Scars will heal

Chapter 2

Effie's P.O.V

Why does he always leave me feeling deflated, I love him! Who wouldn't his Amethyst eyes sparkle and there so beautiful, he has curly blonde hair that I want to run my fingers through, it looks like it's been spun with gold. He's tall and muscular and I just want to be close to him. Yet he pretends I don't exist, he's always so cold towards me I know he's a god and he probably feels I am beneath him. Yet I try speaking to him and he doesn't even make eye contact he just nods and takes off, what's wrong with me? When we were children he would play with me and Ariana now he just takes off whenever I'm around, it's been going on for years. I remember the first time he run away from me was when I grazed my knee falling off the climbing frame when I was six, I know blood is a huge temptation to him but he manages to be around all his family, even my mom and dad and it doesn't seem to bother him, so it can't be that. Ariana tells me he has a crush on me but with how he acts like I'm just some crap on his shoe, it's highly doubtful. As he takes off uncle Faiban walks towards me and sighs “I'm sorry about that Effie, he's dealing with a lot of personal conflicts at the moment try giving him some space” he says with a sad smile. I nod trying to hold back the tears that are filling my eyes, it breaks my heart a little bit more every time he leaves.

“Come on it's a girls night out, let's go get ready” Ariana says grabbing my hand, she teleport us upstairs before the dam breaks unleashing the tears I have held back, I crumble to my knee's “Ari what's wrong with me?, I know I don't hold the same power as he does but I'm a hybrid too isn't that enough?” I say with my vision blurred from the water within them, Ariana moves closer to me and hugs me tight,“There's nothing wrong with you Effie” she says, stroking my hair trying to calm me down but I feel like I could sit and cry forever with how my heart feels. She let's go of me and smiles lightly “Getting blind drunk will cheer you up, let's get ready” she says, pulling out clothes from her closet, “this will look hot on you, show my dumb ass of a brother what he's missing” she says with a smirk and a wink, I grab the dress it's a tight fitting teal dress that will show my cleavage, I try the dress on and it hugs my curvy figure, she nods her head “come on lets sort your hair and make up”. Ariana does my eyes to match the dress and it makes the blue in my eyes pop, she loose curls my dark hair and it flows down my back elegantly. I decide on black strapped heels and some dark accessories. Looking at myself I feel a bit apprehensive of wearing this out to the club I hate drawing attention to myself. Ariana is much more used to it, she's wearing a short red, backless dress that skims the top of her bra, her dark eye make up and bright red lipstick makes her look dominating. She often intimidates others and they leave her be only bothering her with sly glances, which is what she prefers.

“Ready?” she says, not bothering with going downstairs to show her parents what outfit she decided on. “Okay fine let's go” I say in a annoyed tone. I'm not really in the mood for dancing but a few drinks might make me feel a bit better. We find ourselves stood outside of a demon club called flames, as soon as the bouncer sees Ariana he ushers her forward she grabs my hand dragging me in along side her. “Hey Diante great to see you again, how is my favourite guy?” she asks him in a flirtatious tone, putting her hand on his shoulder and squeezing it lightly. Lust evident in his eyes he answers her “You know Ari just keeping busy, I'm so much better seeing you here looking like that” looking her up and down and giving her a whistle, Ariana pecks him on the cheek “such a charmer Diante” she says as she waves whilst we enter the club. Once inside we both rush to the bar “Six shots of tequila please Cami” Ariana shouts to the bar tender and for once I'm only to relieved to down the sour liquid that burns “Can we get two double rum and cokes too please” I ask Cami politely, she nods and gets to fixing our drinks “You okay? Or is my brothers arrogance still bothering you?” she asks with questioning eyes “I'm fine just in the mood to get blind drunk for a change and make some bad decisions. It was after all your idea” I say with a devious look in my eyes. Ariana doesn't question it further and we both enjoy smashing through several drinks. 

After a few more rounds at the bar my heads starting to feel fuzzy and I'm in the mood to dance, I drag Ariana to the dance floor not that it ever takes much persuading, we both move to the music laughing whilst dancing I can feel the heated gazes on us but I really don't care I'm getting lost in the music and drowning out reality we push our hips to the beat and throw our arms around each other moving sexily our co-ordination is spot on as we move in sync, two men decide to try join us dancing the one is really tall and takes quite a liking to Ariana she teases him for a bit before rejecting him, the other guy is well built but not my type he puts his hands on my waist trying to pull me towards him but soon got the idea when I shot him a look and Ariana told him I have a mate already and I wasn't interested, she pushes her aura up a notch and his eyes dart from me to Ariana and he puts his hands up and backs away from us leaving us both in fits of laughter.

We decide to sit outside with another round of tequila, plus our rums and coke. “Talk to me Effie” Ariana says moving her body forward wearing a concerned look on her face “It's nothing honestly Ari, I was just in the mood to let my hair down” I say trying to cover up my disappointment, she moves back and starts shifting uncomfortably and fidgeting with her hands “I know my brother wouldn't like me discussing this with you” she says with an unreadable expression on her face “but I can't stand you being in pain like this, it's him he's struggling, uh it's the blood, well erm it smells” she looks down from my gaze and rubs the back of her neck, she's usually so calm and collected but now she's a mumbling mess “It smells sweet to him, yours actually, you see he's scared Effie” she says, I look towards her confused not understanding what he's so scared of, he's immortal so what is the issue.

