Pregnant with the Bad Boy

35

I had woken up early again and mum had looked at me worriedly as I ate, I hadn't even bothered anymore and gone back up to the room and watched instructional clips for make-up and tried to do something similar before I showered and stood for at least an hour choosing what to wear, it wasn't easy as I didn't know what we were going to do, but I had finally chosen a dark purple pantsuit which made me look darker than I was, maybe even a little more luxurious than I felt as I looked at my silver pumps and wondered if they were too daring to wear before I took them, I wanted to look good for him but I still wanted to wear what I wanted, I had come a long way from the long haired girl in red lycra who had kissed him the first time and I hoped he would notice.

I put on the last of the makeup and looked examined, was it good? I looked again when I saw that it was already seven o'clock and I put on the darker lipstick that made me look like a dark princess in the dress I was wearing.

I looked so tall and dark, not at all like myself, I liked it as I spun another turn before to my horror I heard the bell down the hall, and my mother's voice mixing with Grant's. I froze in fear that he was standing talking to her, mum was going to say something stupid, I just knew it, I quickly tightened my phone and bag before throwing myself out into the moonlight my shoes allowed me and walked hurriedly down the stairs with one hand on the banister as I saw them, Grant was laughing amiably at something mum was babbling about, she looked like a teenager talking fast to his nodding head.

He looked good again, wearing a jacket over a t-shirt and jeans with a pair of sneakers that made him look casual as usual but still stylish.

I hurried up the last few steps and they both looked up at me where I came down the stairs, I smiled beaming at Grant's admiring face and looked sourly at Mum quickly where she stood trying to press him for information.

“Jennifer, there you are!” She chirped, I rolled my eyes inwardly as I continued to smile and took Grant's outstretched hand the last two steps down to him.

“Grant.” I smiled fondly at him as he still held my hand and he pulled it to him and kissed it slowly while not dropping my eyes with his own secrecy.

“Jennifer...” you look more beautiful every time I see you... he smiled slyly and I hoped my mother hadn't seen me flinch at that as I turned to look at her sparkling eyes, she would have screamed with the joy bubbling inside her if she could.

“Mom, we have to go now.” I quickly looked at Grant who nodded kindly at her as I grabbed my jacket and bag, I didn't want Mum to say another word to him.

“a real pleasure to meet you, Mrs. Thompson.” He bowed slightly to her giggling face, and I rolled my eyes at her behaviour.

“And you Mr. Stone.” She smiled adorably at his friendly face, and I didn't think to wait another second for Mom to say something stupid or embarrassing to him.

“See you later.” His hand held my own shakily in a firm grip and I quickly walked out the doors half a step behind him as I turned to look angrily at Mum one last time who just smiled and winked at me, I rolled my eyes at her before turning back around and smiled delightedly at him as we closed the door behind us.

“wait.” He stopped me on the porch, and I looked nervously at his enigmatic face as he smiled at me and he pulled mine close to him, I gasped as he leaned over and kissed me slowly so that my knees were buckling from his touch as I closed my eyes and opened my eyes rapturously when his lips had left mine.

“Grant...” I whispered his name soundlessly, it felt good to say it, he probably thought I was crazy standing there whispering to myself but he just smiled and we walked on to the car, I knew mum had seen everything but I didn't care as he helped me into the car and I sat comfortably in the luxury car, I wondered where we were going, he didn't look as dressed up as me but what did it matter when he looked at me with those big brown eyes that just had heat in them.

He sat down and started the almost silent car's engine and drove out of the yard, it felt like I could lighten every inch we got away from it as I had too many memories with Dylan left that plagued me every waking second.

“so, your mother she was nice... and beautiful like you...” his eyes twinkled as I laughed at his comment and playfully pouted my mouth at his calculated smile.

“She’s not single.” I laughed again as he fell into it and took my hand, I froze, it felt just like when Dylan held my hand while he was driving, I felt sick that I kept comparing the two men who were as different as night and day.

He saw that I had a worried look on my face and quickly ran his thumb over the back of my hand a couple of times and let go to my disappointment, I didn't understand myself, I wanted him to touch me, but I was still so haunted by another man's touch that it scared me when he did it.

“I'm sorry...” I looked ahead as I couldn't bear to see his sure wondering look as he drove out onto the highway, and I sighed defeated by my own insecurity.

” it’s okay Jennifer.” his voice was tender, and I turned to his profile, his still looked like he had the whole world figured out, I envied him.

