Cinderella my Ass

The magic would be gone

“Midnight.” My voice was low, but I knew he was hearing me. My lips were still tugged up in a silly smile as I couldn’t deny the pleasure of his warmth. We hadn’t move from the floor for more than two hours now. I was still in his lap and we barely talked but I felt good. Maybe more than I should.

“Yes.” His voice was soft, and I felt his lips kissing my head lightly.

“Are we friends?” I considered him as my friend. From the first day, but I wanted to know if he thought the same about me too. That question was eating me up for a while now. All I wanted to know was an answer. I needed that answer. I didn’t know the reasons but I knew for sure I wanted him in my life, no matter in what way.

He didn’t answer me right away. In fact he took his time and as I felt his lips frowning for a few seconds while his lips were still touching the top of my head, I panicked. I was scared. The fear of him, not caring about me was unbearable. We were strangers, but for me... it was weird. All of this.

“Yes.” I raised my head and looked up at his lips smiling.

It was strange how I could tell his emotions just by seeing his lips. A part of me wants to see more than his lips. But the other part wanted all of this to stay like it is. That part was scared that I would loose him if I was going to see his face. The magic would be gone.

“What colour are your hair?” I whispered and he smiled.

“Not telling.” I frowned at him.

“You are so unfair.”

“Why?” Is he really asking me this? I tell him everything. Okay almost everything... He knew my name... and probably how I looked like. Midnight didn’t give me those rights. I wanted to know at least a few things about him.

“You don’t tell me anything. I want to know you. Tell me about yourself.” He frowned at me. I knew he didn’t want me to tell me anything. Why did he want so much to hide his identity? It’s not like it would change anything... His words crossed my mind. But my little Ry... That would change everything.

“My favourite colour is blue.” He said and I smiled.

“Mine green.” I felt his lips against my head again smiling.

“I love eating.” A chuckle escaped my mouth which caused my throat hurt, but I tried my best to ignore it. The lips on my head frowned again. I liked how he was there for me every time I needed him. How could he do that, I will never know, but I liked it.

“Midnight...” he murmured a soft response. “I’m trying to figure out when will you show me your bad side, but all you have been was good.”

“Ry, the side I want to show you isn’t that kind of bad. It is the broken part of me... The part I hide, because it is a weakness. I trust you that much to show you my weakness. Do you trust me to see it and don’t push me away?”

“Yes.”

***

When I woke up I had temperature, a killer head ache and puked every five minutes. So as you guessed I didn’t go to school again. But I couldn’t help the smile as I remembered that I fell asleep on Midnight’s lap. I woke up in my bed, after that, but that wasn’t what I was thinking about.

“Are you sure you will be okay without me baby?” Mom asked me with a concerned look on her face. Not wanting her to worry about me, I gave her a small smile. A weak small smile.

“I will be fine.” She came to me and kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes and smiled at my mom. She always worries too much, but she is a mother so it’s somehow her job to overreact about everything.

“If you need anything, call me.” After that she closed the door off my room and left. I was all alone in my house. There wasn’t much to do as, I was lazy to even go to the bathroom if I needed to go, but it was better than being in school and fainting or something. Imagine how awkward and disgusting it would be if I puked in the middle of a hallway.

Even though my body was screaming for me to stay in my bed, I dragged my blanket out of it and wrapped it around my body as I went downstairs. I couldn’t sleep all day. I needed to do something so watching TV looked like a very good option. So very slowly, you could even compare me with a snail, I went to the living room and sat on the coach in front of the TV. Turning it on, I hugged my blanket as The 5th Wave started.

“He is so cute... And hot...” I muttered to myself as I saw the actors... My mind seemed to be in holidays for a while, so I, as well, could use my empty skull to play around. Like a playground. It was fun actually.

My phone buzzed and it turned my eyes to it. It couldn’t be my mom right? Or Jasmine... But it could be one of them as well... Or maybe a stalker. Or a maniac. Should I see it? I’m acting like a fool, aren’t I?

