The Secret She Never Knew

Now What

Liam’s POV

My angel has come home now what do I do to keep her here. She just passed out in my arms, I carry her over to my bed and lay her down.  I turn to Sam and point to the door he walks out after me with his head hanging low, he knows I am mad. I am trying my best not to come unhinged and kill him that is no way to get my angel to stay.  She has already told me she is scared of me so I have to be very careful to do anything that will scare her more.  We step out the door and close it I turn to Aaron and the other to guards and say no one in or out but me keep her safe do you understand your lives depend on it.  They nod their heads in understand stand I then say I will be in my office with Sam.  We are not to be disturbed under any certain terms no matter what you hear come from the room.  Sam takes a deep gulp and says do not kill me she will not like that.  I tell him as long as he still walk that is all that matters.  I point down that hall toward my office Sam walks down the hall slowly like he is walking to his death which he very well may be depending on the answers he give me.  When we reach my office, I walk in and set behind my desk and Sam sets across form me.  I start by wanting to know what he told her.

Sam says, “after I hide on her plane and rode with her home. Once there I see that she can heal fairly quickly so I ask if I can show her something that may scare her.  She agrees and I show her my wolf and tell her that all the people she had been taking care of were werewolves.  I told her that she an a very powerful aura that of a queen and that you want her to be your Luna.  Then I tell her what a Luna is and how important they are to a pack and to their mate.  She was the one who wanted to come here and see you.  She is also the one who has her own secrets to tell I will not tell you where her home is or what she has found out about herself.  She really is a wonderful creature and I hope you can be the mate she deserves to be with only the best and you are not there yet.  You do not deserve her either she is such pure innocence that I hope you do not taint with your evil.”

I look at him with hate in my eyes but part of me knows he is right.  I tell him “to go see his wife and rest to come back later and if she wants, he can see her.  That she is home now no matter where she was before, this is now her home and she will just have to come to terms with that.”

Sam looks at me and says, “you know she will never be a servant to you like that she will always want to be free.  Her freedom is the most important thing to her, and it always will be.  Mate or not you cannot take away who she is you need to think about that before you go storming in with your demands.”

I look at Sam and know what he is saying is true but now that I had her how could I let her go.  Alex came in wanting to know what was going on that I left so early in such a hurry this morning.  I smiled the biggest smile Alex had ever seen on my face before, he said, “oh my Goddess what is going on, what happened to you, did someone die?”

I shake my head and say, “no friend my life just got as wonderful as it could ever get.  All of my dreams have come true in just a few short minutes.  My angel has come home to me she is in me bed resting as we speak.  She also knows what we are and has a few secrets that I must wait to find out from her Sam says.  He also told me that he cannot tell me where she was that is her home and she also has a few secrets that I need not worry about right now.  I sent him to his wife, and I was just setting here thinking about what I can do to get this girl to love me.  Or what else she could be because she is not human either, so what does that make her.  She cares no scent of anything I have every smelled before.  She fainted into my arms I held her Alex in my arms now she is in my bed even if is only for one day so her scent will be linger for a few days.  Man, I never thought I would look so forward to be sent to my room I was so hoping I could work from my room today.”

Alex looked at me and said, “Alpha I have never heard you like this I cannot believe that one woman could do this to you.  She is just a female when I smelled her all I smelled was human so unless someone has masked her scent then human is what she is that is what I will believe until I see different.  As far as working in your room you are the Alpha work wherever you want too.  This is your house no one can tell you want to do.  You have no meetings today just that stack of papers to go through.”

I look at him and tell him, “that I cannot wait for him to meet the Luna.  I believe he will love just as much as I do.”

“Yes, Alpha if that is what you want,” he says.

I look at my friend with a strange look and wonder what is wrong.  I say, “talk to me Alex what is wrong with you tell me what you are thinking.  I want to know what is going on in the head yours, I also want you to know why you dislike the Luna when you have not even met her yet.”

Alex signs and says, “yes Alpha as you ask, but I worry that I will anger you when I tell you what I am thinking.”

I look at him and see the concern and worry on his face I nod my head and say, “I promise not to get out of my chair or do you any harm.”

