You guys oh my gosh!! I stayed up all night watching Empire and I didn't even notice the sun come up.
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February 13th--5 years ago
I got out of the bed as the baby monitor kept screaming at me. I walked down to Maries room to see her crying like someone is trying to stab her. I chuckled as I picked her up. She has been waking up six times during the night and although I love her, she's starting to work my last nerves. I miss sleep and I want it back.
I put Marie over my shoulder and started lightly patting her back. She loves when I do this. I know she couldn't be hunger because I fed her lile three hours ago. It was 1:30 in the morning and I am so tried.
My eyes were down there closed so I didn't bother going downstairs in fear that I might drop her. Instead I went back to my room and sat down in the rocking chair that was beside the window.
Marie was released from the hospital about three days ago and I haven't came in human contact with anyone since then. I turned off my phone and stayed inside.
Mainly because I felt like I was being watched. I then realized that Skylar had these people watching me to make sure I don't leave. I felt like a prisoner in my own house and it was depressing. I wanted to hurt someone but I also wanted to fall down to the ground and just cry.
I haven't been outside and I've kept the curtains closed. There have been multiply knocks on my door but I never bothered to even look to see who it was. I spend most of my days either in my room, kitchen, or living room.
Marie has kept me busy though. She is such a loving little girl. Everytime I looked at her I was reminded of my mother. I would cry sometimes when I look at her because I missed my mom so much. Every night I would show Marie a picture of my mother and tell her the story behind it.
Marie always looked so interested in it, like she could actually understand everything I was saying. She would sometimes laugh everytime I did and it only made me laugh more.
I loved this girl and I knew I had to get her out of here.
I looked down at Marie as I sat down rocking her in the chair. She had her eyes closed but I knew damn well she wasn't sleep. I've fell for that trick way to many times.
I slowly stood up and just decided to have her sleep with me. Everytime I do let her sleep with me she sleeps for the most part through the night. I walked over to my bed and laid down while laying Marie on top of mg chest. I'm not that heavy of a sleeper so I will remember she is on my chest and not start twisting and turning like I usually do.
I let out a deep sigh as her breath tickled my neck. "I am going to make sure you have the best life sweetheart. That's a promise." She groaned a little making me chuckle. I went back to patting her back until I drifted off to sleep.
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I woke up and felt my cover on me. I opened my eyes a little and felt relaxed. Wait, why am I feeling relaxed?! I quickly shot up off my bed and realized Marie was gone. I hurried up off my bed and ran all around my room. Once I came to conclusion she wasn't in here I ran out of my room.
There wasn't a point of me yelling her for her because it isn't like she can respond. I continued to run down stairs with my mind everywhere. I looked in the living room and nothing, kitchen, and dining room. Nothing. I started to freak out until I heard laughing. I looked up and walked into the main hall.
There stood Skylar and Melanie holding Marie while smiling. For a moment there that warmed my hurt but then I realized why I kept that damn door locked. "I would ask how did you get in here but I have a feeling your answer will be, 'I have my ways'. Sky and Mel both looked at me and smiled in a loving way.
"You know Skylar so much better than I thought." Mel said. I sighed and ran my hands through my hair. My heart was still raving a little so I had to take some time and get it back to the way it was.
"It would of been nice if you woke me up instead of kidnapping my child while I was asleep." Skylar chuckled as she handed Marie to Melanie.
"First of all its our child and we didn't kidnap her. You were sleeping and I didn't want to wake you." I rolled my eyes and I went to try and take Marie but Skylar stood in front of me. It tried to move around her but she took my arm and dragged me into the living room. I tried to get free of her grip but it was pointless.
"Let go of me bitch." Skylar pinched the bridge of her nose and sighed.
"I want you to listen to me and listen closely." She backed me up to a wall and put her hand around my throat while also pressing her body against mine. "You can try and fight this all you want but in the end Marie is going to be the only one getting hurt. If you do try and leave I will find you and I will take custody of Marie. So this is my last time saying this Madelyn. You are with us now. Marie is all of ours. Stop. Fighting. It." Air at this point was out of my lungs as I felt like I was getting ready to pass out.