“No, it's not okay, I don't want to be like this, I want to give us an honest chance.” I saw him smile now and his eyes gleamed as they seemed to do every time, he looked at me.

“Us you said?” He was laughing now, and I realised how stupid it sounded, we had only seen each other once and kissed twice. I slapped my hands shamefully in front of my face, he must think I was a complete psycho sitting here not even wanting to touch him sometimes but the next second talking like we were together already, I was so useless at this sort of thing.

“I'm sorry...” I didn't look up from my hands as he laughed again and slowly pulled my one hand away so I could see his profile as he quickly looked at me with an amused smile, he didn't seem at all scared or confused as I was.

“Don't say sorry, a beautiful woman like you shouldn't say sorry for anything.” He took my hand again and I breathed out and looked at him gratefully, he had patience and it would be needed with me.

We sat quietly and he let me go just to change, it felt safe as I felt calm and at ease in the dark for a while with his hand in mine.

We weren't still in Perryville, and I looked around curiously as he drove into little rock and all the lights around me felt magical as I sat there with him, like I was seeing the world for the first time.

He glanced at me and smiled where I sat like a child blinking at all the lights as we passed by at a rapid pace before he turned off at the exit and took me into the heart of the city where people were out, I didn't even know what day it was but it seemed to be the weekend, or maybe it always looked like this in larger cities as people crowded, shouting and there was music everywhere, it was amazing.

He stopped in front of one of the taller buildings and got out before walking around and opening my door, I felt spoiled as he helped me out and took my hand again and locked the car with a click, it was full of people around us and I saw them staring at me, I pulled myself closer to him unconsciously and he put his arm around me as we walked through the large entrance and entered, inside it was lit up and there were two large lifts, I looked around confused, this was not a restaurant, far from it.

“I live here.” his voice was calm as he looked at me confidently and held me with a gentle squeeze around my waist, I gulped, s**t. I who had thought I was moving fast and now he wanted to take me home, I quickly closed my eyes and followed him as the elevator opened and he calmly pressed the top button, of course, he lived at the top.

I looked nervously at us in the mirror, we looked good together and I saw how I had leaned towards him more than I had intended as he saw me looking at both of us and smiled back in the mirror with a confident smile.

“don’t worry Jennifer, I promise I'll control myself.” he laughed as I looked nervously at his amused face, hoping that he would be able to keep his word, and that I would be able to do the same.

The elevator opened and we stepped out into his home and I looked around, it was big and modern, not as cold as I had imagined even though most of it seemed to be planned down to the last detail, I hardly dared to move as he helped me off with my coat and led me inside, I walked carefully on the fine wooden floors that made my heels sound so loud that it echoed in me as I walked.

“I hope you're not disappointed that we didn't go elsewhere.” He quickly looked at me where I was standing and I shook my head slightly and looked around, it was really incredibly beautiful in here even though most of it was in white and black.

“No, that's fine, I have a hard time with people in large quantities anyway...” I smiled before I understood what I had said and he just nodded briefly as he had already understood it and pointed to the couch where I sat down as elegantly as I could and crossed my legs as he came from the open kitchen which was gigantic in my eyes and brought two wine glasses and a bottle, I thanked God when I saw it, maybe I didn't have to feel like a stiff with some wine in me.

He sat down next to me, and I watched nervously as he had taken off his jacket and was only wearing the probably expensive t-shirt, I gulped hard again, his scent was intoxicating and I inhaled it discreetly like a maniac as he poured into the glasses and handed one of them to me and I gratefully accepted it.

“So, Jennifer what did you think of the flowers, was it too much? Too little?” he laughed as I immediately drank the sweet white wine and laughed to myself at his silliness.

“They were enough, thank you.” I smiled happily at his attractive face, damn he was so handsome, how had I not seen it the first time I saw him?

“Your mother seemed to be happy about them anyway.” He laughed again and I felt myself blushing, of course mum had said something, why wouldn't she do that too? I swore lowly at her as I smiled apologetically and drank again.

“Sorry, she's just so happy after everything that... happened....” I looked sad for a few seconds before I shook it off, I wanted to know more about him not just talk about myself.

“So, Grant, tell me, where's your family? Your brothers?” I set the glass down on the low white table before swiping the lightly drunk wine and smiled adorably at his serious look of what I had said before he shrugged and drank his first sip of wine, ignoring the feeling of shame that came with mine being almost gone.

