I Love You

16. Guilt And Apology.

Hello!

"Aah" I groaned in pain as soon as I tried to get up. My head is aching like anything and I don't even know where on earth I'm.

A few seconds ago,  when I opened my eyes and saw this very unfamiliar but lavish room,  I totally freaked out and tried to get up but failed miserably.

"Good morning Sunshine. " I heard this voice which annoys me to no end and it added to my headache.

Ranbir Malhotra was sitting in all his glory on the couch beside the bed on which I was lying.

Wait,  what is he doing here?  Fear rush through my veins and I immediately looked inside my quilt to find myself in a T-shirt, his T-shirt , no freaking way!

I looked at him in horror who was smirking at me. Tears formed in my eyes at the thought of losing my virginity to someone whom I can't even stand for long. This can't be true, no,  please no.

I didn't realize tears were flowing through my eyes until I felt him wiping them from my cheek. I flinched at his touch and he looked taken aback.

"I hate you. " I said through my teeth and he looked confused.

How can he do this to me?  People were right about him,  he didn't respected girls at all. He is a complete jerk who took advantage of me. The memories of last night flashed in my mind,  we came back from party and he took me out with him,  he promised he'll drop me back safely but we drank and I don't remember anything after that. I shouldn't have trusted him in the first place. After knowing his reputation,  how could I go with him? How can I be so stupid?  My headache was increasing even more and I felt my breathing become heavy. I was choking, it was hard to breathe,  really hard.

"Sunshine,  Sunshine you okay? f**k,  what happened to you Sunshine? Breathe,  just breathe okay,  calm down. What happened? " He asked faking concern. This made me hate you even more Ranbir.

"What,  what happened?  You're asking me that,  you jerk." I yelled at him but he freaking frowned at me like he is innocent. The nerves of him 

"What happened Sanyukta? " This time he asked with confusion all over written on his face.

"You A-hole, you took advantage of me last night when I wasn't in my senses and you're asking me what happened. You freaking took my virginity,  this happened jerk. " I yelled at him and he looked even more confused.

"What are you saying Sunshine. I didn't do anything. " He said cupping my arms but I jerked it. How dare he lie after what he did.

"Really?  Then why on earth are we here and not in my dorm room and why on hell am I wearing your shirt? " I asked through my teeth holding his shirt and he looked away.

" I can't believe this. " He sighed closing his eyes.

"I can't believe this either Malhotra,  it was so stupid of me to trust you,  I should never have trusted a jerk like you. " I hissed and he opened his eyes which had hurt in them,  why is he hurt now?  He got what he wanted. He should be happy.

"Stop crying first and before jumping into stupid conclusions,  you should have asked me Sanyukta. " He said calmly, looking down.

"I'm not crying. " I told him wiping my tears.

"I believe you. " He said sarcastically causing me to roll my eyes. My headache wasn't helping with the situation.

He got up from the bed and went towards the table,  he picked up a glass which had lemonade in it, I suppose and brought it near me.

"Drink this,  you'll feel better. " He said forwarding it to me. Like hell,  I'll take anything from him now,  who knows he may have spiked it too.

I looked away and he took a deep breath. He roughly grabbed my chin and made me look at him. He forced the glass inside my lips and I tried to resist it but failed. He made me drink the lemonade and kept the empty glass on the night stand. After sitting on the bed in front of me,  he cupped my shoulders. I tried to jerk him but his hold became tight.

"After you passed out last night,  I took you back to your dorm but it was already locked. I called Anaya from your phone and she told me that the warden won't let you in,  and it'll also give a bad name to you so I, after taking her permission brought you here in this hotel room. I always keep my spare clothes in my car,  and just to let you sleep comfortably I had a female staff change your clothes. I went back to my dorm after that and came here early in the morning just to make sure that you don't freak out when you wake up here,  in this unfamiliar place. I even got you lemonade for your hangover and I swear to my Mom that I didn't even touch you like that. But I think you were right,  you shouldn't have trusted me. I'm not worth it. All the people who say things about me are right and I am wrong. " He said the last line with so much pain that it made me shiver. I was guilty,  so damn guilty. I'm officially the most stupid person in this whole world. He did all these things for me and I blamed him for the things he didn't even do.

