hand, and we went inside.

“you look amazingly beautiful as usual my dear.” I staggered to his loving words when the cold in my stomach struck me again because he spoke to me as if we had not just decided where we stood, I did not dare to answer but just mumbled shyly thank you when we were instructed in the big the restaurant and he had my hand on the back end, it felt good when I had started to sweat over meeting his family, I hoped they would like me.

I froze when there was a round table where there were five people, an older man who looked like Grant but still not, he had a sharp face and steel grey eyes resting on one of the waitresses who passed by, to his right woman was beautiful and she had big brown eyes and looked disapprovingly at her husband as she sat in a pink dress that had long arms and a deep neckline with glitter, she had jewellery that shone everywhere, on her hands, arms and ears and neck and not the kind that you find in a*****e around the corner.

Then there were the men, they were all alike and looked uncomfortable where they sat, two of them looked older and one of them younger, they all looked like their parents in different arrangements, and I quickly looked at Grant he had not lied about that they all looked like they wanted to be somewhere other than here.

They had all seen us now and I froze as Grant's hand led mine softly to the table as they all stared at me as he stopped in front of them and looked confidently at their shocked faces, I hoped they would know I was invited.

“Jennifer, this is my family.” He made a sweeping gesture to them all and I said nothing until he started listing their names one by one.

“My father Edward Stone, my mother Kathryn Stone, and my three brothers Kenneth, Harry and finally Phillip.” I smiled at them as they still had not said anything but just stared at me, especially Edward Stone, I did not like how he looked at me upside down with his eyes and looked away.

“This is Jennifer Thompson, my girlfriend.” His smile widened as they all seemed to gasp, especially to his mother who was examining me with her hard gaze, I sighed inside, he had not lied about not being close to his family.

He sat me down and sat himself by my side as we all saw each other, and I held his hand under the table tightly and he caressed the back of my hand with his thumb as he confidently waited for it them to react.

“Please Grant, is she not a little too young for your usual taste?” His mother rolled her eyes, and I ignored the jealousy in me, that was what she wanted as she had not even asked me directly how old I was.

He ignored her and his father looked at me approvingly as he thought his son had good taste, I did not know if it was a compliment or insult to me, both probably.

“So, Jennifer, where did you find this i***t?” The younger brother, Phillip smiled at me, I decided to like him as he seemed to be the only one who spoke directly to me of the others.

“In a bar.” I said the sentence confidently for some reason, drilled from his mother's sneering eyes that rolled as I said the answer and drank the wine in front of her as I smiled politely at her youngest son.

“of course he did…” she looked away and waved rudely at one of the waiters when one of his older brothers spoke now, I think his name was Harry.

“We are just a little surprised, Grant has not been with anyone since…” he was silenced by Grant's angry look that seemed to be able to strangle him if he did not keep quiet now at once.

“Since Veronica.” The other older brother, Kenneth who looked like he was the oldest and not afraid of Grant's black eyes as I looked at them all confused, I wished I could know what had happened so I could understand why everyone was so angry and upset.

“Right.” His father looked at him sadly now and I turned my gaze to Grant's face which had completely solidified from the anger and sadness that played out in his eyes, I tried to make him look at me, but he refused, and I shyly looked down, I wished that I'm sitting on a bus right now.

“Who is Veronica?” I said the words quietly and his mother laughed softly as if I would understand why she would not even answer my question when Grant finally said the answer in the dark.

“My wife.” His voice was so different, raw and hurt. I pulled my hand away from what he had said and blinked in surprise at his response before the anger started to creep around in me and before I knew it, I had stood up and started walking from there, clenching my teeth, I would not cry, not over him, no.

 I would never meet a man again from now on, it did not matter if they were handsome or charming or that I was terribly in love with them… I sobbed at my last thought when I came out on the street, I picked up the phone, I would call a uber and then I would never see him again.

How could I be so stupid to believe in him, he had lied to me the same way Dylan had done, only used me for his own pleasure and then when it came down to it, he was in love with someone else… had a f*****g wife!

I was staring blankly around the street which was full of people, and everyone looked happy except me when I trembling picked up the phone and was about to search for a car when I heard him behind me and closed my eyes hard to fight the tears, as long as I did not see him I would not cry, it would work right?

I drew the evening air hard into my lungs as he had stayed behind me, why was he here? what was there to explain? I turned tired and looked at him dead, it felt just like last time, only that Dylan had screamed and kicked while Grant just looked ashamed and sad at me.

