My Star is a Loser

Beating Drums

Have you ever been in love?

Nah, the word love is too deep, let me change that. Then, have you ever liked someone? Someone that no one would imagine you'd turn your eyes for. It's quite unbelievable but I do.

It just feels right wanting to have his attention, I honestly-

"Put this (x) here then multiply this one. It's important to remember this, you don't have to memorize every formula, just try to understand it" He said while facing his Physics notes, then he continuously mumbled about it.

"Kawaii (Cute)" I whispered while gazing at his face. That made him take a glimpse of me. It was out of conscience and I'm already regretting that I did that.

"Huh?" He gave me that reaction but I just moved my head sideways, giving him an answer of nothing.

Dammit! I'm spacing out. Come on self, it's just him. Oh God, I am obviously distracted. But how can't I be? It's not so easy for me to act so normal beside this guy.

You might be thinking that this guy that is tutoring me right now is a handsome, cool, athletic, and popular guy that has a fans club in the campus like those in the series and movies. Well… NOPE!

His name is Eiji, the total opposite definition of those traits. He wears glasses, his hair looks like he just woke up, his fashion sense is a no, he's antisocial, a loner, a total nerd, and everyone calls him loser. Damn, you can picture him out by looking at those out of place guys that gets bullied every time on the campus.

Well there are some who like to pull pranks on him, especially me, but he doesn't really care. He doesn't really act like a typical loser at some point.

But I'm telling you, despite those things that I've mentioned about him, He's got my attention out of those popular guys that are chasing me. Sounds cringy and Damn sh*t but it's a fact.

Yes, I think I like him. I don't know when and how it happened either, I'm actually not so sure about it. I just have this feeling that I wanted to know him the first time I saw him. I want to get his attention. It makes me happy just by seeing his face, and he's giving me this weird feeling. Isn't that liking someone?

Also, he reminded me of someone in the past. Someone so dear to me. Someone living in my memories of the past.

I'm actually good at studying, didn't I mention that I'm smart. But if you're going to ask me why Eiji is tutoring me? then it's very simple. I just wanted a reason to be close to him. And of course, I am the Kira Yoshi of Miller U. I am the Campus Queen, no one can ignore, and no one can object. No one would dare. Especially that loser Eiji, he dared to put on a show with me before. How unfortunate of him, his presence surely caught my attention.

(Flashback)

"Are you sure about that Kira? You're going to ask the loser Eiji to teach you, are you out of your mind?" Larra said while wearing a disgusted look in the face.

"Uh-huh. What? I don't see any problem with that" I replied while looking at her disgusted face.

"Aha! I get it now. How devilish of you Ms. Campus queen" Kim said while smirking at me, then she patted my shoulder.

Larra and Kim have been my friends for so long. They approached me the time they knew that I was the Campus Queen people kept talking about. I really don't know how I got the title, I just know that someone posted my pictures on the Campus page. I was at the top of the most popular girls in the Campus followed by Kim as the second and Larra as the third.

"Get what? Devilish? What are you talking about?" I replied while looking at both of them.

"Ohoo come on, I know what you're planning. It's obvious that you wanted to be close to him just to pick on him, right?" Kim said.

"So you want it just to pull pranks on him? How sick of you Queen. I like it!" Larra said then she gave Kim a high five.

"No that isn't… Yeah, that's right" I replied then I forced myself to create a devilish smile.

Of course I don't want them to know my true intentions. There's no reason for me to get some tutor yet I want to, and for the worst case, out of all the people, I chose that loser Eiji.

We are currently sitting in the cafeteria. It's still our break time and we only have at least two classes before dismissal.

"Hey Queen, look" Larra said as she was shaking me slightly.

"What? Cut it out, my milkshake will slip from my hand" I said then I continued sipping on my drink.

"It's the loser Eiji," said Kim , looking in Eiji's direction.

I quickly lifted up my head as I heard that it was him. He was buying some food while looking around, he's probably looking for some spare table.

"What are you waiting for?" Kim said while looking at me.

I took my last sip of my milkshake then quickly stood up, walking towards my target while people were gazing at me with amusement.

I stood up at his back, waiting for him to turn around.

"Hey loser" I called him and poke his back, causing him to turn around but when he did, my uniform got all wet because his drink had slipped from his tray.

"What the-- Oh my God, what were you thinking!?" I said loudly, looking quite pissed.