"Ranbir I.. " "Let it be Sanyukta,  I'm sorry. " He interrupted me and got up to leave but I caught his wrist on time.

I got up too and stood in front of him holding his hand.

"Stop crying Sanyukta,  I hate it. " he said looking away and I felt like crying even more now, but I wiped my tears.

"Ranbir,  I'm really sorry, it was so stupid of me to blame you like that when all you did was take care of me. I'm so sorry Ranbir,  I swear I won't repeat it again. I won't doubt you ever again. I promise. Ranbir,  it's just that,  I was scared,  really scared. I don't know,  whether you know it or not but a girl's dignity is everything for her and it's more than her life. I was so scared that I lost it to someone whom I don't even love and that too in an unconscious state. I was a scared girl Ranbir, who just freaked out and started putting allegations on you without even giving it a second thought. I'm sorry Ranbir,  I'm really very sorry. Please forgive me,  I swear I'll never doubt on you again,  please Ranbir,  I'm really guilty. " I pleaded to him and he finally graced me with a glance.

"It's okay. " He said looking away again.

"I know it's not,  I'm really sorry. I wanna make up for it Ranbir,  I'll do anything. I'm really sorry. " I apologized again joining my hands in front of him. Tears were flowing from my eyes nonstop.

He held my hands and sighed.

"Anything? " He asked wiping my tears.

"Anything. " I promised him. I was so guilty that now I can do anything to pacify him.

"Then come on a date with me. " He said and my eyes widened. He's a devil,  he clearly knows how to take advantage of the situation.

"Arjun will kill me. " I told him and he chuckled. I'm serious.

"He won't,  just tell me,  will you come on a date with me? " He asked smiling. A breath taking smile,  I might add.

"Will you forgive me after that? " I asked and his smile grew bigger.

"I will. " He said causing me to smile.

"Then I'll come. " I promised him and now he was full on grinning.

"Okay then I forgive you, Sunshine . " He said grinning and I felt so happy, this adjective made me so damn happy that without realizing what I was doing I hugged him. Like really,  jumped on him will be more precise coz he stumbled but composed himself and wrapped his arms around me. I took a deep breath, feeling relaxed in his embrace but soon pulled away from him, before it could become awkward.

"Thank you so much. " I thanked him and he ruffled my hair smiling.

I pouted at his actions causing him to chuckle. "You're so cute. " He said pulling my cheeks causing me to blush.

"So let's leave now,  Anaya must be waiting for you. "He said and I gave him a nod.

I was leaving but he held my wrist.

"What?" I asked him.

"I think you'd want to change. " He said eyeing my clothes or should I call it a cloth? I blushed at it and immediately took my dress from the other side of the bed and headed inside the washroom to change. His T-shirt smelled like him, and it was intoxicating. I changed into my clothes and came out after brushing my hair and washing my face.

He was patiently waiting for me sitting on the couch and after I came out,  he gave me a big smile and we headed out.

Half of the car ride was silent with soft music playing from FM but he decided to break the silence by asking something which completely ruined my mood.

"So, what have you thought about Arjun?  Are you gonna talk to him now? " He asked and yesterday's incident flashed in my mind.

"I don't know,  he's my best friend but still after what he did last night,  I don't think I'll be able to forgive him this soon. " I told him honestly.

"Yeah,  everyone is not as forgiving as me. " He joked causing me to roll my eyes.

"You didn't forgive me for free,  you charged well. " I teased him and he chuckled.

"You'll love it too,  trust me." He said smiling and I believed him.

"I trust you. " I told him honestly and he looked at me with a big smile.

"You know,  you make me smile too much. I never used to smile this much before. " He said concentrating on the road.

"So is it a good thing or bad? " I asked him biting my lip in nervousness. I don't know why but I was getting nervous.

" Honestly, even I don't know." He said still looking at the road and I leaned on the seat with a little disappointment. May be I was expecting something else.

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