The Wolf and His Queen: The Engagement

Rosalynn's POV: If I have to put my thoughts into actual words, there is a lot that I have been through in such a very short amount of time. The fact I almost lost my life is very trying on a person's mental state of mind. To add to that mental frustration, my life was put in jeopardy more than once, and the last time was an extremely close call. If it was not for the help of certain people, I would not be here to tell my side of the story, as if people would want to read what I thought about life and about my experiences. I am beyond thankful for everything and for all of the help that I did not even have to ask for. Some people are put into our lives to help us and we do not always understand the reason why they are there. Others are placed in our lives for a short time, some of them are helpers, while others only cause harm and destruction. Then some of the others altogether are even removed from us interacting with them ever again. We might not always know or understand the reasons behind why things happen to us in life, but I have come to realize something. When help is there, accept it. When some cause pain, you surpass it. When others stay, live with it. We have been up against a lot of fierce forces here as of late. Not that I really want to give that woman any credit for any of this, but if she was not involved in any of this recently or in the past, we would not have found out a lot of information that we are now aware of and we are currently dealing with those issues at hand. Other issues that involve her contacts are going to be dealt with and I mean very soon. We already have a lead on their whereabouts and are working on dealing with them as I go over these thoughts with you. I have learned a very important life lesson. I can not believe that I managed to pull through some of the things that I have experienced as of late, but I am glad for those who were there with me. Some of the things that I have learned as of late are that Jackson is actually called Jackson Rayne and that he is a werewolf. He is now the leader and called the Alpha of an amazing wolf pack called the Infamous Shadow Pack. His Beta is the amazing Sebastian Moonstone. Sebastian is unlike anyone I have ever met and I am sure that I will not meet anyone like him ever again in my life. Sebastian and his pack, all before my beloved Jackson became a part of it, have been there for me and I am truly grateful for everything that he has done. Including rescuing me for a time or two. I am so glad to be a part of them and have them in my life now. However, there are other things that I am working on and still accepting of myself. The fact of the matter is that I am a werewolf. I found it hard to believe at first but knowing that did help to answer a lot of questions among other feelings that I had in my own head. One thing that I accept is that none of the things would have come to pass, that included the initial kidnapping on the day that I was to complete those tasks in order to rule my kingdom. That was after my wonderful parent's unfortunate death. If it was not for their death, and then the kidnapping and attempt on my life, I would have never met the love of my life. My love and my beloved mate as well. Now that I know that I am a werewolf as well and that a lot of things have been explained to me, I can now realize and understand why I had certain features that I could not explain. I had and still have, that I at least hope for, many human friends and now that I know the truth about my past and about who I am, I can finally understand why I had certain abilities that my other human friends did not have. I then thought about what I was going to do about the outcast members of my own security detail, which was called The Guard. The other members of that pack deserted the few who remained loyal to me. I was told that the ones who deserted remained in the company of my advisor of my very own kingdom. So to try to make Derek Mathis, Denton Blake, Luke Riley, and last but not least, the famous Marcus Miller, I would need to try to find a place for them to go and to help out. I can vouch for each of those men. It did make me wonder how Sebastian would take to that opportunity. That was yet to be determined. As I was standing there looking around at everything, I adjusted the blanket that was draped around my shoulders a bit as to make sure that I did not show anything off to anyone around me. I looked over at my beloved Jackson and he was standing there while the rest of his pack helped to finish putting out the fire that was still burning. The woman and her group were long gone by this point. Some of her men on her side were seriously wounded in the fight that had just concluded a few moments before. I thought to myself that there is nothing like fighting for the ones that you love. Fighting for the life of another when they do not have the ability to stand up and fight on their own, is really saying something about a person's character. "Rosalynn?" I heard a voice say and call my name from nearby where I was standing. I looked in the direction of the voice that I heard. "My