I am sure with the way you hang around him all the time you are in love with him and yo are pinning after him. he says moving to where I am standing. In my head I am like who told him that and even if I have feelings for him what the hell is his business in that? He does not have any right to judge me or criticize me because I am not hurting anybody. Unlike him and his stupid nosey questions.
i dont want to answer your questions it is not your business. I tell them clutching my bag to my chest. This is not how I imagined my day go.
what do you guys want from me? Don t you have practice anymore? Or training? I ask them hoping they do so they can leave.
i dont know who you think you bt shut up and stop trying to distract me. he says grunting.
tell us, does the carpet match the drapes? he asks.
what do you mean does the carpet match the drapes? I ask.
is your p***y hair as white as your hair? he asks.
I just look at him like he has lost his goddamn mind because what??
why the f**k would he be asking me such an intimate and personal question in the first place?
don worry if you dont want to answer the question I could just check.. he says. His other partner is leaning against the tree watching everything happen with a stupidly sick smile on his face.
The f*****g b***h.
you wouldnt dare lay a hand on me. I tell him. He could. I know he could but so far no one has ever tried to touch me or sexually hurt me in anyway. This would be the first time and I dont think I could survive it. If he hurt me or assaults me I dont think I could ever move past it. It would hunt me for days to come. This is going to change a lot of things in my life. The trauma and the pain is not something I am capable of moving past so I try a different approach.
we can and nothing will happen when are you going to get it through your head that no one cares about you and you are disposable. If you were to go missing right now I am sure no one is going to bat an eyelash. Even your own sister loathes you. Think about that.. he says.
I think about it when he mentions my sister. Before I was blocking everything he says but now I am just going to stand here and think about the most hurting thing in the whole universe and that is that my sister hating my guts and everyone knowing about it. What do I do? How do I even heal from such hurt and heartache. It messes with your mind and leaves you gasping for air because nothing makes sense.