Beauty & the Alpha

How will this turn out...

I could not believe the nerve of him! Let’s rewind and find out why

Nico and I went off to a gazebo to talk during the party,

Let’s play a game to get to know each other I said

He rolled his eyes but agreed to it

Okay I will go first, hmm What’s your favorite Color? I asked

Blue, yours? He asked raising an eyebrow

I would have to say… purple I answered

Favorite Song? He asked with a hint of a smile

10,000 Hours, yours? I responded and questioned him right back

Savage He answered confidently smirking, hmm these questions are too easy I thought

Okay how about, how many pups do you want in the future? Not right away obviously I inquired maybe that would knock that smug look off his face

Easy 6 or 7 He replied and I am sure my eyes bugged out of my head 6 or 7?! What does he think I am a machine that can just pop them out with ease?! That’s not up for debate either, and we’ll have them when we have them, whether it’s in a few months, years whenever He continued on all nonchalantly

Excuse me?! I almost screamed out I do not think so! I cannot push 7 children out! I refuse! I want a career; I want to finish school! But most importantly I Do Not Want to spend my life pregnant or old I replied fuming not up for debate my ass! I refuse he can kiss my white ass!

That did it, he was furious when I said that  I think maybe that question should have waited, I have poked the beast apparently, I guess it’s time to see if he’s like his father. I guess I should explain how his father has been, so you understand what I am talking about.

Nico’s father is a cold and dark man, at least when he or his mother in not around, which honestly was most of the time. Nico’s Mother came to us from another pack when he went for an alliance meeting, So she still spends a lot of time there, someone had a baby, or someone’s getting married or… or… or, I feel like maybe she just doesn’t want to be here.  Here is why, Alpha is always in a fowl mood, no matter what, he always has to take it out on someone, Alpha will lose his s**t if what he wanted wasn’t served, despite the fact that he never tells anyone what he would like, he is a giant man baby, but his tantrums are abusive and harmful, and downright cruel. Alpha has sent wolves to solitude for just breathing near him because he was pissed off that a merger didn’t go through, or that his dinner wasn’t what he wanted, a meeting went bad, something went wrong in the office, the list of this goes on and on. The true worst thing that he has ever done, had happened to me. Once I fell in training, that was all, and he took me to the dungeon and slashed my back with pure silver whips. It stung so bad, it took 3 months to fully heal, he did not leave after the slashing, he continued on beating me, bloody and blue until I became unconscious, and he left me there for a week. Mom and Dad were worried and furious when they found out. But he is the Alpha no one dares go against him, but that leaving me is why it took so long to heal, they became infected in that stupid cellar he calls a dungeon. *back to now*

I flinched at the look Nico gave me, I feared for my life in that moment, I knew he could feel it, but I also know I could feel his rage, and there was no forgiveness, he was pissed.

I SAID it is NOT up for debate CHILD. He hissed out with venom, if looks could kill I would be 10 feet under right now.

I lowered my head showing submission, I was terrified, and I wanted out of there right that minute. Maybe I could just leave the pack, find refuge somewhere else, maybe he would let me, I doubt it, but maybe I could be free. I was terrified, I did not want to spend my life with this man, I could not. When I first saw him, I did not care that he was older than me, but now, now I am not so sure. I am not sure I want an Alpha as a mate.

His face softened at the fear he saw on my face, he started taking deep breaths, he grabbed my hand, I know Mates can calm each other, I did not actually want him touching me though, I wanted to get as far away as possible, but I stayed, and I did not say a word. I did not want him lashing out again, so I stood there quietly letting him hold my hand until he calmed down. I did not dare look at him, I just stared out into the night looking at the garden and the way the stars lit it up. Finally, he let go of my hand, but that was quickly replaced with him coming up behind and holding me close. As much as I did not want him, I needed him more. Leaning into him, letting my eyes close, his head resting on top of mine, our breathing evening out, and syncing up.

I am sorry for getting upset, I did not mean to frighten you. He was the first to break our silence, hearing him sigh, I guess it was my turn

It is okay… I replied quietly, I do not think I meant it, but I said it because it felt right.

