Scars will heal

Chapter 8

Ariana's P.O.V

As Nate leaves I notice the mark on Effies neck “Oh my goddess Effie he marked you, did you guys you know?” I ask, her face goes beet red, “No but I think if you had been any longer you might have walked in on so much more” she says covering her face, I can't help but laugh “Effie he controlled himself, that's amazing I know how much he's suffered being around you and now he controlled it” I say gobsmacked and thrilled all in once, she nods and smiles “Yeah he said it was different, like the craving was for something else now” the embarrassment in her face is so amusing but I decide to change the subject. “Do you want your present off me?” I ask her wiggling my eyebrows, she smiles clearly grateful “Oh yes please” I pass her the large box she rips the silver wrapping paper away and opens it up, “Oh Ari it's beautiful” she gasps, I brought her a amethyst dress that will match her necklace perfectly, it's a 1950's style which I know she feels more comfortable in compared to the figure hugging ones I usually make her wear.

“So go try it on” I say, she pulls it on immediately and honestly she looks so beautiful “Wow perfect for a goddess” I say, bowing my head, she giggles lightly “Thank you Ari” she squeaks pulling me into a hug, “Well what's happening with you and dragon boy?” she asks smiling like a Cheshire cat catching me slightly off guard “Well he's not a stranger any more as such but I'm still finding it hard to trust him completely, even if everything he has said so far has been with honesty, he showed me yesterday he can be gentle and he isn't as dominant as I originally thought, he even let me ride him whilst he flew us back to the pack house, things got a bit steamy and then he said he was leaving he's staying at a hotel something about not imposing on my privacy” I say, “I don't know how to feel about him or about him being my fated mate it's all so confusing, being bound to someone that you don't know for the rest of your life, my fey and demon side are pushing him away whilst my Lycan desires him” I admit “Well I heard gramps say there waiting until after Nate's birthday in a few weeks before travelling to Peru, just give him a chance. Get to know him more you've got to eventually lower that wall your holding up Ari and let someone in, I'm your best friend and know you better than anyone you close yourself off from everyone to protect yourself” she says with an understanding look in her face.

I left Effie to enjoy her day with her parents before going back later to get ready for the party, I let her words sink in, I do close myself off I know it's because of my fey and demon side but how do I lower it. I decide to teleport to the hotel he's staying at, maybe talking with him more will help. I take a deep breath before knocking on the door, I hear his voice from the other side “Hang on” I bite my lip feeling nervous I hate this alien feeling why and how does he do this, he gets rid of my confident side and melts me. He opens the door wearing a shocked look on his face “Ariana, what are you?, come in” he says smiling, opening the door he's stood there in just a towel, water dripping down from his hair rippling down his chest “I'm sorry, I didn't have your number to call, did I disturb you?” I ask, trying my hardest not to look down “No of course not, I'm glad you came” he steps closer as he says it stroking his fingers through my hair, being this close whilst he's only wearing a towel is clouding my judgement drastically I'm holding on to self control by a thread, his scent is driving me crazy and the electricity makes my skin feel like its igniting, I can no longer stop myself I close the gap and kiss him, his lips are soft and addictive they make me feel giddy his hands skim across my skin delicately sending delicious waves of passion through my body.

He pulls me closer and my hands start to caress his chest, I want him so much but am I ready for this, I don't know but I don't care the way he makes me feel is insane, our kiss turns savage and I feel him lifting me with his arms. I can't help but stroke them too, every part of his body is sculpted and I feel like I'm crumbling, he lays me down on his bed and I can't pull away this magnetic attraction is crazy, his hair is so soft and the kisses he's leaving makes me want to cry out his name, well until he pulls away and speaks “Ariana, we can slow this down if you want? I want to get to know you properly” he announces whilst breathing heavily, I don't know how to answer him I feel like I'm past the point of return I want him, doesn't he want me? I stare into his dark orbs and any words I wanted to use evaporated. Embarrassment has a grip over me now, I panic and teleport out from underneath him without another word.

