Pregnant with the Bad Boy

66 pt2

“He did not want you to find him… so I lied when you asked me…” she sounded sad now that it was her fault that me and Dylan had hated each other.

“I'm not mad at you…” I smiled and she looked up where we sat and I breathed a couple of times, I'm glad she had not told, the only thing that had happened was that me and Dylan would hate each other more.

“Mandy, thank you. Keeping this, it must have been hard for you.” I put my hand on her arm and she smiled in relief that the truth was finally out, it seemed to be such a day today.

“he's so f*****g in love with you Jen, you do not even understand half of it.” she smiled cute now when I exhaled, well I understood, because that's how I felt for him.

“Why he gets all the attention, I have his baby in me, I think it should give me some points on who is in-love the most competition.” She just looked at me stupidly when I laughed and she before grinning happy at me, I was glad she was on my side in this.

“I think there's a draw.” she got up and I also stood up when we hugged each other, it felt good to have someone who was happy for ours anyway.

“Don’t expect me to come to the farm, mom was pissed like hell when she asked me to leave.” I smiled sadly as she shrugged now and looked down at the ground.

“I'm almost never there, what should I do there? embroidery with mom?” She rolled her eyes and I smiled understandingly at her; she also did not want to be there after everything that happened.

“But you are welcome to come to me and Dylan if you want later.…” I looked at her questioningly when she stopped me with her hand and made a face.

“No thank you, I do not want to be around your honeymoon phase, my God you are worse than rabbits when you are…” she pretended to vomit and I changed colour, she had probably heard us, or me that time in the shower that first night at home.

“More or less.” I laughed at her disgusted face and hugged her again, I knew she wanted to get her girlfriend again.

“Tell Jane I said hi, you can take her with you sometime…” I smiled tenderly as she shook her head and walked away from me, my cool independent sister.

I had not had the heart to tell her that Dylan had been arrested, not when she had been so brave and told me the truth.

I laughed a little and walked towards the car again. How had I not seen that she liked girls who? Her entire room was wallpapered with various images of idols who were just women. Or maybe I knew deep down and that was why I had not even been surprised when I saw them together.

I got in the car and stared at the road. Would I call Dad and tell him what had happened? Would he even answer me? after everything that had happened last night?

I looked stressed at the phone, all I wanted was for Marnie to hear from me, I was sweating for every second that I had not heard anything even though my mother and Mandy had distracted me somewhat with their problems. Why did everything happen at the same time?

I sighed deeply and decided it was just as good to go home. I smiled to myself, home.

It was not the farm anymore; it had not felt like it since I met Dylan for the first time, and all this had been set in motion.

I drove out on the road and into the centre and drove into the parking lot behind the house, it was only morning and I already felt exhausted, everything had happened so fast, I got tired out of the car when I saw him sitting at the bottom of the stairs, I was already crying with the joy of seeing the man in jeans staring down at the ground without having seen me yet.

“Dylan!” I shouted his name before I knew I was doing it when he looked up and all the pain in his eyes disappeared when he saw me coming running towards him the little bit I had parked from.

“Babe…” he wrapped his arms around me when I had thrown myself onto him and cried quietly, I was so f*****g happy that he was here, I had been so scared that I would not see him for long time.

“What happened?!” I stared in horror at his face, he smiled faintly as if he did not want to answer as I felt how cold his hands were against me, how long had he been sitting here really?!

“They released me on bail.” His voice was low-pitched, and I put my hands on his cheeks that were ice cold, I looked anxiously at his sunken eyes, why did it felt like he did not want to say more, as if he was afraid to tell me the truth.

“Come on, we're getting inside, you're freezing to death out here.” I took his hand, and we went up the stairs, it felt different now, yesterday I had been so f*****g happy that I could not even understand and now it felt like I only had a big lump in my throat when I thought about the future.

I unlocked and we went into the kitchen, I just wanted him to tell me, I could not bear any more secrets when I turned on the coffee maker and he sat down heavily at the table, I sighed deeply and stood still, I felt bad again, it felt like my whole life was turned upside down by what had happened, that we got married which I still did not regret but that dad had bailed and mom who had banished me, and Mandy who had to suffer for me and Dylan without that I knew about it.

