How did I get here

Now my story began back in the 80s , in Bakersfield California,I had to be about two or three years of age. I could remember living with my uncle, who allowed my mom to come and stay with her two girls Carmel and me (Cascia). My uncle was great it seemed as if we were happy, how did we end up in the cold a shack, that would forever change my life. living in this place was like living in a gangster village, full of drugs, police, parties, family, friends, etc. My mom, who everyone called bae-bae, was this light skin, beautiful woman that played no games, and you had to be bringing something to the table in order to sit at her table. I don't know exactly when my mom met and started dating Duval, but all I know is Duval was my step dad and my mom was about to have his baby,they partied all the time, as well as duval running from the law all the time. My mom hung out allot with his sister, betty-joe, which had two daughters Jodie and Jane , Earl ray and rerun , the sweetest people around these were the people my hung around with. then there was Duvals perverted ass brother James, the one who changed my life forever. When they would have parties we had to be sent to betty-joe house with her daughters. All the adult's were o ut side supposedly partying and having a great time, how James would end up back into the house, and touching on my little frail body, getting his rocks off, He did it for a long time, Everytime we had to go over there, I would be crying, because I didn't want to stay without my mom, but because I couldn't come out and directly express what was happened to me, she would make me stay, I could smell his breathe and feel his hands until I was in my thirties, I hated him, myself and life. I especially hated my mom, but the crazy part is I loved her as much as I hated her. How could she allow this to happen to me. Eventually my mom moved us back to frost proof Florida. where she hooked up with O'Neal , he was this tall dark skinned glass of water that would make a woman fall in love at the sight of looking at him, and he is how we made it to palm Beach county, the raw on 34th St. Mrs Manatee lived up stairs and she would be smoking her cigarettes and sucking on turtle eggs. I use to always say I will never smoke them old stinky cigarettes . My mom and O'Neal ended up breaking up because he slept with multiple people, but what took the cake , was when he slept with the pastor of the church my mom was going to and she had a son from him, these preacher women are just like any other women. so now we moved and now we are on our own.