Alex nods and begins, “I do not, not like her I just do not like the effect she is having on you.  You have become soft with her around.  You are saying and doing things that are not behaving like the Alpha we have all come to know.  Where is the Alpha that would have never left killed Sam for taking what is his, or the Alpha that would not hesitate to mark his Luna so she can never leave him.  Where is the Alpha that would no ask to spend the day in his room but tell me he was spending the day in there with no questions ask.  You are not weak Alpha she is affecting you in a bad way that will affect the whole pack.  We are not weak, and she is making us seem that way.”

I look at Alex and think about what he has said then reply slowly, “I see what you are saying old friend, this Luna is changing me.  I do not think all change is a bad thing.  I am not weak, and I am not soft I will still fight anyone who threats what is mine.  Sam is alive because I need the information he has, and I am letting you know what I am doing because once I enter that room I will not leave or want to be disturbed by anyone.  I am the same Alpha you know I am just choosing to think thing through and show there is more to me then violence.  I need to be an Alpha that can handle any situation that might come up.  I want to be respected not just feared, fear is great and all, but respect means people see me as more than just an enforcer I want to be the best leader.”

Alex looks at me and says, “you have a bigger plan at play.  I see the Alpha I know in there still this queen is just another tool then isn’t she.”

I look at him and try to decide if I should tell him I just wanted to know about my love her if I should let him think I do have some diabolical plan to rule of the werewolf kind.  My friend and I need to really talk about we for the future of our pack I do not what to lose by Beta over the fact that we have different visions for the pack.  We need to be a united team for the pack in order to maintain the pack.  I looked at Alex and I said something that shocked him I said, “Where do you see the pack in 6 months?”

He crocked his head and said, “why would you ask that I follow whatever order you give my Alpha?”

“That is not what I asked Alex now answer the damn question.”

He lowers his head and said, “Alpha I, the pack in six months will have taken back what territory that was taken from us.  You have challenged your father and won the old wolf ways will be over and you will rule with your hard hand and no mercy.  I will help you rule the way we always talk about have the pack that is feared by all.  With a new fight every day, leaving a wake of bodies behind us.”

I looked at my friend with sadness and said, “what have I done to you friend what happened to the man that always would speak of reason and talk me form the violence I was so quick to jump to.”  I looked at him with concern than asked him to, “sent Stephanie to see me I need her to do something for me.  I would talk to him later.”

He nodded as he left, I looked at him and said, “immediately so to her now and send her to me.”

He said, “Alpha I have a few other thinks that…”

I cut him off and said, “right now Beta.”

He nodded and left the room.

Alex’s POV

I left his office knowing I had not seen my mate in over a month we had a fight.  I got anger with her and stormed out I have been staying in one of the empty rooms on the easy wing.  That is why I did not hear the Alpha leave the night the little Dr arrived, and it is where I have been keeping a secret from everyone in the pack.  Liam’s father is awake and in the room with me.  We are planning on getting rid of that little Dr my reasoning is much different from Derek’s (Liam’s father).  Derek wants to kill her, so she does not do to Liam what she did to his father.  I made Derek finally break down and tell me the story of what the old queen did to the Black family.  He tells me that she seduced his father one to get pregnant and hide the child from them.  His father betrayed Derek’s mother with the queen only to have the queen say it never met anything to her.  So, not only did she make them ruthless killers, but she hurt Derek’s mother and drove his father mad.  Then she tried to do the same thing to him only his mate saved him from the same fate as his father.  I now understand why he wants to get rid of this little Dr.  I on the other hand to not my pack to be a weak one.  I want to keep everyone strong this love she is offering the Alpha will weaken him to the point of losing everything.  I must protect the pack even from the Alpha.  I must protect him from himself when I need even if it cost me everything.  I walk into my room where my beautiful wife is setting reading her book, she looks up at me and says, “what do you want now.”

I tell her the, “Alpha wants to see her right now in his office, she should hurry he is not in the mood to deal with her nonsense.”

She looks at me with such disgust she stands and rolls her eyes and says, “I will go talk to him to only to tell him I am leaving I am no longer happy or safe here.  I do not want to be some place I am not wanted, if you hate me that much, I will go back to the human world go back to teaching and live my life without you.  So, you can be alone just the way you want.  After today you will never sell me again and I will have to deal with this world and all its problems anymore.  I will be free to live the life I want with whomever I see fit.  I can have the family that I wanted with you but, since you keep telling me no and insist that I tell everyone I am the one that does not want kids.  You can live the lonely life you chose to live.”