“Dylan just tell me…” I stood with my arms crossed and leaned back as he sat at the small table and looked down at his hands as if he had disappeared into his own world of pain.

“he's alive…. I wish I had killed him when I had the chance.” I was taken back by the hatred that was low in his dark voice, it sounded so serious that he could do it.

I weighed on my feet, I was glad he lived… for Dylan's sake, for our sake.

“So what? Did it release you on bail? That's a good sign, isn't it?” I looked at him wondering, I was just glad he was home, even though he seemed as present as I used to be when it was at its worst.

He laughed and looked up at me, it hurt in the chest to see his grey eyes filled with sadness and fear, I went to the table and sat down before I took his hand in mine and hugged it tenderly.

“six months Jen.” He said the words slowly and I looked at him shocked, six months of what? I felt my heart sank again when I understood what he meant, six months in prison.

“No! No! You didn’t do anything wrong! It was him, who was a f*****g disgusting and pretended to be your friend! He should be the one who got six months in prison!” I swore loudly when I had shouted the words at the end, damn Parker, I also wished Dylan had killed him when he had the chance now.

He caressed my hand with his fingers and just looked at me with a faint smile with his sad eyes, I could not do it, no I would not do it, I would not do without him! I was already panting with the anxiety that came over me when he put his other hand on mine and started talking without me hearing him first.

“It will be fine, you are okay…” I stared at him as he repeated the words to me, I would not be okay, I would be alone, and he would be in there and miss the birth of our daughter!

“I will be all by myself when she is born! Is it fair!?” I let go of his hands and slapped them across the face, I could not really cry but what else could I do when he sat there and just took it as if we could not fight this.

“No… it’s not…” I did not look at him when I heard in his voice how broken he was by it himself, I could not take it anymore, why was it never calm ever?

“Why are you just sitting there! we have to do something!” I had removed my hands now and pounded them down on the table in front of him, I did not understand why he did not fight for this!?

He looked up at me, I gasped in anger that made me want to hit someone or break something where I half stood up now and stared into his crushed face.

“This is the best I could get Jen; I have agreed to it…” I staggered with the look in his honest eyes, he had agreed to it! without me! I sank down on the chair again and just looked at him, why had he not wanted to say something to me before he decided?

“I'm your wife Dylan, do not you think you could have told me that before you agreed to spend six f*****g months in jail?” I did not know if I was pissed or if I was disappointed, both for sure.

“It hadn’t mattered babe…” he smiled now as if it was something he had no control over and I sank down more in the chair, he would be gone for six months, I would be without him through what would be it scariest bit of my life so far myself.

“What about Marnie?! Couldn’t she help you!? That was why you said I would call her!?” I was angry again; I did not understand why I would have done it if it did not matter, and he would still be away from me.

“It wasn’t Marnie who helped me.” he just sat and looked ashamed, and I sighed, perfect. More secrets.

“Who was it then ?!” I pulled tiredly my hands across my face as he just looked at me like he did not want to tell again, the big stupid man he was.

“My father.” He said the word so cold that I was shaken by the darkness in his voice when I blinked in surprise at him, his father? But he was dead, he had said it himself.

“But you said he was dead?” I was not angry anymore, just surprised he did not even want to share it with me.

“He is dead… in my eyes.” I sighed at his dramatic pause, typically Dylan not saying anything, if he did not want to tell, he didn’t.

“Okay… so he's alive? How did he help?” I looked in amazement at his face that was half amused with a tilting his head as if he did not know if he would laugh or cry.

“He is the chief prosecutor in Little rock.” I was just staring at him; he was joking with me! I just blinked stupidly at his answer, his father was a high-ranking official in Little Rock.

“Dylan, if he's your dad, how come you're still in jail for six months?” I looked suspiciously at his amused face that looked like it could break at any second.

“it’s not the first time.” He said the words amused as if everything was a joke, I was waiting for when he laughed until now, I knew it was not because he was happy right away.

“Not the first time what?” I put my arms crossed, I wanted to know what he meant, the fact was that he would damn well start saying everything he had hidden from me now that we were married.

“I’m assaulting someone.” His smile disappeared and I sank down with my shoulders, of course it wasn’t. I should have figured that out myself.

I didn’t answer what he just told me, I just looked away, of course he had punched someone before, I had seen it myself the first night together, he had almost killed the man who had tried to grab me by my arm.