Slowly... Not really feeling insulted at my little comment where I called myself a fool, I took my phone in my hands and opened the messages. And that’s the part when my eyes fell from my skull or wherever they are and kissed the phone’s screen.

Hi!... How are you?

My heart melted. My soul earned wings and was flying all over the house. My mouth hang open and soundless screames came out of my mouth. Yes you guessed it right... Or wrong. I don’t care. Aiden freaking gorgeous Daley just texted me. Do I look good? Wait he can’t see me. What if my mouth smells? He can’t smell it. Oh my God! What should I text him?

Hi.

Crap! He asked me something. Hmm... Writes something you fool.

I’m fine? Just a little sick.

Why the hell did I write I was a little sick? What will he think? Maybe he will feel responsible for me being sick. It was partly his fault... But I won’t say that at loud. I don’t want him to feel guilty. If he feels like that he may as well never come near me again. I’m such a fool.

The knock on the door pulled me out of my messed up thoughts. That’s when I noticed he had written me at least five messages. And I just zoned out staring at the phone.

Do you mind if I come over?

Ryder?

Are you there?

Ryder are okay?

I’m coming.

Holy chocolate ice cream. He is here. I look like crap. I want to die. Is that an option? If it is please come and take me. What should I do? He is knocking. Should I take a bath? But he is outside. How did he come so fast? Who cares he is outside.

I got up from the couch slowly, probably looking like a snail, but hey... I’m sick. Wishing that I could magically die during to my long and very boring way to the front door, but knowing my fate, I knew it wouldn’t happen, so here I was... Opening the door... To the crush of my life... Looking like crap... Help!

“Are you okay?” Aiden asked me as soon as I opened the door. Well I actually just unlocked it because he burst it open like a mad man entering in and with my face in his hands he was checking if I was fine. Well... He looked worried. A lot. Should that mean anything or nothing at all?

“I’m fine.” And being me, I ran to the bathroom like I came from the mountains so I wouldn’t throw up on Aiden. Well I tried to run to the bathroom as I tripped a few times at my way in it. My hair fell in front of my eyes making me difficult to see anything else but the sink, where I was throwing up. This isn’t a good thing... I mean throwing up so much. What if I’m pregnant? Holy Molly! Wait a sec... I’m a virgin. Well, I’m safe then.

A warm hand touched my neck lightly as it removed my hair from my face. I felt so embarrassed. He was seeing me in this kind of situation. What would he think of me now? For M&M’s sake I was throwing up in front of him. It’s a good think he hadn’t run away from me already. What if he feels pity?

“This is all my fault.” He murmured.

Well done Ryder. You made him feel guilty. Now you can as well tell him it was his fault that the Titanic drowned and that the dinosaurs disappeared. How will he like me when I’m like this? I’m such a mess.

And the mess left the bathroom. I sat on the couch shaking like a phone in vibrate mode. Aiden sat next to me and wrapped his arms around me body to warm up. Good job buddy, because now I was blushing and feeling so hot inside, his body warmth was no longer needed. Oh boy he was hugging me. What if all of this was a crazy dream from my sick mind? Do I need to wake up? Because I don’t want to.

My whole body froze when I felt his lips kissing my head. “I will make it up to you.”

You just made it up for me buddy.

After five minutes or so, I fell asleep, so when I woke up I was like internally screaming as I realized I slept on his arms. This should be a dream right? How can this happen to me? He is Aiden... And I’m Ryder the only girl, who the whole school thought was a boy because of her name, and even the principal registered me as a guy, and after that I had to go through a lot of s**t to make things right. I’m the clumsiest human alive. I even tripped three times at my way to the bathroom to throw up.

I kind of skipped school the whole week so I would become better. I was perfectly fine on Friday but my mom insisted on me staying home. It was such a pain in the butt, literally, to stay in bed the whole week. I haven’t gone out for a minute. My butt felt numb for sitting the whole time, and I was fed up with my room and.... well my house. I needed to go out. So like the rebel girl I am (not really, I just like how it sounds, because I actually begged my mother for permission) I went to the park.

