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Chapter Twelve
Seokjin immediately wiped his tears and stood up when he heard footsteps coming towards his room.
He looked at his reflection in the mirror cursing himself for lookin so wasted and broken because of his swollen eyes and runny nose. He looks stupid.
He sat on the edge of his bed when Jungkook went inside the room. He stood infront of Seokjin but still keeping his distance as if afraid that the younger will get hurt.
Seokjin eyed his boyfriend head to toe letting out a small smile when he met Jungkook's eyes.
He chuckled when a tear slipped from his eyes just by seeing the look on his boyfriend's face. He can feel his heart aching little by little remembering all the things that they've done and he also did with Yoongi
He wants to scream at his boyfriend. He wants to physically hurt Jungkook for doing this to him. He wants to inform him how much he hurted him breaking his trust and making him doubt all of the things that Jungkook has said before.
Is he not enough? What did he do? He smirked mocking himself.
He is so guilty kissing Taehyung, he feels so bad being friends with the other without even knowing what his boyfriend are doing behind his back.
"Im so sorry, Seokjin. Im so sorry." Jungkook said.
He bit his lower lips taking a few step forward before kneeling down infront of his boyfriend.
Jungkook reached out for Seokjin's hand giving it a slight squeeze as a tear fell from his eyes because of the lack of response from the other.
It's making Jungkook feel even more guilty seeing Seokjin like this, almost lifeless.
He cant even look at Jungkook's eyes. He's staring at nothing in particular while silently crying his heart out. It's also breaking Jungkook.
"I am so sorry, babe. Im really really sorry." Jungkook said in a pleading tone kissing the back of Seokjin's hand.
The younger looked at Jungkook dead on the eyes staring at him for a minute. He has a lot of questions to ask, he wants to know when and why.
Seokjin cleared his throat as it feels so dry while trying to prevent another tears from falling out of his eyes before cupping the older's cheeks caressing it so lightly with his thumb.
He loves Jungkook with all of him. He can do anything for him as he is the person who accepted all of Seokjin and the younger is very much thankful for that.
He couldnt imagine his life without Jungkook.
What hurts him the most is that Jungkook didnt even make him feel unwanted. He should've gave him a clue that he's cheating in that way- he will be ready for what was about to come.
He always believed that Jungkook loves him so much that's why he trusted him. He let Jungkook do whatever he wants, he let him go wherever he wants and let him meet whoever he desires. He trusted him to the extent of not doubting him, not even a bit.
"It's.. it's okay, Kook." Seokjin shut his eyes closed letting his tears fall out, "Stay with me, okay?" He said in a barely audible voice.
Jungkook desperately shook his head sitting beside Seokjin before pulling him into a tight hug kissing his temples for a couple of times.
"I wont, babe. I wont leave you." Jungkook said in an reassuring voice.
Seokjin bit his lower lips as he let out a muffled sound showing how much he's supressing all the pain, dissapointment and anger that he's feeling for the sake of his boyfriend's presence.
Seokjin hugged his boyfriend burying his face on Jungkook's neck letting all of his tears out trying so hard to be careful not to make a sound.
He nods his head. He accepted all of Jungkook's reassuring words. He is fine with that, he made himself contented with all of those words even though he knew that staying loyal would be very hard for the older already.
Seokjin tries to calm himself when he's already out of Jungkook's touch. He excused himself telling the older that he would prepare a food for him
Seokjin bit his lower lips covering his mouth when he let out a long crying sound. He hiccuped and stopped cutting the meat looking down to avoid getting caught in such a vulnerable situation.
He is so damn hurt. It is so f*****g painful to know that the person you love the most is not even with you anymore.
He is there physically but knowing that Jungkook is dying to leave his side just so he could cater another man is like a stab on his chest.
He almost jumped out when his phone starts to ring. He cursed and wiped his hands with a dry towel before picking up his phone answering it as soon as he can.
"Taehyung...."
He let out a deep sigh when another tear fell from his eyes just by calling out the model's name.
"What are you doing right now, Jin? Are you okay? How are you feeling?" Taehyung's voice is full of concern and he badly wants to hear more of Seokjin.
Seokjin let out a faint smile as if Taehyung could see him doing it. He shook his head trying to get a grip of himself and avoid bursting out because of how Taehyung's voice is such a comfort.
"I am fine, Tae. Dont worry, it's just a misunderstanding." Seokjin breathed out.
There's a long pause on the other line that Seokjin almost thought that Taehyung ended the call already.
"Damn, Seokjin. Even a stranger would know that they have something." Taehyung snapped.
Seokjin let out a small laugh and he knows that he probably sound so pathetic but he doesnt care anymore.
"No, Tae. They are just really close. All of us are like that. Dont worry, okay?" He said ending the call already.
He leaned against the kitchen sink letting himself fall on the ground as he felt so weak all of a sudden.
He pulled his knees up to his chest while silently crying feeling all of the bad emotions bottling up in his chest lingering on its deepest side.
Maybe because it's the fact that Seokjin is lacking in so many things. Maybe, it's because all of this is his fault too.
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