Of course, I could get annoyed. People are looking at me now and this loser isn't doing anything at all. Eiji was just standing still in front of me, he was still probably shocked from what happened. Even so, Could you look a little bit concerned? Damn you loser.

"What happened? Are you alright?" says Larra then she handed me a handkerchief.

"Got a death wish loser?"

Kim suddenly throws her drink at him. I was shocked, but I didn't know how to react although I'm used to her mean attitude.

Loser didn't mind what Kim had done, not at all. He just looked at us then he picked up his tray and cleaned his mess. He put the tray on the table beside him then he locked his eyes at me, plainly.

"Give me" He said while lifting out his hand as if he's asking for something.

"Give what?" I replied while raising my eyebrows.

"Your uniform," He said, which made the people react like woah. He's got the guts to say that, he's really asking for trouble. I can let it pass since I'm the one at fault, but not everyone thinks that way, especially Larra and Kim.

"Are you insane-"

"I'll get them washed" He added while still lifting out his hand.

I know in myself that I want it, but I can't let that happen.

"Nevermind, I'll throw it out anyway. But, I have some favor to ask you. I mean you need to do something for me for compensation" I said while smirking and still raising my eyebrows at him.

"Damn genius Queen," Kim whispered while crossing her arms.

"You have to tutor me" I said which made him react with a question face.

But then he just gave me a deep breath, looking hesitant but he slowly nodded once.

"Then we're done here. Let's go girls" I said then we left him hanging in the place, looking so uneasy.

(End of the Flashback)

"Kira"

"Oi"

"Hey Kira" he said as he snapped his finger right in front of my face.

"Nani? (What)" I said, startled like.

Gosh, I'm spacing out again. Come on Kira!

"You seem distracted, Are you not..feeling... well?" He said with a low tone of voice then he slowly lifted his hand and touched my forehead gently as if he's checking my temperature.

*BADUMP *BADUMP *BADUMP

I removed his hand quickly. My heart was beating so fast and I felt shivers to the core of my spine the moment his skin touched mine. Damn you! How dare he make me feel this way.

"Who told you to touch me?" I said then I rolled my eyes at him.

He just looked at me with a poker face for a second then he moved his eyes away from mine. Isn't he grateful for being able to sit beside the Queen?

Yes, I always act so mean in front of him, but that was just me pretending. Of course I felt guilty sometimes. I am not actually a mean person, but I have this belief that I had to. Especially when my friends are around. I have my reasons.

Being criticized, humiliated, and bullied before made me be like this.

"Gomen (Sorry)" I whispered but I made sure he didn't hear it.

He looked at me for a second again then he slowly removed his glasses and started wiping it with his uniform.

Baka! (Stupid), you'll have your glasses damaged.

This is the first time I am seeing him without glasses. If you look closely enough, you will see that he actually looks quite handsome. His eyes were very much wearing cluelessness, it looked so deep and cold. Honestly, If he were to change his fashion, remove his glasses, I would say that he would be just as popular as Cy. Also, he doesn't act like those typical losers in the series.

He's actually quite cool, calm and kind of cold. His voice was also kind of nice, you can figure it out once you get to talk to him. I really don't think that the term loser fits him. But I think I am the only one who can see that, well it doesn't matter.

*BADUMP *BADUMP *BADUMP

I'm thinking too much, I didn't notice him looking at me for quite some time.

He finished wiping his glasses, he wore them again and suddenly looked around. It was like he was figuring something out, then he stopped looking and locked his eyes from my direction.

"Hear that?" He asked calmly with his cold voice.

"Hear what?" I replied then I raised my eyebrows at him.

"Drums" He said while slightly looking kind of confused.

He's looking obviously confused why he's hearing drums now. He might thought I am the band major yet I am here with him. Tsk, Drums you say?

That was my damn heart you're hearing you damn loser. Baka!

"You're talking nonsense" I said then I signaled him to continue what he was teaching earlier. Gosh, I'm being such a loser when he's around.

I suddenly received a message from my dad saying that I should get back home early because my grandma had just arrived from Japan.

"Hey loser, let's continue tomorrow. Don't be late, got it?" I said as I packed my stuff and stood up.

He looked at me with a poker face as usual.

"Yeah, got it" He whispered and nodded slightly.

He quickly arranged his things, stood up, then left the place before me without giving me a second look. The audacity...