Scars To his beautiful

Love, Hate and Quarrels

**Emilia P.O.V :**

I was sleeping peacefully until i heard my ringtone .i lazily picked it up and answered without checking who’s calling .

“Hello ? “ I said .

“ Hey , sweety . are you still asleep ? Whops ! I thought u’d be getting ready for school already “ answered my mom.

Just listening to her voice , triggers a profound Guilt for hiding the truth about that cheating asshole . But I just can’t bring myself to break her heart like that , She doesn’t deserve it .

“ uhh- no I don’t have any classes this morning , I have two in the afternoon tho , well anyway , what’s up? Did u need something or do u just miss your darling daughter that much?“I said trying to distract myself from all the depressing feelings I don’t wanna deal with now .

“ I was just gonna ask if u’re coming over tomorrow ? it a holiday for u guys too right ? “

“Umm, I’m not sure mom . I need to check with the girls “I said trying to sound as convincing as possible .

“ okey darling, I really hope u come home . we’ve really missed u .” said my mom sounding kinda sad .

I could hear my little sister and brother beside her saying “ Yeah ! please come over Emy . pretty pleaaase” .

Ugh , I was weak against all of them .

“ okay okay! I will “ I said giving up , and I could hear those two little devils cheering next to her .

“ Oh that’s great , we’ll be waiting for u . good bye now sweety , take care and say hi to the girls for me”

“ will do , bye mom . love you”

“ love you too sweety”.

We hung up , I was already dread the trip back home : the lies , the deceit , the betrayal …

I got up , and went to the en-suite bathroom , took a quick shower ,dried my hair and tied half of if in a pony tail and let the other half down . Then i grabbed the clothes I borrowed from Kathy : light blue jeans , and a mickey mouse t-shirt and paired it with some red and black sneakers .

I put it all on ,and walked out of the guest room heading towards the kitchen where I could hear the girls making breakfast .

“morning bitches !! “ I said with fake enthusiasm

“ Morning sleepyhead ! u sure took your time waking up ,did a certain prince charming visit your dreams ?” said Joanna wiggling her eyebrows at me .

“ morning “ said Kathy looking drained while gulping down a cup of coffee . she was not a morning person , actually she refuses to wake up unless it’s past 12 , so I guess she has something to do this morning .

I turned my attention back to a curious looking Anna :“ ugh! u’re not forgetting about this anytime soon are you ?” I said trying not to think back to that hot specimen with his deep voice and drool worthy bod .

“ NOPE !” she replied popping the p .

“ anyyyyway! Are u girls going back home for the holiday or not ? “ I asked them.

“ nah , my parents are going on a trip , so I’m staying right’ere “said Kathyleen looking a bit more awake.

“ me neither , I just went like 2 days ago “ said Anna .

“ Ugh ! lucky u , my mom called this morning . I have to go “ I said sitting down on the stool .

They both looked over at me with a sad expression , Kathy grabbed my hand reassuringly and said :” don’t worry sweetheart , it’s gonna be okay ,just ignore him like u did for the past couple of weeks “

“ that’s gonna be tough , I really can’t loo into her eyes without tearing up you guys !” I said thinking if I should just make up a lie to not go .

NO , too late for that . you already told them u were coming home , they’ll be very sad I u cancel now.

We walked out of the house , and drove off to campus .

Kathy had a classe this morning , but both me and Anna didn’t hav any until the evening , so we went to the garden next to a tree and sat there chatting away .

“ what are u looking for ? ur eyes haven’t focused once since we got here ?” said Joanna.

Oh no , she noticed . ever since we got here , I couldn’t stop my eyes from looking for him .

Well , what if u do find him . it’s not like u can just go up to him or anything …

“ umm , nothing just admiring the view “ I said tryina hide the truth cause she won’t shut up if she knew he goes here .

“Uh-huh, I toootally believe u ! “ said Anna sarcastically .

I couldn’t see him all day . I didn’t even know why  was so attached to him , I literally met the guy yesterday .

But somehow I just couldn’t stop thinking about him , I really was hoping to see him , even from afar .

Maybe if I did see him ,  I woulc work up enough courage to go talk to him , or thank him for yesterday or something like that .

But by the end of the day I was disappointed , he was no where to be seen .

After my classes , me and the girls grabbed a bite in the cafeteria ,said our goodbyes then each headed in our different ways home .

I got to my dorm , took of my shoes and changed my clothes , and laid on my bed for a bit .

After scrolling through i********: ,and t****k for a bit. I got up to go pack some clothes for the tri back home .

*** time skip:to the day after  ***

I got in my car , and drove off .all the way home , I couldn’t shake the bad feeling in my stomach , like I somehow just knew something bad was going to happen .

Well , nothing u can do about it now .

Well about 45 minutes later , I got to my parents house .

As soon as I parked my car , I saw the door open , and two little angels run out squealing excitedly .

“Emy is heeeeere , mommy , she’s finally here !!” they both screamed and jumped on me as soon as I stepped out of my car .

Thankfully I couldn’t see dad’s car in the driveway .