I'm lay on my bed with my hands over my face, I can still feel the lingering sparks on my skin, his taste on my lips, his smell on my clothes. I feel so overwhelmed and embarrassed, I made a complete fool of myself this is what I was scared of tears slowly start to cascade down from my eyes. I act so cold an confident, my aura intimidates everyone yet when I'm with him I feel vulnerable, how can one person make me feel like this? It's terrifying how much my body reacts to his touch. “Selene? What the hell is going on, why do we feel this way?” I ask my Lycan, “Mate's special Ari, he wants us too! he knows you don't trust him yet, that you were questioning yourself if it was too soon” she says, “I can't help that though Selene I don't even trust myself” I say, I can literally feel her eye rolling me she's probably the only one I trust apart from Nate, “Nate that's it I need to go speak to my brother” I say to Selene, I focus on my brother's location and teleport to him, he's sat in mom's favourite spot “what brings you here Ari?” he asks as I sit down, “I need some big brother advice Natty” I say, he opens his arms and embraces me in a hug “What's up?” he asks whilst I'm cuddled up to him “It's Allaric, I went by the hotel and things got a bit, well you know, he said we could slow down an I didn't know how to react so I” he cut me off “You teleported out of there huh” he says, smiling “yeah I just, well it's just” he cuts me off again “You panicked and It's hard to pull away from him?” he says, “Okay are you going to finish all of my sentences?” I say getting irritated by him “I'm sorry Ari but it's so you, as soon as something gets confusing or complicated you freeze and close yourself off” he says, I pull back out of the hug, “I do don't I, I'm just scared Nate” he kisses the top of my head “I know how you feel, just be honest with him, he probably already feels it through the mate bond anyway” he says, jogging my memory “Which reminds me, you marked Effie and you controlled yourself, I'm so proud of you” I say he smiles before laughing “I know yeah it's insane, I feel so connected to her now even when I'm not with her” he says, it makes me think about Allaric I hope he's not too disappointed that he's paired with me.

"Ari?" I look up to Nate's face "Yeah?" his face looks a bit contorted "why did you go with dad to the underworld earlier? Are you planning on taking over from him some day?" he asks, I shake my head "no I have no interest in that position, I went because I have been training with a high level demon as you know not many people can beat me in a fight and a lot are too intimidated by me to train with me at all, the only problem is that Voltroz is attracted to me too, I have to turn my aura up to max to get him to back down that's why dad comes with me for my protection" he stiffens from my words and I can feel a surge of anger flood through him "Natty don't let anger consume you it will do your path no good that's why I didn't tell you, your very protective over me but now you need to concentrate on Effie okay" I say sternly to him after a few short seconds he relaxes. Nate's not an aggressive person but when his temper clouds his judgement he is scarier than most demons I've met. Voltroz has had a crush on me for years and what many people don't know is I did like him too a few years ago, until one day I went for training and found him balls deep in a siren he tried to say she manipulated him for s*x which she may have done but It made it clear to me then that he wasn't the one for me, Someone so weak that can be driven by the sirens song is not strong enough to stand by my side. He tried to force himself on me more and more after that although he hadn't acted on it my dad noticed it too so he began coming with me for my training to ensure my safety, he's one of his best warriors so it makes sense that he trains me but if he steps a millimetre out of line my dad will end him for me. This is another reason I struggle to trust Allaric he claims to want to be my mate but is he another guy that will tempted by a sirens song?

Effie's party is in less than an hour and I'm with her in her room helping her get ready “You went all out huh” she says, eyeing my outfit. I decided on a tight fitting black leather skirt and a red see through blouse with black underwear and red strapped high heels, “Well the princess of the underworld has a reputation to uphold you know" I say smirking "Don't worry you will still look like the bell of the ball” I say winking at her, I'm only dressed this way to keep as many people as possible away from me it usually works. She looks amazing in her amethyst dress, I've pinned her hair half up half down with loose curls, her make up is light an neutral but still a little smokey “Now c'mon let's get you to this party!”

We enter the big hall and everyone's already there, Nate looks like the breaths been knocked out of him seeing Effie and I can understand why, she looks beautiful. I push out my aura to keep everyone away from me even though I'm getting glares from a lot of wolves and a handful of demons Voltroz being one of them. I roll my eyes and make my way to the bar “Rum and coke please” I ask Cami who gramps has hired for the night “Sure thing princess” she says, I sit myself down on the bar stool keeping my aura going as I am not in the mood for idiots tonight. I feel a dark presence and know its my dad “Hey dad” I say without turning around “Can you please turn your aura down Ari your scaring the wolves, and don't drink too much” he says, I roll my eyes and face him.