Fresh air would make me feel better than I was. This and I missed the sky. The blue sky. I missed it so much. Fair enough I could see it from my window but that just sucks. It wasn’t real for me in that way so no thank you. I prefer to watch it like this. It was windy, and I had to wear my coat, but I wanted so badly to get out. So nope, I didn’t care.

Like usually I sat on my favourite spot, under my favorited tree. Yeah I have a favourite tree. Deal with it. Usually I would do my homework or read a book, but I wasn’t in mood to do any of these, so I just laid down on the wet grass, filling my lungs with it’s scent and closed my eyes, smiling at the sun. I could as well fall asleep.

In just a week I fell asleep on Aiden’s and Midnight’s lap. Midnight came to see me every night. We didn’t actually do anything. Just talked about nothing. And most of the time he teased me about Aiden’s jacket, which I forgot to give it to him even though he came to see me three times after the “Throw Up” show I gave to him. It surprised me actually. I thought he wouldn’t want to see me again after that. But he proved me wrong. He actually came. Does this mean he likes me?

“Hello again, pretty girl.” A voice said and something blocked the sun. I opened my eyes and looked up at the same boy, from that day smiling at me in a friendly way. Slowly I sat up on the grass, not wanting to be laid as he was next me, but he took it as an invitation and sat next me smiling. “I’m Jack.” He took my hand and shook it. I remained silent.

Jack frowned, as I didn’t answer him and something about the way he smiled and then frowned immediately remained me of someone. But it would be silly from me to think he was him.

“I’m Ryder.” I gave him a weak smile, mostly because I was tired because of the flu I just went through and because I didn’t feel like smiling but didn’t want to be impolite.

“Cool name for a pretty girl.” The smile came back to his face. “Do you mind if I call you Ry?” Okay this is too much to be handled. I have been going through so many things the last weekend and this week and now meeting a stranger in a park who wants to call me the way only Midnight calls me, is just giving me the push towards the asylum.

“I...” Tell him no. Push him away. Run! But I didn’t do any of these. I just stared at him. His voice was friendly and warm. And the fact that he looked like my living imagination of how Midnight looks like, wasn’t helping me at all. Why the hell, the jerk didn’t want to tell me what colour his hair or eyes were. It would actually be a huge help right now in this particular moment. i***t.

“I have noticed you a few times. You like this park don’t you?” I just smiled a little and nodded. What should I do? What should I do? “You look scared. In fact, you don’t look like a girl that can be scared easily.” Well that kind of felt like a Deja Vu. Should I start thinking about things or not? Why couldn’t it be more easier? Midnight could as well show me his face, Aiden like me, I could be a normal person and not a super clumsy weirdo.... Life sucks.

“Well looks lies.” I said to him and he smirked to my comeback.

“You’re right Ry.”

Calling me like that wasn’t helping at all. I shouldn’t trust him. He is a stranger. A creepy stranger that had seen me around before. Yeah, yeah I know. Midnight is a stranger as well, but with him is different. How different, I don’t know. I trusted him, but that doesn’t mean I will trust every single stranger that I meet.

I’m not that crazy. If I was, I would be dead by now. Or probably turned into a prostitute. What? Don’t tell me you haven’t seen movies like that. The good-looking stranger acts like a angel fallen from the heaven with innocent girls. But turns out the angel fell from the heaven for a reason. He actually got kicked out. So yeah. He kidnaps you and sells you to God knows who. I know this things. I’m not naive. But there was a strange feeling of safety when I was with Midnight. How can you feel safe around the guy who entered in your room from the window, I have no idea. But that has to mean something right?

“I have to go.” I got up, shaking dust from my coat. Jack got up too and smiled down at me. Why the heaven am I short?

“Will I get to see you again?” Now he could be handsome. He could have a beautiful smile. And warm eyes. And may or may not be hot... But I was that sane to refuse him.

“I don’t think so.” And with that said I left the park like a badass.