She was Her Desire

Was she supposed to tell?

In the shower, she could not stop thinking about how last night had been. A part of her felt guilty for sleeping with another person while she was still Stacy but then again her angry self didn’t care. She was struggling to bring about balance on how she felt. She stood there leaning towards the wall as she felt the warm water fall on her body. She wanted all the events of last night gone but she didn’t know how to make them. She was startled when Stacy opened the bathroom door and let herself in. She was naked and still beautiful as the first time Jess had seen her. Jess turned around to look at her girlfriend. She was still hurting but yet again could not resist her. Not even after last night. She still loved her and wanted her. Stacy on the other hand had fallen asleep thinking about Jess, she had always loved the masculine part of her. She walked towards Jess and kissed her. Jess was not sure whether to play along or tell her the truth, tell her the truth that she had cheated on her. She was afraid she would not forgive her and instead kissed her back. Stacy was always turned on by Jess, especially when she took dominance over her. She turned her such that her beautiful butt was touching her crotch as she grabbed both her breasts from behind. Stacy knew that Jess was going to be rough and fast, she had always done it whenever she was angry at something. It felt like she always dealt with her issues that way but she let her. She was always turned on by that particular aspect, she loved to feel her get all rough and s****l towards her.

“Baby don’t go.” Stacy said between the heavy breathing and groans.

“I ain’t going nowhere baby, but you haven’t been good you know.” Jess said. It was like some fire burning inside of her. She grabbed and slapped her butt as she heard her moan loudly, almost sending her to the edge.

“I’m so sorry baby. I didn’t mean to break you, I love you.” Stacy said.

Jess went on her knees and parted Stacy’s legs. She rubbed her two fingers on her slit before ramming into her causing her to scream. This kind of s*x turned her on, she wanted to go at it as fast and pleasurable as she could. Her bent over girlfriend seemed to love it as well, she watched her juices covered her fingers as she pounded her from behind. The sight was priceless and she wanted to get off. She stood up, her fingers still in Stacy, grabbed her right breast and pinched her n****e as she felt an orgasm sweep through her body. Stacy was moaning and her legs were shaking from pleasure. She turned around and put her hands around Jess’ neck as she kissed her, hoping to please her enough. They both took a shower before going to work. All this while, Jess remained silent and so did Stacy. They hoped to talk about it that evening over dinner.

Jess went to work, knowing very well that she may have blown away every chance she had with Stacy. She hated herself for not being able to stop herself from cheating with Scarlet. Again, she didn’t know exactly what she felt for Scarlet, maybe it was just a one-time thing. All she knew was that she wanted Stacy, and she didn’t want her to get hurt nor did she want to lie to her. All day she kept looking in her phone. There were no messages or missed calls until Scarlet texted her. They were both in the office but Jess had been avoiding her all day. She did not know what to say to her and she wasn’t ready to talk about it yet. She opened the message and Scarlet was asking how she was feeling. She said she was okay and that she wasn’t ready to talk about the last night. Jess worked well for the better part of the afternoon and was distracted by Scarlet who came into her office. She closed the door behind her and walked towards where Jess was sitting.

“How are you doing?” Scarlet asked before settling on the table. Exposing her toned thighs to Jess.

Jess stood up and started walking around her office.

“I’m good, I’m good.” She said. “About last…” before she could finish, Scarlet interrupted.

“Forget about last night boo.” Scarlet said. These were ideal words that she wanted to hear but now she wasn’t so sure.

“What do you mean I forget last night?” Jess asked, looking at Scarlet sternly.

“I expected that to give you all the peace of mind. You’re too hang up on Stacy, she is all you think about. There is no way I would let whatever happened last night come between you two.” Scarlet said. She seemed to be happy about it all but Jess could see the pain in her eyes but there’s nothing she could do. Scarlet was right, she was so into Stacy.

“Come on…” Jess uttered. She didn’t know what to say.

“Come on what Jess? Do you want to lie to me?” Scarlet asked as she stood up and walked out of the office.