“they're all over the place, I don't know much but I know one of my brothers is here in Little Rock if he's still around.” I looked at him in surprise, it sounded like he didn't much care what they were doing, and I looked at him sadly for the first time.

“that sounds awful...” I couldn't stop the words as he looked at me with a strange expression and his eyes darkened as I said something he wasn't expecting.

“you get used to it, I don't suffer from it.” he toasted me and I dropped my head, I had said all the wrong things and I felt stupid, I wasn't nearly as confident as he was when he asked me something.

“sorry.” I looked at him as he just smiled confidently again, maybe I had imagined it but it felt like I had ruffled the feathers of how he wanted to paint himself up to the world, if it had only been for a few seconds.

“it's fine.” He put the glass down and put his arm around me, it tickled me as I looked at him and couldn't help but giggle at how ridiculous it was, it felt so good to feel his arm against mine where our bare skin met.

I sat still until my heart was pounding and I couldn't hold it in any longer and moved closer discreetly until we were right up against each other, he dragged his hand over my arm and it sent little electric shocks up my spine that made every hair on my body stand up as he suddenly stopped and turned his head towards me as I followed his movement.

“May I touch you?” His voice was soft and strained with desire as I licked my lips and nodded as his eyes twinkled and he kissed me deeply so I could barely breathe from the excitement that coursed through me as I closed my eyes and gasped as his fingers moved from my arm up over my neck and up over my face, sending shivers all over me.

He smiled when he saw how I reacted and drew his finger around my mouth that he had just kissed, and I breathed heavily at his touch.

“Don't stop...” I watched pleadingly at his confident smile as he let his fingers slide down my neck again and stopped just above my breasts and I shivered throughout my body at his touch as he looked at me with his big brown eyes that glittered dangerously in the low light in here.

“I said I'd control myself, but it's hard...” he laughed as I couldn't resist the urge and pushed me against him as he pulled me up on top of him and I smiled confidently as I put my hands over my top part and pulled it slowly over my head as he gasped at my unexpected movement and I kissed him hungrily, grateful that I was wearing the black bra, the lace ones I had just bought as he dragged his hands over them and I pressed myself against his crotch, I didn't care if he thought I was crazy or slutty, the fire that tore into me made me moan as his mouth played over the edge of the black bra and I leaned back, choking on the pleasure that had taken over me completely and caused me to lose control.

“You are so beautiful...” I heard his voice between gasps as I had my hands down to his jeans and he looked at me uncertainly for a few seconds as I looked at him with my determined green eyes burning with desire in me as I undid the button and slowly pulled the fly down while still looking at his face which groaned as I put my hand on his already hard hard-on and smiled innocently as I suddenly let go of him and stood up and pulled off my trouser part which slipped off me and his eyes went wide seeing me in just the black underwear as I still had my heels on, I didn't feel shy anymore, just hungry for him to touch me as I slowly walked up to his fitted body and squatted down in front of him and pulled his shoes off one by one as I just smiled confidently at his stunned face as I grabbed the waistband of his pants and slowly pulled them down over his legs as he seemed to have woken up and quickly pulled them down and I sat astride him again and kissed his mouth slowly before I pulled his shirt off over his head and we sat skin to skin in our underwear.

He stopped me panting as I rested on his hard hard-on and put my arms around his neck so we were so close that I could feel his breath on me.

“Are you sure about this?” his face was filled with concern as I leaned forward and whispered in his ear.

“More than anything else.” I leaned back and looked into his eyes which twinkled as he nodded and grabbed my hips and stood up with me still around him as I laughed at the sudden movement which had made me giggle in surprise as he carried me in with confident steps towards the bedroom, I looked around, it was a big bed, no it was huge in my eyes and the room had floor to ceiling windows on one short side so anyone could see in if we hadn't been so high up.

He laid me down gently on the bed and kissed me from my neck down my body, I sighed at the tension that crept over me as he came down to my stomach and had bitten gently at the edge of my pants and I moaned as his tongue traced the thin fabric that was the only thing between his tongue and me as I bent my knees out and pressed myself against his face where he was on the edge of the bed and enjoyed his breath tracing the inside of my thighs as he held my legs and stroked them slowly so I shivered at his touch, I wanted to feel him all over me, in me, everywhere.