wonderful mate! Are you ready to go?" asked my beloved Jackson. He is the one who spoke up to me a moment ago. That was the first time I have ever heard him call my name. Not just call me Rose but actually call me by my actual name, my name Rosalynn. It was like sleigh bells were ringing in both of my ears. It was a sound that was ever so loving and one that is very hard to explain the feelings behind it. To hear him call me his mate, and not just in thought but openly call me his mate, I was speechless. It made the very skin on my entire body crawl. If I had to say, this one feeling is one I could crave more of. Then that is when it hit me. There was a feeling that swelled up inside of me, well how would you explain this one? It was like I could barely stand up on my own two feet when he did that. If I had to put words to this feeling, it was like a whole bunch of butterflies were trying to escape the confines of my stomach after they got startled in a small space and were trying to escape. It was like at that moment that I could not stand up on my very own and my knees were starting to buckle. I thought that I was going to fall to the ground and there was nothing that I could do to stop it. My beloved Jackson was looking at me at the same time that he spoke to me. As I looked at him as well, I watched what he did next. That is when he moved like lightning and rushed over to my side. The feeling that I had in my own skin when he grabbed me by my waist made it to where my knees completely let go and I was no longer able to stand on my own. However, one thing that I noticed is that I did not fall. Why did I not fall to the ground at that moment, I wondered to myself. Well, it was because he had a grip on my waist and that I did not even drop an inch closer to the ground. At that moment, I let go of the blanket and placed both of my hands on his forearms as I could feel the muscles in his arms start to flex a bit. I was close enough to him that there was no need to hold onto the blanket and it did not fall when I let it go. Instead of setting me down, he lifted me up higher. He lifted me up a bit till my eyes were at level with his eyes. The feelings that overcame me were like the ones out of a love story. I started to shudder all over and that is when he did what I did not think he would do. Without another word from him, he quickly moved his head forward toward mine and that is when he laid his lips firmly on my lips. That was the very first kiss that I had ever received in my entire life. If there were fireworks going on, I could not tell but that is what it felt like on the inside of my chest at that very moment. The feelings were so powerful I could not contain them and that is when I started to feel my eyes swell with tears. However, I was not given the opportunity to cry. He then moved one of his hands from my waist and swiftly wrapped it around my back. I could not help but enjoy the moment. That is when he pulled me closer and pressed his lips closer to mine. I finally started to kiss him back. Then he moved the other hand that was still positioned on my waist and moved it to the back of my neck. There was no way that I could pull away this time. So instead of pushing back away from him, I moved my hands from his forearms and started to wrap them around his shoulders. One of my arms, I choose to wrap around the back of his neck as well. The feeling of how my fingers were starting to run through his hair, was ever so soft and appreciated after the day we had. I felt ever so close to him at this moment. I never wanted this moment to end. Was this what it felt like to have your mate kiss you? Or was this only the first time that you got a kiss from them? Or better yet, would this feeling toward them intensify the longer you were together? I had to admit that there was a lot about werewolves that I had yet to figure out. After what seemed like a lifetime, caught up in this moment, he finally stopped kissing me and then backed away to look deep into my eyes. "You are mine," he said to me. It's about time. I heard my inward voice speak up again. I was glad to know who that voice belonged to, now that I came to understand a few things about myself. However, that lead me to another issue at hand, especially after he is the one who spoke up to me a moment ago. The feelings I felt after this whole experience that I literally just went through, were that there was no way that I was going to be able to walk for a while. The feeling and sensation of love were still pulsing through my veins and I could not stand on my own, even though I was still in his arms. Something amazing about the fact of being in the arms of my mate is that he could sense certain things about me. How was that possible, I wondered to myself. However possible that was, he seemed to sense my trouble of not being able to stand without me having to say anything. That is when he let go of my neck and swung me to the side a bit so that he could place his arm under my hanging legs. He even grabbed the blanket holding it up in the process. Now he held me in a carrying position. "Are you ready to head out?" he asked as he looked at me.