Breed by Alpha Jaxton

Chapter 62

Everything is falling apart. What is going on?? I am hoping this is a dream and I will wake up to it all being what it is a simple nightmare. This is hell.

I can’t believe this is happening to me.

“Why?? Goddess?!!! Why me?” I ask the universe.

“What did I do to deserve this? Pains and more pain now. I never was bitter or complained but now I lost my mate because I am different. I didn’t ask to be born this way.” I sob into the earth.

I can still feel the pain wrenching through me. It felt like he reached inside me and ripped my heart out with his bare f*****g hands. It hurt so bad all I wanted to do was sob and scratch my own heart out to get him to look at how much pain he was causing me. This is hell.

There was this one time I thought I could climb this tree without getting hurt. The climbing was not the hurtful part of the adventure. I climbed alright and even enjoyed that part but the coming down was the hard part. I slipped, fell and broke my ankle. It was painful and even when we heal faster than humans it wasn’t a pleasant experience for me. That is the last painful thing that has happened to me and now this beats that by a hundred fold. This is horrible. It is like my heart has been ripped into shreds. I can’t breathe.

I feel like heaving, throwing up the content of my stomach which would be what is leftover form the dinner we had last night. f**k.

These People I call my family actually had dinner with me last night. We had dinner as a family last like nothing was out of the ordinary and I find it funny that nobody told me about her meeting the Luna and her being chosen to be the mate to my own mate and best friend. It’s like they knew that there was a possibility of him being my mate. They kept it from me and now they hurt me. They didn’t even stop it.

I mean right there and then when we acknowledged each other they could have stopped it. They should have stopped them but they watched as he rejected me before everybody. They became part of my bullies. Those who stand by watching and doing nothing. They became part of my answers right there watching from the sidelines and not saying anything or stepping up.

I smell him before I actually see him. That strong oaky smell. He was the one holding me up and making sure i didn’t fall down flat on my face and embarrass myself further. I should thank him because I would have crumbled to the earth if not for his quiet strength holding me an sleeping me solid. It was as if I was seeping off his strength. I could feel it. It was what kept me from Completely loosing it.

I know when he stands there just watching me. I know I look a mess right now. With vomit few feet away from me, I am getting dizzy. I didn’t have anything for breakfast this morning because I was too excited to come and find my mate. My mouth is bitter and I feel so sore all over. My dress!!!! It is a freaking mess and don’t want to even see it again after today. I just want to burn it to ashes and brunt the ashes to more ashes. Maybe then the memory will fade alongside the damn dress.

It is soiled and stained and I even have twigs sticking out of my dress at all sides from all the running I did when I was coming through the woods. That’s true I don’t even know where I am going...?!! I can’t figure s**t out right now but I can’t go back there. I don’t have any family outside this pack. My dad’s parents are dead. They have been dead for a long time and I can’t even remember them for me when I was still young but mum’s parents are still alive but they live so far away that’s why we never see them anyways. She barely ever lets us speak to them on the phone talk more of going to see them. I asked her why she doesn’t let them come over and she shut it down and I could tell she doesn’t want to ever talk about it so I kept shut. I should have asked more questions. I know where they live Heartstin Pack but it is so far away and I can’t travel now. It is night.

I need to strategize, go back home and pack my stuff at least change out of this ridiculous dress, burn it, get money for the journey and be on my way. Now is the time to be smart and take steps to survive this. I can break down and cry later when I am safe and out of this pack.

I hear his footsteps get closer and I can’t ignore him anymore or the other wolves watching me.

It’s hilarious they think I don’t know they have been following me and I am wondering why... this is weird but again what is not strange about my whole life today. I sniffed their scents when they started trailing me even with the pain and agony my wolf wad watching after me, she’s in pain to but that doesn’t mean she’s not going to protect us both.