No, it’s not, I do not want you to be afraid of me, I… I… He sighed, taking a deep breath and turning me to face him, I want us to be happy, and be honest, and… and I can’t very well expect that, if I am not a fair mate, Family means a lot to me, Why don’t we just see what the goddess gives us, if we have 1 or 3 or 7 I will be happy as long as I still have you reigning by my side. But I mean it, you do not need school. I need you here with me, I need you to lead… I need you to keep my head level... and I really do not want you going away. Get your GED, do online college, I do not care, but I want you doing it from home.

Okay… Does not mean I am happy about this… but I guess I see your point I stated. I really hated this, school was fun, not because it was school, but because of the social aspect of it. Also I was still scared… of him… I still sort of wanted to reject him… but I was scared to

If you promise to try, I promise to never stop making you feel like a queen.  I guess he could sense how I was feel, stupid Alpha’s, and their stupid extra sensitive mate bonds. Normally you have to be fully mated to feel what your mate does, but not Alphas, it just become more sensitive, and more persisting after the mating process is completed

I promise… I answered with a small smile, then I remembered the party! I forgot to ask him if he was coming! I don’t even know if the others would want the Alpha there, although… would they still want me to be there knowing that I am the Alphas mate… the fear creeped in, would my friends still like me… would they still ask me to hang out or go shopping, would they turn on me, would the replace me, I have never felt so insecure as I had in that moment.

Stop! He boomed out I cannot handle your fear. I thought we talked it out. He continued in a softer voice, as he lifts my head up to look into my eyes, I am sure they were teary right now, but I did not care.

Its… Its not you, I managed to stammer out, There is a party tonight, and… well… umm… I’m just not sure my friends will want the Alpha joining… then my mind went… what if they don’t like me anymore… I’m not saying you’re a bad guy… but… well your father… I stopped myself, I probably should not speak ill of his father, I wish I could suck my words back into my mouth, I wish I would have thought before I spoke. I watched in horror as his eyebrow raised, and a glimmer in his eye appeared, not a happy glimmer, his wolf is about to surface glimmer

What about my father He hissed, but quickly started working on his breathing, I knew he was not necessarily mad at me, but he was pissed. I should not have said that… I said too much

Ummm… nothing I should not have said that I am sorry Alpha Nico I spoke softly, as I reach out for his hand

No tell me… Please he begged, his eyes were soft. I took a deep breath, how do you tell a man that his fathers a monster, how do you tell him, that his father almost killed his mate, before they even met, how do you crush everything.

I think it’s better if I show you… I stepped away from him as I spoke and turned my back, taking a deep breath to calm my nerves I lifted my shirt, taking it off. Hanging my head, I could not look at him, I could not watch his reaction, but I could feel the anger bubbling up, I could feel the beast rearing his ugly head. I just did not know if it was at me, or towards his father. Finally, I threw my shirt back on and turned to look at him, my eyes now soft as I reached for him, I needed to feel my mate close, Tess did too. She knew the dark memories, she remembered thinking we were going to die there, this was just as stressful on her as it was me. To my surprise he pulled me close, grabbing on and not wanting to let go, Suddenly I felt something wet his my head, we were under a gazebo, it was still clear around us… then it hit me, he was crying, oh… uggh… this is awkward… what do you do.

He did this? He… Hurt you… He in..intentionally… did this… to you He stammered out, he could barely put together that sentence. I took a deep breath and nodded, I could not look up, I just needed to hold him, and I needed him to hold me.

Yes, quietly responding, my voice so low, and so weak It didn’t sound like me at all.

We just stood there in each other’s arms for what felt like ever, neither of us wanting to be the first to let go, but eventually we did. Looking around, it was no longer dark, holy s**t! The sun was out! The party! We missed it, I completely forgot about it. I did not care that I missed it, I did start noticing how tired I was though. I let out a huge yawn, he followed suit. 

Let us go to bed darling. He said, as he picked me up, Tess was purring, as we nuzzled closer to him. Soon the darkness took over and I fell asleep before we ever hit the bed.

I felt it when he laid me in bed, and tucked me in, I felt the bed dip beside me as he laid down and curled up close to me. I genuinely loved the feeling, maybe this mate thing is not as bad as I thought it would be. But maybe that is just Tess talking.

Slowly the sunlight hit the windows, and hit our faces, I am not sure about him, but I definitely was not ready to wake up. I feel like we just fell asleep 10 minutes ago, I heard him grunt in disapproval beside me, I guess that answers that, he’s not ready either.