I flinched as he pulled down my panties leaving them behind as I closed my eyes and enjoyed the heat that made me go numb as his tongue had found its way inside me and I stirred uneasily at what he was doing to me as I stiffened with my back and he was holding my legs still made me crazy and I opened my eyes as my legs had become lead heavy and I grabbed his expensive sheets and screamed out loud as my body pushed upwards several times and I shook from the shock that hit my body in batches.

I looked down mistily at his satisfied face as he just seemed to be admiring me lying there, completely exposed by his magic tongue.

“Jennifer, I hope you can take more...” his eyes glazed over as I put my hand over my forehead and looked up at him where he stood completely naked and I saw his impressed stance where he was waiting for me and I just smiled and he knelt down in front of me with one of my legs on either side and leaned forward and pulled out a small packet, a condom.

I looked at it gratefully, I couldn't bear any more fear of getting pregnant again as he looked at me calmly as he rolled it up before lying on top of me and I looked tenderly at his face, it was so warm and his eyes were so mysterious at the same time.

I groaned as he thrust into me and I enjoyed the familiar feeling of being filled up, only this time it wasn't Dylan. It made me sad for some reason. I pushed the thought away as I looked up at his panting face as I put my arms around his waist moving up and down over me and I closed my eyes and enjoyed his warmth as he looked up at me and I smiled shyly at his pleasured face, I liked him, he kissed me again and I squirmed lustfully under his body as he stopped and looked at me in surprise as if he knew what I was thinking.

“isn't that good? You want me to quit?” I smiled faintly at his chivalry where he lay between my legs obviously aroused and asked if I wanted more.

“It's all right, go ahead.” His eyes looked at me expectantly as he moved slowly again and I stroked his hair, it was straight and didn't have a single curl in it, I sighed deeply and he stopped completely now.

“Want to try another position?” I looked at him wide-eyed, had he just asked me what I wanted? I had been so used to Dylan doing what he wanted with me that I never thought about what I might want.

“I don't know...” I got shy again when he looked at me thoughtfully, it was a bizarre situation.

“No one has asked me that before...” I was embarrassed by my confession as he blinked at me in surprise and looked almost upset as I put my hands to my face and was more embarrassed.

“I'm sorry...” I whispered the words as he remained lying and pulled my hands away, caressing my face with his hand as I blinked frightened at his warm eyes.

“Don't say sorry, he's the one who should be apologizing to you for using you for himself without caring what you wanted.” He kept stroking my cheek with his thumb and I clenched my teeth as I felt like crying, I didn't want to cry now, not when I was here Grant who was so wonderful to me.

I'd never seen it that way, I'd liked what we'd done but I knew he was right, part of me might have known that Dylan had only used me in the way he wanted it to be, and I'd have done anything for him.

“Is it okay if we stop?” I looked uncertainly at his face as he just smiled at my embarrassed face before he quickly pulled out of me and lay on my side, I was shaking now, I didn't know what the f**k had happened, I had never reacted like this to s*x before, not even when Dylan had held me down outside on the car. I pushed the memory away; it had been so good then but now it felt dirty all of a sudden. I had started crying before I knew it had started.

I turned towards his profile where he lay studying me, I felt so stupid, I was the one who had started it all and said I wanted to but yet here I was crying in his bed upset at what it had done to me.

“I'm sorry Grant... you're absolutely wonderful and everything is wonderful, I really enjoyed it, I don't know why I got like this...” I fell silent as he just smiled sadly at me as if he knew why more than I did why I was crying.

“no worries Jennifer... I feel more like finding the guy who did this to you and crushing him.” His voice was dark now and I looked at him in surprise, I honestly thought he was going to ask me to leave, or just drive me home instead of just lying there and being understanding, I didn't deserve him.

“Do you want me to go? I can call my mom and she'll pick me up. I can wait in the lobby.” I had already started to get up when he pulled me down again and held me gently by the shoulders where I lay on top of his chest with my head, blinking up at the ceiling in surprise.

“You don't have to go, I'm not going to throw you out just because you're having a hard time right now” he pulled his arms around me and I started to relax as he whispered in my ear faintly so I could barely hear him.

“I said I don't give up that easily...” I shuddered at his words as I stared up at the pale moonlight coming in through the big windows.

I didn't respond to his sentence but instead closed my eyes as he traced his fingers over my arm and breathed quietly into my ear, feeling for the first time in a long time completely at ease with what I was feeling, no matter how horrible the emotions were.