I picked my baby sister , Ashley ,and grabbed my brother Oliver’s hand  as we all walked in .

“ Hmmm, something smells very good .” I said smelling the air , what can I say my mom’s cooking is just devine .

Mom walked out of the kitchen wiping her hand on a towel :” hey darling “ I put Ashley down as she hugged me “ I really missed you “.

“I missed u too mom, how’s everything ?”I asked trying very hard not to cry or sound sad .

“we ‘ve been great , as usual . Your dad’s still at work so he’ll join us for dinner later “

I spent all day chatting with my mom , or playing with my siblings .I was really hoping my dad gets held back at “work”for as long as possible .

 I really didn’t wanna see his face , or hear all the lies ,and I especially felt sick when he tried to act all fatherly and tell what I should do and what I should avoid .

It was late evening , and we were sitting in the living room watching a Disney movie until we heard keys opening the front door .

“Daddyyyyyy!!” both the kids squealed and ran towards the door . I however felt the blood drain from my face .

I was both pissed off and sad ,I wished I could just avoid this encounter all together , but I guess u can’t always have what you want right ? My dad was playing with the kids, mom got up towards him and kissed him as usual , I felt myself gag at what I usually found to be adorable , and what I thought I one day want to have with someone special.

My dad finally noticed me sitting on the couch : “ Emilia ! I didn’t know u were coming over.Honey, how come u didn’t tell me ? “

“ well, it was supposed to be a surprise !” my mom replied to him then they all looked over at me and I faked a smile .

“ well, what are waiting for , get in here ! I missed my baby girl” said my dad

UGH! Did I have to? I don’t wanna go anywhere near him.

“ Umm- I was distracted by the movie “ I got up and hugged him . I was utterly revolted by this whole situation .

“ I’m glad u’re here sweety ! I really missed u “ said my dad.

Well I for one SURE didn’t  . I  thought to myself .

“something smells really good babe, I’m starving” said my dad .

“how about u change you clothes , then we all sit down for dinner “ said my mom kissing his cheek .

Dammit, I wish I could just scream and tell her what this bastard’s been up to every time he lied about “work” .

“ yeah , I’ll be right back “ he said walking upstairs .

I helped my mom setting the table , and about 10 mins later we were all sitting around the delicious food .

Usually I’d be ecstatic during family dinners like this , but now ? my cheeks hurt from faking a smile every time my mom looked over at me.

We started eating quietly , until dad broke the silence .

Ugh! Can’t he keep his mouth shut for a second ? he’s really making this harder than it alrady is !

“ So , Sweetheart how’s college life ? did u get used to living in a dorm yet?”

“ everything’s great “ I was keeping my answers short on purpose , hoping he would just get the sign and just shut the f**k up , But NOO he just kept blabbering away.

“ I hope u’re not going to any of those frat parties , those boys are bad influence on u “

“Huh! look who’s talking” I mumbled to myself

“ what was that ? I didn’t quite hear u ?” replied my dad.

“ I said , no I didn’t go to any parties yet dad “ I said kinda glaring at him now , cause he was really getting on my nerve.

“ what do u mean “YET” , u’re not going to any “ said my dad .

And that just sent me over the edge : “ what do u mean any? I’m not a kid anymore , dad ! I can handle myself “I said now really glaring at him.

“ no, apparently u can’t . and I mean u’re not allowed to go to any party , unless u want me to bring u back home . I can just drive u  to and from college every morning . Understood ?“

I saw RED . I slammed my hand on the table and stood up , I’ve had enough of all his bullshit . He wasn’t even paying for my tuition or anything , I had a scholarship, and I got a part time job to pay for my other needs .so I guess I didn’t need him anymore  .

“ you know what ,I’m done with this . I’m not 3 years old anymore, u can’t control me , so Yes I can go anywhere I want , whenever I want”I said angrily .

“ sit down young lady , that’s not how you talk to your father ! what’s gotten into u lately ? ”

“ you did ! I’m leaving . I shouldn’t have come in the first place “ I said looking at my mom .

She was panicking this whole time , not knowing how to calm either of us .

“ but sweety u just got here , how about we all sit down and talk about this calmly ? umm- u can go to a party if u want to just promise us to be safe “ said my mom .*

I felt a lump in my throat , I wanted to scream that this is not about a stupid party , I wanted to tell her everything , but SHOCKER , I couldn’t find the words …

“ NO , i- I’m gonna go . Enjoy your dinner !” I said looking at my dad with venom lacing my words .

I walked over to my car keys , ignoring my dad’s voice calling me . It was just making me more pissed off .

I walked out of the door slamming it behind me , got in my car and drove away , cursing and screaming to myself .

I called Kathy : “ hello babes , everything okay?“I heard her say.

“ NO , everything is not f*****g okay ! I – I’m driving to yours . I – I need a drink ! something strong “ I said wiping the angry tears streaming down my face .

“well , me and Joanna were going to a “Alpha Tau Omega “party held tonight  , why don’t u come with?” she replied sounding kinda worried

“ yes, I’ll be right there “ I said

“ okey see you soon babe , drive safely “

I hung up and drove to her house .