Skylar leaned off of me. "And don't think that little, 'I choose myself,' act is going to stop me from getting what I want." She leaned into me and kissed my lips. I was in to much of a shock to respond. Skylar then gave me a small wink and went back to Marie and Mel.
I have to f*****g get out of here.
I shook my head and made my way back up to my room. I grabbed my phone and with shaky fingers called Nate. "Hello?"
"You have to help me leave." I quickly said.
"Already on it." I was confused a bit about how quickly he answered that. "You really think I would let you be stuck there with them woman? By the way, I'm still hurt you didn't f*****g tell me anything!" I sighed as I realized I still didn't tell Nate.
"I'm sorry. I had enough problems, I didn't want anyone to be involved." Nate sighed but I knew he has forgiven me.
"Yeah whatever. Leo and I have been planning on a way to get you out. We have a some stuff ready and I was going to call you tonight and surprise you." I rolled my eyes. This dude turns everything into a joke. "Anyways. Just be ready with your s**t by 9 tonight."
"Wait, where am I going?"
"Can't tell you that. I have no doubt Skylar can have someone look at this phone call. And by the way, destroy this phone when your done. I have a new one for you." I smiled a little as I hung up the phone.
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i sat in the chair looking at Marie. She was asleep in her car seat and looked so peaceful. Her eyes were tightly closed for some reason and her hands were together in front of her. I chuckled thinking about how my mom would tell me that when kids are asleep they dream about waffles. For a moment there I actually believed her because Marie would sometimes act like shes chewing something.
I was on my bed staring over at her and ran my hands through my hair. I don’t know how this day will end or how the hell i’m going to get out of here but I do know if I get caught this will be the end of me.
What if I just stayed? I mean, what’s the worst that could happen? The main reason why I’m upset with Skylar is... well 1 she impregnated me without my knowledge and 2 she never gave me a choice when it came to anything. I feel like she didn’t give the slightest s**t when it came to this baby, I feel like she didn’t even consider how I would feel about this. Becoming a mother changes everyone’s life, not just one person. A child is everything not just something that comes and go. There are 18 years or more that parents have to go through with their child.
If she even thinks that this could work shes wrong. In all honestly I have thought of the idea of just giving into them but the feeling that I’m just the person who carried the child always is in the back of my head. I want to feel loved and I want to always feel like that. I want to be with someone who will treat me like a queen, who would put my needs before theirs, who would always be there for me.
That person is Layla.
That woman is everything to me. If I’m telling the truth the only reason why I didn’t pick her is because I knew her life would be in danger if I did. I knew that there would be no way we could be with each other without consistently looking over our shoulders. Skylar and most likely Melanie would hunt us down to their dying breath and I couldn’t do that to Layla.
She deserves someone who will be with her no matter what, someone who will never lie to her. I’m not that person. I have to many things wrong with me, I am broken and no one can fix that. I might look like I’m all fixed and healthy but I’m really not. Everyday I feel depressed and all I want to do is hide away from the world. But I try so hard to make sure the world doesn’t see me like that. I make sure that the world sees me as the happy and joking person that I am. But when those doors are closed, so am I. These last few months I haven’t been able to really have any alone time which I hate to admit it but I’m kind of glad about it.
Skylar and Melanie may have been a pain in my ass, but they made me feel loved. But not the kind of love that I want to live with. They black mailed me in so many ways and there were times were they made me feel like I was nothing but a object. They hurt me in so many different ways but they also helped me in many ways. I chuckled to myself as I leaned back on my bed. Why do I sound like I am in some type of toxic relationship? Like the girl who is so in love with someone who treats them badly but can’t find the will power to leave.
I sighed as my phone started to ring. I sat up and grabbed it off the dresser. “Hello?”
“Come out the back door and crawl.” I squinted my eyes wondering if I heard him right.