“Why does it matter how much I drink I can't get drunk anyway” he doesn't say anything else on that subject and I turn my aura down a tad “Don't you think your outfit says enough?” he says, I click my tongue “What's wrong with my outfit?” I ask a bit annoyed “Ari you look intimidating, there's really no need for the aura honestly” he says smirking, “Fine but you were the one who told me to use it to fend people off” I say shrugging “Who exactly are you trying to fend off?” he asks with his speculating look, I feel my cheeks blush “Oh” he says reading my expression “I thought you liked him?” he asks, “Dad it's complicated, and I really don't want to discuss it with you, I've already spoke to Nate” I say, “Ari I'm sure Nate didn't tell you to switch your aura onto mega drive” he says, “No he didn't but I can't help it okay, now can we skip my love life please, it's a party” I say, he kisses my forehead and walks away.

I get back to drinking my rum and coke, I watch Effie with envy she's so lucky to have someone she's knew all her life and she doesn't struggle to make friends. Every one loves her, I can't blame them she's truly amazing, understanding, caring and easy going. I'm the dark b***h that everyone struggles to understand, I know my aura doesn't help but I'm past caring. I feel light sparks tracing my shoulder and I know it's Allaric, I turn to face him “You left in a hurry earlier” he says, lust still evident in his eyes, that's a look I am all too used to everyone who sees me gives me these glances I don't want lust. I roll my eyes at him “Yeah I left my straighteners on” I say sarcastically, he grabs my hand and looks into my eyes “Ariana, why do you do that?” he asks, “Do what Allaric?” I say looking away from his gaze “You push people away, you do realise your aura doesn't effect me, if anything it lures me in more” he says, kissing my hand “Fine, I didn't know how to answer you so instead of staying and calming it down I left okay” I say before downing my drink and walking away from him.

I go outside to get some fresh air as it's too stifling in there right now, I lean against the wall and take deep breaths trying to calm myself. Allaric walks out and rests his hands either side of me boxing me in, “Allaric, I don't want to talk, I figured you would guess that from me walking away from you” I say annoyed by his presence, “Fine don't talk, Just listen, I get you don't trust me yet and that's why I can't go any further with you, it doesn't mean I don't want you, trust me I really do want you especially when you look like that, I'm not asking you to change who you are or to trust me just give me a chance” he says, his words take me by surprise my body is yearning for him, his touch, his taste “It's not just you I don't trust, I don't trust anyone including myself” I say, he lowers his one hand and strokes my faces rubbing my lips with thumb “It's a lonely life to live with no one to trust, closing yourself off to everyone” his gaze is locked on my lips for a moment and I know he's fighting the urge to kiss me.

I know because being this close to him is making me want him again “I don't know how to feel around you okay, your the only person that intimidates me and I'm not used to that feeling, I'm the intimidating one, I hate this feeling of letting myself loose control” I look back to his eyes and instead of lust I see admiration, “I won't ever hurt you Ariana, I feel the same way as you I have never let anyone see this softer side of me, the side of needing and wanting I really care about you, your fierce, confident, sassy and beautiful” I feel his words and I feel the magnetic pull to him again. I can't loose it here it's Effie's party, "Is this guy bothering you Ari?" a deep familiar voice asks, I look over my shoulder to see Voltroz I glare at him and grab Allaric's hand ignoring Voltroz “Come on let's go back to the party” I say pulling him along with me, Allaric growls at Voltroz and shoulder barges him aggressively I fight the smile that endangering my lips now that I have  someone else that wants to protect me from that moron.

When we get back into the party one of mine and Effie's favourite songs come on and our eyes find each other, giving me the perfect opportunity to escape for a while “ I'm Sorry I've got to go dance with Effie” I say leaving Allaric on the side lines, while grabbing Effie, we start singing and dancing pushing our hips to the beat of the music, this is what I live for and how I let myself go dancing feeling the music letting everything else disappear from around me. I meet Allaric's eyes he's smouldering and biting his lip which makes me laugh, I keep dancing with Effie but after three more songs we both break to go get a drink we make our way to the bar and I see Nate and Allaric deep in conversation, “You better not be discussing business at a party boys” I say giving them my death glares, Nate ignores me and turns to Effie grabbing them a drink and leaving me and Allaric alone again.