“Jennifer…” his voice was tired and longing, I shook my head at his pleading, no, I did not want to hear it. not again.

“you're not better than him.” I said the words coldly and picked up the phone again when his eyes turned black from my words and he stood in front of me so we were close enough to see each other deep in the eyes, I wanted to turn away, but he held me in his arms and looked like he wanted to say something but could not.

“It's not what you think…” his eyes were so sad now, like I had never seen them before and I bit my lip uncertainly as he sighed from the depths of his self before answering himself.

“she's dead.” I stopped my anger, she was dead? I looked at him confused, why had it sounded to them like he was still married? I quickly looked down at his hand if I had missed a ring but there was no one there. 

“She died seven years ago in a car accident…” he clenched his teeth and let me go when I just blinked stupidly at what he had said before I sank my head in shame, I was absolutely sure he had been unfaithful with me, for that was so I thought of all men apparently nowadays.

“I'm sorry Grant…” I had not raised my head yet when he had his hands on his hips and stood bent back with his head as he could barely talk about it, I understood.

“it's not your fault…” his voice became softer, and he approached me again and pulled up my face so I could see his beautiful brown eyes again.

“it's my fault, I should have said something before you met them…” he looked at me pleadingly again and I felt that the feeling of the black hole in me was disappearing even though it ebbed hard like a shadow I never got rid of with.

“I thought you were cheating.” I said the words sad and sour as he nodded understandingly and I lay down against his chest and blinked strongly against the tears, I did not want to cry tonight as I would have been the happiest day for me in a long time.

“You have not been with anyone in seven years? Before me?” I looked at him in shock when he got a sad smile and nodded to me, I wished I had known before so I could understand him better.

I was still unsure of what to say, our relationship was already different because of my pregnancy with another man when he looked at me with such deep sadness that I thought I would drown myself in it if I let myself do it.

“She was pregnant when it happened.” His voice was miserable, and I said nothing now but just put my arms around his waist and pressed my head against his chest, damn it.

I closed my eyes, no wonder he knew everything he was doing, he had prepared for his child with her. And then everything had disappeared.

“I'm so sorry…” I cried now for his sake, for my sake, I didn’t care if anyone saw us, I just wanted to hold him where we stood in front of the crowded restaurant and cars drove by a perfect place to talk about their worst nightmares and fears.

“Don’t be… “he had been crying too, his voice was dull and I looked up at his sad eyes that had taken on redness from what he told, I had never seen him like this before when I put my hand on his face and stroked them comforting on his face.

“Thank you for telling me.” I smiled faintly but I was still sad they must have been hell when I said that I was pregnant for him and he had still stayed, it hurt me to know how much he suffered himself the two weeks before had taken the courage to meet me.

He smiled now when I hugged him again, I wished I could take all the pain from him and carry it when I knew how awful it was when someone you loved disappeared.

“It seems like we both have lost someone we love Jennifer…” he looked sad at me now when I swallowed as he had thought the same thing as me and I nodded slowly.

“But we're here now, right?” I looked questioningly into his tired eyes which became sharper from my words as I stared at his glow which was on its way back into my eyes again.

“I was empty when I met you Grant, you saved me, and I will never give up on you because you never gave up on me.” I touched his nose with my own when I saw that he was back again, how his whole body became straighter and his eyes were burning again and the hard lines at the eyes were smoothed out.

“I know that I am too fast with my feelings and that I am demanding to be with, but I am… terribly in love with you…” I smiled embarrassed when I stammered the last words, he looked at me now and I knew that he felt the same thing, without having to say anything to me the way he looked at me.

“You are absolutely perfect.” I felt the cold in my stomach as he kissed me now, both deeply and tenderly at the same time as I closed my eyes and enjoyed his closeness and mouth.

I opened my eyes, and everything felt different, as if all my doubts had disappeared, that he would not disappear because he wants me, with all that implied.

“I believe you.” I looked into his eyes gleaming with understanding, he understood what I meant, and I leaned gratefully towards him for a few seconds before he just looked at me happily and took my hand in his and I was moved by his touch when we started to go back in again, red from crying, my makeup was ruined, and he looked tired but I had never felt happier.

I stopped at the bathroom and wiped away the worst under my eyes when he stayed outside, I laughed low to myself, I know everything was chaos, nothing was fixed with Dylan but I was damn in love with Grant with all my heart and I would fight for him in any way I could, against myself, and against his family if that was the case and eventually I would fight against Dylan.

I looked determined when I came out again and I smiled as he stood there waiting for me with his arms crossed, I thanked God, I had met him again.