“Jen… I'm sorry…” he looked at me sincerely devastated, I shrugged, what did I really expect? He had never hidden who he was, a big rowdy man who would rather beat someone down than talk when he was angry.

“Me too.” I looked up at him now with the tears that had come up and fallen silently down my cheeks, I did not know what I felt anymore when he sat there and just looked at me obviously afraid now of what I would say.

“Do you hate me? because I have to leave you?” His voice was so weak now and I just looked at him more sadly, I was overwhelmed that he would be gone, but I did not hate him, it would have been easier than loving him with all my heart.

“I don’t hate you Dylan… I love you…” I looked at him and his face that had been so tense relaxed at once, as if he had held his breath then before I had answered.

“I'm so f*****g sorry Jen… I hate that you have to suffer because I was so f*****g angry and stupid before I met you…” I smiled faintly at his words; I was sad too.

“you're still stupid….” He looked at me as if he did not understand that I had forgiven him before he broke into a relieved smile and took several deep breaths, all the while I sat and watched him with a calm smile, I could not bear to be angry anymore, I would not leave him for what he had done before, but I was also sorry that we suffered from his lifestyle before me.

“Dylan, I want you to say if there is something, I don’t want to find out everything afterwards, we are married and then we can try to behave like that?” I talked about his dad and about everything else he had hidden from me, he nodded quickly, and I took his hand in mine as he pulled it to him and kissed it hard several times while I smiled stupidly at him.

“I promise babe, I'll tell you everything you want to know.” I smiled now when his face was so relieved and loving which made me feel better and I laughed when he stood up and pulled me into his arms, so I was in his arms again and I closed my eyes again, I loved being there when I felt safest on earth.

“so, what do you want to know?” his voice was so tender and open now that I smiled and looked up at his happy face so his eyes shone on him even though we were both terrified that he would be gone for so long.

“Did you know that Mandy liked girls?” I looked asked at him, it was a stupid question and certainly no one he had thought he would get when he laughed out loud now, and I knew he knew it in how he looked at me secretly.

“How the hell did you know that before me? I'm her sister!” I looked insulted at his amused face as he shrugged as if we had just not had one of the worst conversations in our relationship just now.

“She told me.” he just looked at me as if I understood that Mandy had told something so important to my boyfriend, or husband he was now before me. the thought made me warm inside.

“When?” I stared at him in disbelief, I should have understood that he knew about it, I was sure he knew more about her than I did at this point.

He seemed to think that it was a long time ago and I became more offended, that b***h, she had trusted him more than me who was her blood.

“I think it was about just before I met you.” He looked at me now with a silly smile that I rolled my eyes at and laughed before I kissed him tenderly and he pulled his hands through my hair behind me.

“My beautiful wife.” He said the word so simply and loved that my heartbeat harder just from hearing it, I was so heavenly happy to be his wife.

I smiled happily at his radiant eyes and kissed his lips still and smiled silly at his equally silly face at me.

“I do not understand that you are mine Jen, I could take down the whole world for you and our daughter ...” he put his hand on my stomach and slowly stroked it so that it felt like I had a thousand shocks in me and gasped of his touch as he pulled his hand over my breasts and I just looked wildly at his calm face, I wanted him so much right now when I pressed against his crotch where he had already seen my face and become hard that I reacted to his touch.

“I need you, like right now.” I rattled the words as I pulled down my pants and panties without waiting for him to protest as he moaned because I had already started to open his pants and pulled them down before I turned against the table and leaned forward on my arms, and he caressed me from the back down to the ass and put his big hands on my hips.

I gasped when he pushed into me, I had already started to feel the numbness and laughed when he pulled his one hand over my hair and pulled in the loose while he pounded me, so I almost did not know where to go.

My toes were tense and my whole being pressed against his body to get closer, further in and he groaned hard every time we moved against each other, I clawed at the table as he increased the pace and I tensed every part of my body so that I stood on my toes now and folded my back up, then his hand that caressed me while I said his name several times and let the waves of pleasure ripple through me so that I still trembled when he grabbed my shoulder and pressed himself hard in the last times before he came and I stood still panting with my hands on the table and he lay with his head on my back tired and sweaty after coming.

“Your wild babe ...” he chuckled and got up and I laughed along, I was wild.