I got there fairly quick , cause of the angry driving . I parked my car and walked out .

“I’m here !u guys ready yet?” I said walking through the house looking for the girls .

“ nearly done , come here “said Anna.

I went into Kathleen’s room to find the girls looking smocking hot , while I was looking like s**t with tear stains and smugged makeup on my face .

“ wow! U look HOT bitches , come one let’s go !” I said

“ what do u mean let’s go ? u’re not planning to go like that are u? “said Joanna .

“ umm- this is fine , I just need a drink “ I said looking down at my outfit .

“ NO, NO WAY , here change into this ,and wash that face “ said Kathy handing me a black short dress , with lace long sleeves, with a deep V that shows a bit of cleavage .

I want into the bathroom washed my face ,and put on the dress . It looked incredible , it hugged my curves in all the right places .

As soon as I walked out of the bathroom , Joanna grabbed me and pushed me to sit on the chair as she started putting makeup on me .

I wasn’t allowed to pick the look or complain , trust me I tried , but she shushed me.

When she was done , Kathy handed me a pair of black heels . I put them on quick and went to the mirror to check how I look .

“ DAAAAAMN girl , u looking fine as f**k “ said Anna trying to sound like a guy which made me laugh .

“ u look beautiful babes “ said Kathy as she smiled at me .

I looked at the mirror and admired my look . I really did look beautiful .

“ thanks girls , now let’s go .”

We walked out of the house , towards Kathleen’s car .

We got in and drove off towards the party .

The girls were jamming in the car , while I was just spacing out. I couldn’t bring myself to feel anything other than anger and sadness .

We soon got the the party and walked in.

We were surrounded by loud music , and the sent of sweat and s*x .

People were talking , or dancing all over the place , some were shamelessly grinding on each other , others were making out .

I could feel the stares on me , as we headed towards the tables to get ourselves some drinks .

We each grabbed a cup , handed to us by a girl Kathy knew .

I was sipping my glass slowly at first ,talking to the girls .

“ so babes , wanna dance ?” asked Kathy .

“ Umm- I’m not really in the mood , u guys go enjoy yourselves i’ll be right here” I said giving her a little smile .

She smiled back sadly at me , grabbed Anna’s hand . and they both went the the dance floor and started swaying together to the music .

I let out a sigh , sat down on a chair near the drinks table then downed my whole cup and asked for another .

One shot , two shots , three , four … I was letting loose little by little as I got more and more drunk .

I just wanted to forget everything , all the thoughs , all the sadness and anger , just Everything .

“hey gorgeous , do u want to have a drink and have s*x with me ? NO? how about just s*x ?” I heard some drunk guy’s slurry pick up line close to my ear .

I laughed , are all guys that pathetic? No right ?

After all I knew one who was effortlessly hot .

I felt the drunk guy grab my waist , I guess I took too long to reply .

“ come one babe , I know u want it “ he said trying to sound sexy but failing miserably .

“ I’m drunk , but not quite that drunk ! shoo , go bother someone else . oh and u better choose a better pick up line , cause that one was just pitiful “ I said laughing a bit .

“ you b***h ! how dare u…” he raised his hand trying slap me , and I just closed my eyes since I was too drunk and had no balance to avoid it .

I braced myself for the slap, and waited , but the pain never came . I slowely opened my eyes to see a large figure , grabbing the drunk guy’s arm , but my sight was too blurry at the moment I could make out who it was .

“I wouldn’t do that if I were u “ I heard that sexy deep voice say in a threatening way and it sent shivers down my spine .

The drunk guy scurried away , muttering cuss words to himself as soon as he saw who it is who stopped him .

“ are you okay princess ?” said the deep voice as that person got closer to me ,and sat on his knees by my feet  as he raised his hand to rub my cheek.

And I guess out of reflex I flinched a bit , he pulled back his hand :“ I – I would never hurt u princess ! u know that” he sounded kinda sad .

I looked up from the ground tring focus my blurry eyes to see who it is , and my eyes came in contact with those blue beautiful orbes of his . I smiled .

“ hey it’s my prince charming , come to rescue me again ? “ I slurred my words a bit  still smiling down at Alec.

He chuckled at my silly words and that was the most beautiful sound I’ve ever heard : “  how many drinks did u have princess ?”

“ umm- lots and lots”  I said giggling .

“ I guessed as much , come one princess let’s get u home “ said Alec.

“ nuuu-uh ! kathy’s still here I gotta wait for her “ I replied shaking my head which caused me to get dizzy .

“well , how about I take u to your dorm instead ?” he asked .

“ no , can’t go in silly , past curfew “ I said poking his cheek and giggling again .

“ ummm, so where else should I take u ?i can’t leave u here so assholes  find a chance to approach u “ he said looking kinda angry .

“ sooo, take me withchuu” I replied .

He looked kinda conflicted , then picked me up princess style all of a sudden which made me squeal an laugh a bit .

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end of chap 4