Scars will heal

Chapter 1

Nates P.OV

“Nate are you ready for training?” shouts my gramps, I nod trying to refocus yet all that's on my mind is her! “Yeah sorry gramps I was distracted by my own thoughts” I can see from his face he is well aware of my thoughts ”Is there a certain young lady that has you distracted?” asks gramps with a small smile, he knows me too well, we talk a lot and he knows that I'm paired and deeply in love with Effie, yet I still can't help but blush by his comment “It's getting more difficult to concentrate gramps” I don't know how I'm going to continue with this torture, “I know sunshine don't worry, It can't be easy with so much going on in your head as it is. Trust me it will become clear in a few days once she's turned eighteen” he says confidently. I can't help but think he is wrong, what if it doesn't and gets worse? What if I hurt her, or worse kill her? He notices the turmoil on my face “Oh Nate I know your worried about the thirst, but don't underestimate yourself your stronger than you think” I force a smile and nod, I don't know what will happen, but for now some hard core training will sort that out.

We make our way out of the pack house and start with a run, I shift into my Lycan Izaek he's bigger than any other I have seen he's white with flecks of purple and grey. Feeling the earth shifting under the weight of my gigantic paws is probably one of the best sensation's I have yet to face, my mom used to try and describe it when I was a curious child and I still never imagined it to be this exhilarating, I hunt in this form as well to get my blood fix it makes me feel like less of a monster and more of a force of nature. Izaek is a peculiar Lycan I guess the moon goddess matched us well he is less impulsive than me and he holds me back from myself when the lust for blood takes over. I know most Lycan's and wolf's alike are usually more dominant especially when it comes to there mate, they can't wait to surface an mark what's theirs where as Izaek has been my strength to hold myself back, I feel like I'm his inner monster.

Once we have ran for an hour we shift back into our human form, I don't have to worry about getting redressed as for some reason I never shift back naked. I know a lot of wolfs are jealous of that because they get embarrassed when they shift around me. “Nate were going to work on your hand to hand combat today, let's see if we can get a rise out of that fey of yours” he says smirking “Good luck gramps” I say, my fey felix is reserved it takes a lot to offend him. Were also a lot faster, due to my vampire blood and my oracle side there isn't anything I have faced so far that beats me in speed. Each punch or kick my gramps throws I anticipate it easily “My turn” a stern voice shouts, I turn to see my mom, she is faster than gramps as she has the oracle blood too it helps us when accessing our opponent “finally someone that might be a challenge, sorry gramps” I say laughing, most wolfs hate training but I love it, it's always been so fun especially when my parents join in. I fight with them all as each of there abilities increase the capability of mine, even Ariana will train with me, yet being a demon she cheats by teleporting away to get a sly jab in.

Although my mom is fast she's still quite slow compared to me, “I might call for your dad, he can back me up” she shouts as she kicks low trying to take my balance I side step her kick with ease “I don't mind trying to fight you all” I say trying to get a rise out of my mom, her fey has calmed down a lot since killing hundreds of vampires, although she doesn't talk about what happened before I was born, I know  that letting her fey take over cost her greatly. Ariana appears out of no where and tickles me and my mom manages to land a punch, I was about to regain my composure when Effie comes running to catch up to Ariana. I completely lost focus once her scent invaded my nose and my mom noticed that too, she took advantage and managed to pin me. Whilst held under her she whispers sternly “natty you need to concentrate, I know it's hard but you need to shut out the distractions when fighting it could get you killed” I tap out wanting to scurry away from Effie before I loose my control.

My mom stands up and I run as fast as I can, I can't make eye contact with Effie she is my weakness, everything becomes blurred when she's around, maybe it's because every part of me wants her I don't know. The world speeds up and all I can hear is her heart beat drumming through my head, I can see her blood flowing through her veins and my throat feels so raw it could split from within, I do worry that running every time she is near will result in her wanting to reject me and as painful as the thought is, I can't help it I love her so much but I want her blood running through my own veins too the thought excites me but haunts me at the same time.

Tonight is going to be difficult because Ariana is having a girly night out with Effie and she's staying over night. After showering from training I find myself sat in the living room watching some random programme on the television, to try and take my mind off it all. I sense darkness and I know it's my dad “Hey Nate are you okay? You don't seem yourself lately, do you have anything you want to talk about” he asks with a look of concern on his face, I take a deep breath and check the room to make sure no one is around to over hear our conversation, “dad it's getting harder to control the thirst, Effie's staying over night with Ariana and I'm not sure I'm strong enough to control myself” I say feeling disappointed, my dad puts his hand on my shoulder “Son before me and your mother were together she had another mate, it broke me every day to see her with someone else but I knew your mother was safe with him. I had to control myself every time I saw her I never wanted anybody so much and it tore me apart” he said and I could see the emotions in his eyes “dad it's not just a crush, or even just love, I'm craving her blood” I say looking down to the floor feeling ashamed “she smells too good to me and that's why I can't be around her, what if I hurt her?” I say shame rippling off my body, I'm immortal but she is not.

Noticing how much I'm torturing myself he asks “What do you need?” a serious look on his face “teleport me away somewhere, anywhere away from her” I say practically begging, he narrows his eyes for a moment in thinking “what if I take you to the under world? There are people there we can trust to keep you safe and hidden, until you have tapped into all of your powers” he says, and as tempting as it is to go to the underworld to escape all this I can't do that. The underworld is full of demons, temptations. Yes my dad is the king of them but there's too much darkness there what if I let it consume me. I have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that I won't tap into the right powers if I go there “Lock me in my room dad” I say, he looks at me sceptically ready to say something else but before he can finish, our conversation is interrupted by Ariana and Effie. “Hey Nate, you okay?” Effie asks but I'm frozen solid, I can't even lift my eyes to meet her. She doesn't understand her scent is driving me crazy, I want to take her so bad. All I can do is nod my head and leave the pack house running to the clearing.  

I shift into Izaek, I hide within him here she is safe “we won't hurt her Nate, she is precious to us” he says, I don't agree “she's not safe around me Izaek I crave her blood what if I can't stop and kill her” I say, he growls from my response “I won't let you, I can take control and stop you” he says, I just can't take the risk I love her too much, I run until my paws are sore. I finally stop by the stream, "what if I let you take the reins? stay in Lycan form and she will be safe?" I question but Izaek doesn't respond. I lay down in the water to cool myself down a bit trying to rid myself of the lustful thoughts, nodding off into a peaceful sleep.