Jess sat down on her office chair. She was hurting and she knew that she had made a great mistake. Something was so wrong in her world and she didn’t know how to make anything right. She was supposed to have dinner with her girlfriend in a few hours. She kept wondering if it would ever be the same again. She had always told the truth and she respected Stacy enough not to lie to her. She still loved her, she still wanted her. She brushed all those thoughts off and decided to work on one property before she could meet Stacy for dinner. She considered opening a bottle of Bourbon Whiskey her boss had gifted to her but then again didn’t think going to dinner drunk was a respectable thing to do. She locked the drawer and decided to go to the swimming pool in the 8th floor of the building. That was one of the reasons she loved working at HO Agencies. Swimming would make her relax, she said to herself. She took a towel and slid in to her swim shorts and sports bra before she went to the lift up to the 8th floor. At that time, there were only the guard and janitor in the office as everyone else had left early. She went to the pool and started her swimming sessions. She felt great in the water. For a minute that day she didn’t think about their misunderstanding with her girlfriend. She was just relaxed and she loved it. She knew she didn’t have much time before dinner at the restaurant she had reserved earlier. After about 45 minutes, she got out of the pool and hit the shower. She wrapped the towel around her body and went to the lockers where she had her spare outfit. She dressed up, walked back to her office before leaving the office. Luckily for her, the restaurant was a few blocks from her office and she decided to walk.

Stacy was already at the restaurant when Jess showed up. She was sitting at their table and noticed

Jess coming into the restaurant through the front door. She was still looking great dressed in blue jeans and white T-shirt. She had held up her hair into a pony tail and everything fit her personality perfectly. Stacy smiled widely at her girlfriend. It was like she was falling in love with her all over again. Jess smiled back at her girlfriend who looked beautiful in the black dress she was wearing. She walked over to her, wearing a wide smile and for some reason she was shy. She wanted to get there already.

“Hey baby,” Stacy said on noticing her girlfriend was shy.

“Hey,” Jess said, now able to raise her head and look at her girlfriend. She leaned in for a kiss before they both settled on the table. The waiter walked up to their table and took their orders. The waiter brought up a bottle of wine as requested by Jess. It was Stacy’s favourite wine. Stacy looked at Jess and smiled. She was glad that even after a long time Jess still remembered her favourite wine and she was drinking it despite the fact that she hated wine. She loved it when Jess did something like that. She stood up and kissed her on her right cheek before settling back to her chair. They both seemed happy together. They chatted, held hands, and exchanged a few kisses over dinner. Jess was completely happy until they both realized that they had important issues to discuss.

“I am sorry Jess, I really am.” Stacy started.

“Don’t be. It’s okay, maybe I was wrong about it all.” Jess was saying when she realize that her guilty conscience was against her.

“I shouldn’t have chosen hanging out with Mike over you. That was dumb of me to do.” Stacy continued.

“What was that all about by the way?” She asked.

“I thought you’d be fine with me hanging out with Mike while you took your dinner.” Stacy explained.

“Why would you think that? I love you, I mean I get crazy jealous when I see you with someone else.” Jess said, clearly exposing his insecurities to the woman she loved.

“I get that but shouldn’t you trust a little more. I am not bi you know.” Stacy said. She sounded a little disappointed by Jess’ explanation.

“I am sorry about that baby.” Jess said, hoping that Stacy would not ask about her night.

“It’s okay.” Stacy said as she caressed her girlfriend’s hand. “Now do you want to tell me where you spent the night? I was worried about you.” She added.

Jess froze on hearing her girlfriend enquire about last night. “I slept at Scarlet’s.” She said, looking down in the wine glass. She needed more alcohol to keep this conversation going. She hated wine but she could literally drink or smoke anything at that moment.

“Scarlet, as in your workmate Scarlet?” Stacy asked. She hoped that there was another Scarlet she didn’t know about. She hated the thought of Scarlet being in her girlfriend’s life.

“I don’t know any other Scarlet baby.” Jess said. She noticed her Stacy was sad about that.

“I am not going to ask if you slept with her but I only have one question; Do you love her? Do you have feelings for her?” Stacy asked. She didn’t want to know whatever happened between the two.

“No, why would you say that baby?” Jess asked. She wanted to know where Stacy was going with the question.

“Baby I know you’ve been texting her. I know about the night at the party.” Stacy said.

How could she have kept all that to herself? What else did she know? Jess was wondering. She waved at the waiter ad requested another bottle of wine. There was no way she was answering all those questions while sober.

“Please answer me. I would hate to waste my time.” Stacy said.

“I just love you and you only.” Jess uttered. She was sure about what she said. She had always and would always love Stacy all her life.

“Are you sure?” Stacy continued.

“Yes baby, I swear.” Jess reassured her. They both looked into each other’s eyes and smiled. They were two flawless human being in love. A love that made them crazy people. Jess was glad that Stacy had trusted her. After that night she was not going to put their relationship in danger anymore. Stacy was her happiness and she loved living with her.