The Girl Behind The Books

Emma's POV Do you know how it feels to find a guy with brown hair and ocean blue eyes super attractive, but you just know he'll never notice you, or you'd never have a chance with him? Having feelings may be good at some points in life but usually, it's shitty, especially that feeling of having a crush, and you're sure he doesn't like you back. I mean, honestly, I don't know whether I consider him as a crush or not, but I mean, he is pretty attractive alright. Brendon sits in front of me in Chemistry and physics. Those are the only classes we have together because we have different schedules. Well to think about it, he doesn't even know I exist so I don't know if I would actually be able to talk to him or not. I always read and read, and I barely put my book down if I start, but sadly my chemistry teacher hates it when I read books so I can't. Class is getting so boring I want to read my book, I'm currently reading a romantic novel that is about 700 pages long. I looked at Brendon, who is sitting in front of me right now talking to-ugh Mackenzie, she has blonde perfect curls, perfect everything and she is the hottest and most popular girl in Blue Devils Highschool. She is a spoiled brat, her father is the town mayor, which explains why she is spoiled so much. But sometimes, I feel like she feels lonely. Like she has a side of her no one knows about. She has a bunch of friends, but are they real friends? I don't know, I don't think so. They all just want to be friends with her because she is pretty and popular. All people care about these days. No one cares unless you're pretty or dying. She is really mean and she bullies me a lot. And by a lot, I mean a lot. Mackenzie has hated me since middle school, the reason was so f*cking stupid, I cringe by just remembering why she hates me so much. In middle school, Mackenzie was the most popular girl at school, same as now, and believe it or not, we were best friends. Yup. That's right, I said best friends. Anyways, this one day, she was talking to her crush, she dropped one of her books accidentally-on-purpose, so he could pick it up for her and she can touch his hand. So when she dropped her book and being a good friend, that I am, I picked it up before he could. It's not my fault he barely noticed the book fall, it seemed like he didn't even notice Mackenzie was there. So then Mackenzie got so mad that I "ruined" her chances with him. After that she made mean rumors about me and sh*t, so we went our own ways, she just became more popular and popular every day,and I just became a loner, and would go to the auditorium and read there alone. One day, I met Becky and Ella in this library club. And we became best friends! I'm so thankful for them, I don't know what I would have done without th- "MISS GRACES!? how many times did I have to ask you to answer my question?!" Mr.Jake screamed. "Sorry, sir... I-" I was cut off by Mackenzie saying"Someone's been daydreaming about her non-existent boyfriend" and starts laughing her ass off. "It's so pathetic how she just daydreams all day about finding her true love when she knows she won't ever find a guy who likes her, I mean look at her-ugh" Mackenzie continued, making the whole class start laughing. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream. I knew this wasn't the worst thing she has done, but I hated it. I hated attention, especially this type, I get paranoid really easily, and don't like it when everyone is pointing and laughing at me. I mean how the hell was what Mackenzie said even funny? I could feel my face heat up as I see Brendon turn around. Laughing. He was laughing at me... A tear streamed down my face, as I got up and ran out of the class and started running faster towards the bathroom. I go into a cubicle and the tears bursts out of my eyes, I was so hurt...Brendon was laughing at me! I was used to all the humiliation but Brendon laughing just hit me hard. I felt like digging a hole in the ground and dying. I wanted to stay in the cubicle and cry all day, why is my life so miserable...I didn't do anything to deserve this. Actually, who am I kidding everything is my fault. It's all my fault... Do it, Emma. You know you miss us. Do it now. You f*cking deserve it. I shook my head, trying to get rid of the voices. It's been over a year. Not going to start over. I stayed here all period probably 2 periods reading, even though my eyes were swollen a bit it wasn't gonna stop me from reading. Then someone knocked on the cubicle door and a head poked in under, it was Ella. Becky knocked again and said"Emma open the door it's us, Becky and Ella"It was obviously them since I saw Ella's head poke under the door which made me yelp. I opened the door, and as soon as I did, I could feel arms around me, and I felt safe, but I was still hurt. Then after like 51 straight minutes, they let go and asked: "what's wrong, girl, what happened?" "Mackenzie happened.. when will she leave me alone.. oh And you know Brendon? He was laughing too"And I burst into tears again. Ella put a hand on my back and started rubbing my back saying"oh hun, it's gonna be OK....atleast he noticed you?..."Well, she has a point, it's like the first time he looked directly at me, but I didn't want it to be in this way, he was still laughing at me. "I'm gonna karate chop that stupid piece of sh*t"Becky blurted out, blowing her hair out of her face. And then looks at me, like she is asking me if I'd allow her to do so. Before I could answer, she stormed out of the girl's bathroom and probably went to Brendon, he would think I'm stupid if she does anything stupid...I really hope she doesn't get me even more embarrassed, but I'm so lucky to have such amazing best friends. "This won't be good," I tell Ella. She nods, knowing what Becky is capable of. -------------------------------------- Soooo, how'd you guys like it? I know it sucks but I promise it will get better in a few chapters... Vote and Comment! -Sarah