*knock, knock
"Come in! " I heared my fathers confirmation so I opened the door and sit at the chair in front of his desk.
"Father, is everything alright? " I asked as I saw the passage of time in his face, it's tougher on him.
"We violated the main rule the central region prohibited to do, breaking the peace of the four directions," his face in deep frown,
"Do you blame big brother, father? " I asked waiting for his reply. He opposed the union of Brother Hein and Princess Ana but he never interfere and when the battle commence he fought with his life.
After a long pause he said, "I'm not in position to blame your brother, I made a bigger decision a long time ago and, I chose my love over power... " he paused and his gazed turned gentle while looking at my face,
"Your grandfather, back then supported my decisions because he believe in the power of love, and I as a father to your brother will support him with everything I can the same support your grandfather gave to me and your mother, I will protect you both, because of believing in love I had you both, the greatest treasure I'm proud of! "
I felt my eyes stung, and picture how deep father loved our mother.
I can't help thinking and asking him this
question,
" Father. "
"Hmm? " he asked in a gentle voice, I bit my lower lip.
"Do you regret that you lose mother because of me? "
he look stunned maybe this thought never crossed his mind, he stares deep in my eyes while I heard him utter the most comforting words I'll ever hear,
"Having you is the biggest blessing your mother and I ever had. You're the fruit of our love, and she never had second thoughts in using her core to save you. " he looked sad and down maybe missing my mother so much, he said after a pause and sighed,
"Even if it happens a second time our decision will never changed it's to save you, my precious one! "
How great the power of my fathers love is to sacrifice a lot for us, I understand why my big brother risked of losing his life its because he takes after my father, the great love my father had to my mother.
But because of that love he lost my mother too, I can't help it as my tears flowed down uncontrollably as I gaze at my fathers longing eyes,
"Don't blame yourself child, what we did has reasons, as I look at you growing beautiful and elegant like your mother I understand the choice your mother made, and I support every decision she made because I trust and love her deeply. " he paused after then added,
" She won't be able to survive too if we gave up on you, it's for her to feel secured not just for you to live. " he said that while patting my head like he always does since I was a child, comforting me so that I won't blame myself in losing his beloved wife.