My Star is a Loser

Memories

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Walking in the campus, I can see a lot of livin cameras surrounding me. They're looking like they had never seen such a being in their lives. Well, I don't really care.

It's happening again, their eyes won't let go of me. I can even hear them whispering about me. "Tsk! such annoying creatures"

"Hey, how was our Queen doing during the Summer break?" Larra said, then she hugged me.

This is Larra, the ultimate social influencer chick of Miller University. She's pretty, rich, famous and a total mean. She would expose every single dark information about you once you did something for her to hate you. Even people commenting on her photos tend to be careful.

"Don't put on a show. Look, people are looking at us" I murmured while crossing my arms.

"People will surely look at us, how can't they be? We are walking with the one and only Queen of Miller U" says Kim while approaching us.

This one is Kim, gorgeous, popular, and rich as well. Out of all of us three, she's the meanest and the fiercest of us. Don't you dare bump your hair in any part of her body. She will definitely shave your head.

We are the Stars of Miller U that no one would dare to touch and no one would dare to say anything inappropriate about us. I hated mean girls before to the core of my angelic soul, but look at me now. I became their Queen.

We stopped for a moment to have a little chit chat of how our summer break went.

"Kira, are you even listening?" says Larra.

I didn't bother answering as I heard a very familiar word. A word that I got sick of hearing, the word I hated the most.

I don't want to hear their stories for a moment because suddenly, I heard something interesting yet ringing that caught my attention.

"Hey Loser!" someone yelled which made me look in the direction where he's looking, and as I took a glance, I saw a person who made my cruel memories suddenly flash before my mind.

Dammit, I don't want to reminisce about those filthy things again. But wait…

*BADUMP *BADUMP *BADUMP

Shit!, what the hell is this? My mind went blank for a moment and my heart was suddenly pounding so fast that I didn't even have to touch it to feel it. I can already hear it even when I'm standing still doing nothing. Dammit, what is happening to me?

Who is this guy? I've never seen him before. But looking at those eyes gives me such unexplainable feelings throughout my body. Geez, Why can't I take my eyes away from him?

I know I have felt this kind of feeling before, it's very much similar.

"Loser?... Interesting" I suddenly whispered out of nowhere.

"Come on Kira, Let's go." Larra then pulled my left hand, touching my wrist. I looked at her confusedly because she suddenly paused for a moment, focusing on something. She then looked at me and asked…

"Are you okay? Why is it fast, your heartbeat?"

Shoot! I still haven't calmed down. Taking a deep breath, I am trying to take a glance around. He's gone. My eyes couldn't track his presence already.

"Let's go" I muttered, avoiding Larra's question regarding my heartbeat.

***

Walking in the corridor, nothing has changed. People are always staring at us like we're part of the Showbiz Industry. They always move to make a way whenever their eyes caught our presence.

"She's so pretty"

"She's so lucky, I heard Cy is hitting on her"

"They're so cool"

Those were the commonly said comments we hear every time.

"Let me open the door for you." says someone whom I really don't know. She opened it widely enough for us three to enter at the same time. Kim rolled her eyes at the girl, told you so, she's the meanest. I looked at the girl and nodded slightly, but I didn't care to smile.

"Hey Queen, looks like someone is looking for trouble" Kim said while looking at the back where we're supposed to be sitting.

"Loser is so dead"

"Just let him"

Everyone in the room starts whispering. But wait… Did they just say loser?

I started walking to the place where I am supposed to sit still look pretty. He dared pick this spot, out of all there is inside this classroom, I chuckled. I was waking up the mean side of me but looking at him sleeping, I felt a bit hesitant to put on a show for him.

"Need help?" Kim asked.

"No thanks," I replied while still gluing my eyes at the person sleeping on my desk. I pulled out a chair and sat in front of him while looking at my watch. I put my head close to his and whispered…

"I'll count to five, if you don't move, you're dead." I almost laugh saying that but I'm being serious. Doesn't he know that the chair he was sitting belongs to the Queen?

"1"

"2"

"Loser should just go home now" says someone then chuckles arises. I looked at the one who said so, that look made her zip her mouth and look scared.

"Shut…it" I said while fiercely looking at the girl, then I turned my eyes back at this loser but when I did, my eyes suddenly widened. I didn't notice him when he lifted up his head.

His face was already so close to mine which made my hand act on its own and slap him, causing a loud sound, and his cheek to be slightly swollen.

"He deserves it"

"Oohh"

"Go tell your mama"

I quickly looked at those people murmuring with a pissed look in the face. "Do you want to go next?" I said then I looked at this loser back. The way he looked at me, I didn't get it. He's not showing any emotions at all. He's just looking at me plainly with those swollen cheeks, with his deep and cold eyes. He stood up and went to the very back and sat in the corner without spitting a single word, without showing anything as if he didn't care at all.

Damn this feeling, I suddenly felt a slight guilt crawling and hunting my conscience right now. For a moment, I hated myself. That look in his eyes was already pierced in my mind. I didn't mean it, I didn't want to hurt him. I just-... I hate myself.

I hate it that I hurt him.

I hate it when I get to see those emotionless cold gaze.

I hate the fact that I cared for him for a moment.

I hate this thought that I'm building right now.

Shit, I think… I think I like him.