She stands walks out of the room only to leave me standing there alone and broken hearted.  I know I was hurting her, but I never knew it was that bad.  What can I do worry about my pack or my mate what is more important to me?  I stood there waying the options when I hear the door slam.  I look up to see that the woman of my dreams has just left me alone, again I feel an ache in my heart for my lost love.  My poor little mate now must struggle even more because of my action.  What kind of a mate better yet what kind of a husband asks this much of his wife.  I do not deserve her; she is too good for me I have missed treated her to much I do not blame her for wanting to leave.  I just hope that she does not, I hope she waits for me just a little longer.

Liam’s POV

I am setting in my office waiting for Steph about to go yell at Alex, when the door opens, and she walks in.  I look at her and see the sadness in her face hoping everything is fine with my friend I ask her to set.  She looks at me and nods her as she sets down on the chair across from me.  I look at her and the first thing is say shocks her I ask, “are you ok do you need something?  I just want to say to you thank you for being so patient with it, but I want to say I have finally done it.  You will love her so much; I hope that you two can become the best of friends.  I would like you and Alex to come to dinner later this week with us.  I just hope that I can now be as happy as you two are.” I go to say more, and she cuts me off by saying, “what are you talking about I came to ask your permission to leave the pack, so I can move on with my life.”

I look at her very confused and say, “what on earth are you talking about I wanted to tell you I have found my mate and I want you to meet her.”

She replies, “really you have found someone to deal with all the terror you. cause.  Someone who is ok with never having you around or never having someone in bed with them. Does she know that you ask your beta to abandon his mate for months on end or force to say they never want children.  When in all reality all she wants is a home full of happy children.  You are too evil to be a mate to anyone, I have not seen any changes in you so no I do not want to help you in anyway.  I just want to be let go I cannot live like this anymore, please just set me free.  I already told Alex I would be leaving; I doubt he even cared its not like he has even been home in a month so he should not even notice I am gone.”

I look at her and say, “whoa, whoa what do you mean you are not living with Alex.  Where is he staying, what happened I thought you guys were doing ok.  Alex has not said anything to me.  Honestly, that is why I wanted to talk to you he seems off, so I was wanting to know if you had noticed anything different in him.  I guess there is really no reason to ask if he left you.  All he ever talked about was having a family with you.  I never knew any of this.  I knew I had made things hard keeping him away but everything else is news to me.  Do I need to follow him to see what he is up to for you?  Do you think he is cheating on you?  Anything you I will help you with I had no idea things were that bad. Why would you tell me you did not want children if you did you made me feel bad for years keeping Alex away from you.  I need an explanation to everything please.”

Steph sets there and looks at me funny and says, “what did you just say?  You want to know if you can help ok, ok who are you and where is Alpha Black.  I have know Alpha Black for years and never once as he cared about anyone but himself.  Whoa who is this woman that has done this to you I must meet here.  Alex was the one who told me to tell you that I would not have kids because of everything you were and did.  As for Alex and me we have always had a rocky relationship it has gotten worse of the last 3 or 4 months.  It has become every distant in the last few months and only ever worries about you and the pack like something is coming.  You do seem different though I do not know what has happened if it is this woman, I am glad you are finally happy.  I just do not see a future for Alex and me anymore.”

I look at her and say, “please let me try to figure out what is wrong with Alex before you leave.  You really are his everything.  I want you two to have a family I want both of my friends here and I want a happy future for my pack.  I do not want everyone to fear me anymore I want everyone to respect me.  I have seen what respect can get you and I know what fear gets you.  I am choosing respect over fear, my little angel has affected me in ways that are bigger than just my mood.  She has really changed how I look at things and what is really important.  I no longer care about how big my territory is or if I have the strongest pack out there. I do not want to be on top anymore I just want to be happy with my angel at my side.”

She looked at me with huge smile on her face and said, “I never thought I would live to see the day that you would say those words.  I think I may stay just to see how all this plays out.  The show should at least be worth the wait.” She smiles at me again saying that she would meet the soon to be Luna at lunch at the café in town.”

I stop here and say, “no you cannot do that she has to stay here and cannot go outside either.”

She says, “what, why not?”

I tell her, “she cannot go out into the sun light and I am kind of worried about letting her get to far away.” I say the last part kind of sheepishly.

She smiles and says, “that would be find that could have a lovely brunch in the library.”