“You want me to crawl, on the ground?” He scoffed and I can tell he rolled his eyes.
“Yes, the people that Skylar hired are sitting in from of your house and here’s another car at the side of your house. Keep all your lights off and come out the back. When you get outside get on the ground and crawl. The grass is tall enough to the point they can’t see you.” I nodded my head and then looked at Marie.
“You are aware I have a child right?”
“You need to leave the car seat. We have another one in the car.” I nodded my head an hung up. I sighed as I put my phone in my back pocket and gently took Marie out her car seat. I turned off my lamp and walked out of my room and downstairs. I had like two backpacks filled with the things we need. I put one on my back and carried the other.
Before I left I turned to look at the house one more time. Everything was the way I wanted it. This was my dream home and it was now ruined. More than anything I just bought this place. I let out one more breath as I turned away and slightly opened the back door. I looked out and saw Nates car and also to the side one of Skylars people.
All of a sudden there was knock on the door causing me to jump. I wanted to go see who it was but decided against it was I got on the ground and started to crawl. I made sure Marie was on my side so I wouldn’t roll on top of her and kept going.
My arms started to hurt but I ignore it because I knew if I stopped most likely I would be caught. I heard a door close making me look up to see one of Skylars people getting out the car and walking over to the front of the house. At that point I didn’t see anyone else in the car so I got up and ran to the car. Nate got out of the car and quickly opened the back door. Once I got in I saw Leo behind the wheel and a car seat. Nate got back into the car and I buckled up Marie and put the bags on the ground. “Why aren’t we going?” I asked.
“Those people are right there. If I started driving now they will know your in here. But since the car blends into the dark they can’t see us.” I nodded my head as I sat back and ran my hands through my hair. My arms were hurting and I was ready to fall asleep.
“Call Skylar right now!” Someone yelled. All three of us turned our heads to see four guys walking out of the back door. I cursed at myself because I forgot to close the door. All four of the guys ran back to their cars. “We have to find her.” The same guy yelled.
At this point Leo decided this was the right time to go as he started the car and sped down there road. He didn’t turn the head lights on until we were about a mile and a half away from the house.
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It took us about an hour to get to the airport which only pissed me off because I already know I can’t fly. “Do you guys really think Skylar wouldn’t have someone here to stop me from flying?!” I yelled.
“Would you shut up. I have a friend who owns this place and will let you use his private plane.” I nodded my head as I grabbed Marie. Leo and Nate grabbed the bags and we walked to the side of the place. There stood a man with two other people and they were talking. Once they saw us the man smiled.
“Leo, so good to see you.” Leo smiled to as they went to go hug.
“Same here. And thank you so much for this. I owe you.” The man nodded his head and said it was no problem. The other two men took my bags and went onto the plane. I hugged Leo and Nate and said goodbye. I don’t know where I’m going but as long as its far from here I don’t have a problem.
After some protest I let one of the men take Marie to put her in a safety seat on the plane. I decided to stay back a little because I had something to do. I grabbed my phone out my back pocket and unlocked it. I took a deep breath as I opened my contacts and dialed the number. “Hello?” She said. I smiled a little at the sound of her voice and a small tear rolled down my face. “Madelyn are you okay?” Layla said. I let more tears fall down my eyes as I closed them and clenched my fist.
“I love you too.” Was all I said as I threw the phone on the ground to which it shattered. I looked up into the sky and whipped my tears. Nate handed me a new phone and gave me one more hug. He told me that he will always remember me and hopes that my life will be filled with everything I could imagine. I thanked him and slowly made my way onto the pane.
I sat down next to Marie as she woke up and let out huge yawn. I chuckled as I put my hand on her stomach to which she grabbed it. “Where would you like to go ma’am?” I looked over at the pilot, and then back at Marie.
We are going to have a great life, and for that to happen I need to be somewhere far from here. I watched as Marie smiled at me and put my hand on her face. My smile only grew as I looked back at the pilot.
“London.”