“I ordered you another rum and coke, you looked like you might need a drink after all that dancing” wearing a smirk on his lips, “Thanks” I say taking the straw into my mouth “Your a good dancer, you looked happy out there” I smile at his compliment “It's a way of loosing myself, letting the music wash away all my troubles” his stir intensity's “You really don't realise how sexy you are do you?” he says making me swallow hard, I can feel the heat rising again “Do you dance?” I ask trying to take the conversation away from me, “Not really but I'm sure you could teach me” putting a hand on my hip, I grab his other hand and pull him towards the dance floor. I notice the lustful glares from wolves and demons alike but Allaric pays no attention to any of them concentrating on me and me alone, I keep his hands on my hips and start to dance guiding him, he picks it up quickly and before I know it were dancing together in sync. His hands skimming my skin sends tingles through out goosebumps cover every inch of my body, the dance is becoming sexier and I can feel the temperature rising within me.

It doesn't matter who's at the party now because all I can concentrate on is this connection with Allaric, we laugh, I sing, dance and just get lost in each other's movements. He spins me around and now I'm facing away from him but I can feel his hard chest on my back I keep his hands wrapped around my waist, pushing my hips more, I can feel his excitement bulging into my back but he's keeping up with my movement. I lift my head surprised by it and find his lips waiting for me and I begin kissing him intensely, he stirs something from deep within and it makes my body ache, I'm starting to feel breathless and it's not because of the dancing something else is taking over now it feels raw.

Without warning I teleport us back to his hotel room the kiss becomes deeper, I feel his tongue roaming my mouth. I turn to face him and rip his shirt away from him caressing his abs and chest, I feel myself getting more impatient I want more of him, he's driving me crazy. His hands in my hair pulling me closer, we pull away breathless, “Are you sure this is what you want?” he asks before I pull him back in smiling into his lips “Will you shut up and just kiss me” I say, pulling his shirt away from him completely. I can feel my clothes being pulled away from me aggressively and I am finally getting the skin on skin contact I longed for but it's not enough I need more moaning lowly into his mouth, he lifts me up and carries me to the bed for the second time today. I feel his kisses trailing down my neck and the feeling within intensifies more, his one hand is roaming my body leaving sparks skimming across my erected n*****s, whilst the other is keeping my head in place. I can't control myself any more and my body takes over pulling at his body guiding him where I want him.

I can feel the pressure building up between us but this has to be safe, “do you have protection?” I ask feeling a bit embarrassed, he opens the drawer of the dresser and pulls something out, he continues kissing me but the kisses had become hungrier, he moves down my body and I can feel myself becoming more excited by his actions, I feel him kissing and licking at my folds and nub, his mouth felt insane on my sweet spot a loud moan leaves me as I reach my first orgasm! My body is on fire, he pulls away from my core and I see him messing with the wrapper, getting a look at his instrument I couldn't tear my eyes away from his size it worried me a bit but before I could over think it our bodies finally connected, he gives me a moment to adjust to his size. My bodies quivering all over already and I don't want this feeling to stop, we resume kissing and his taste is something I will never be able to get enough of, this feeling between us makes me so glad we have forever. He picks up his pace the thrusts become more desperate searching for the spot to make me loose it, every thrust more delicious than the last, waves of pleasure surging through my body, every touch, kiss and thrust pushing me closer to the edge before I can't take it any more I can feel my climax building before the explosion takes over I scream out loudly, I've never felt anything so amazing in my life, as I tighten around him I feel him spasm, hearing his guttural growl and he follows me riding out this wave of pleasure together.

I stay in his embrace once we've cleaned ourselves up, lay on his chest hearing his heart beating I can't believe I lost myself like that. What is it about him that does this to me, but as I raise my head to reach his eyes I realise, It's his eyes, his perfect smile. The dark mysterious demeanour he carries with him, I think I'm starting to loose myself in him “Are you okay?” he asks, “Yeah I feel better than I think I ever have” I say his smile spreads across his face “Ariana, I think you may be my new addiction” his eyes are saying it all and I know I will never be able to be without him again. I'm so glad I waited for my fated mate, I'm positive no one else could ever make me feel this way.