Slurring my words a bit “what's he so scared of Ari? huh” I ask, she looks at me an sighs “Its you Effie your his, his mate, he's scared of hurting you, he's well erm okay don't tell him I told you this please” she says with her eyes begging me, wait is she drunk his mate? Me? “I won't” I say needing to know what she's trying to get at “he's in love with you, I can see it in his aura when he's around you” she says, and I'm left speechless, he's my mate? he loves me? What really? How can he love me? I'm just a hybrid he's a god! Plus he's so cold towards me “Ari, you must be drunk he can't love me, I can't be his mate” I say feeling conflicted myself now “no Effie I'm not that drunk, he's talked to me about this” she says looking into my eyes, I feel like all the air has been knocked out of me, How can we be mates? How can he love me? But we can't be together because of his thirst for my blood, it's all too confusing.

Feeling annoyed and confused I ask “Can we go back to yours please?” I need to sober up if this is for real I am going to need to talk to Nate. Ariana grabs her drink and my hand moments later were back in her room, “I'm going to grab some water” I say, leaving her room I head downstairs towards there kitchen my heels making a light tapping sound on the marbled floor. I open the fridge and have to reach to the back to get the water, struggling to reach even with these heels on. An arm crosses my face and I'm handed a water, I turn around to be faced with glowing amethyst eyes that I could get lost in “Nate?” I look down trying to refocus “thanks” Ariana's words stuck in my head “You smell different” his deep voice makes the hairs stand on end “we've been out drinking, I erm needed water” I say still trying not to look into his eyes, yet I can feel his heated gaze upon me “you look, good in that dress” I feel like I'm talking to someone else, he's never complimented me before. I look up noticing the moonlight dancing off his intense stir I try and read his face is he playing me right now.

I immediately regret looking up at him, there are so many emotions running through them I just can't pin point any exactly well apart from disgust “what is it?” I ask him, “I can smell, it doesn't matter” he says and I can now clearly see rage, he walks away from me leaving me feeling worse than before I went out drinking. What have I done now? Ariana really is wrong about him I can see the anger in his eyes when ever he looks at me. That's not love, he despises me, if I am his mate he's probably getting ready to reject me. It hurts my wolf to feel this way and I can feel her whimpering from within.

I get back to Ariana's room and she's passed out fast asleep, she hadn't drunk her rum and coke she brought back from the club so I knock the drink back. I pull off the heels, slip the teal dress off and go to wash off my make up, looking at my face in the mirror and remembering his words I can't help but cry I keep my sniffles as low as possible I don't feel like explaining this to Ariana, she won't understand. She hasn't found her mate yet and she doesn't seem interested in any guys, she toys with them and then sends them running off with there tails between there legs. She's desirable to guys with her brown hair and dark brown eyes, her skins tanned and she has this confident aura surrounding her. I wish I was more like her, I just wish I could get Nate to look at me the way guys looked at Ariana even if it's just lust I would take what I can get. I tuck myself into Ariana's bed and try drifting off to sleep. “Are you okay Effie?” Asks my wolf Leviante “I don't know, I've loved him for what feels like forever, I fount out he could be our mate yet we can't have him” I say, “try sleep, we will get answers soon, were eighteen in a few days” she says and with that the alcohol I've consumed knocks me into a deep slumber.

Waking up the next morning I felt dirty and full of shame, my head was banging and my skull really felt like it was splitting. Every time I moved the room felt like it was spinning “hey sleeping beauty feeling a bit rough are we?” Ariana asks laughing at me, she runs her hand across my forehead before I can answer and takes away the hang over and the pain “Thanks I don't think I would leave this bed else” I say in groggy morning voice, Ariana has many powers one of which helps remove physical pain “Go take a shower and come down for breakfast” she says, I notice she's in fresh clothes and her hair is still a bit wet. As the door opens I see him walking past he stops for a second as Ariana opens the door, glancing at me for a moment I'm sure I see lust in his eyes or maybe my mind just wants to see that, I quickly cling to the bed sheets, Ariana scolded him “don't look into my room, she's only in her under wear you pervert” she says slapping him on the shoulder he didn't look amused at all by her comment and looked to the floor making me feel like giggling but i repress it.

Once the door was completely shut I got up out of bed making my way to Ariana's shower, the conversation with him last night filled my head, what did I smell like to him? Did it make him feel uncomfortable or was he really disgusted by me? Wait what was the lust look about? I don't know what the next few days have in store for me but I really need something to distract me from him. It's so hard every time I'm around him now, butterfly's used to flurry in my stomach. Now it's like a swarm of bees trying to escape, the buzz of electricity between us is making me feel anxious. I am constantly trying to see even an ounce of interest from him for me but he shows nothing, if we really are mate's his poker face is the best I have ever seen.

I finish up my shower and throw on the lounging clothes Ariana has left out for me, it would be a crop top and shorts. I sigh looking at my reflection, does she do this on purpose to parade me around Nate? She said they talk and she knows how he feels about me, does that mean he knows how I feel? Embarrassment washes over me, what if he knows how I feel and she's trying to persuade him into liking me? that would be awful. I take a hold of my head and give myself a shake, before I leave her room and head towards the kitchen. Coffee and bacon greets my nose, gramps is an amazing cook and refuses to allow omega's into the pack kitchen as he enjoys feeding us all. He's always so nice to me as well, he treats me like a granddaughter too.

“Hey sleeping beauty is awake and greeting us with her presence” gramps says smiling at me making me laugh lightly “morning gramps” I say, noticing Nates sat at the dining table with us I try to sit as far away from him as possible and avoid his gaze. “Did you both have a good night last night? I hope you were sensible and safe” says gramps glaring at us both intermittently “Oh yeah we both danced our backsides off, my feet are still killing me” Ariana says looking at gramps with a pout “I hope you used your aura to force the boys away Ari” says gramps, she laughs at him “they wasn't as interested in me as they were our Effie, she let her hair down for a change” Ariana says smiling at me “I did not” I say in a muffled voice, Nate growled lowly slamming his hand into the marble counter before storming out of the pack house, I look at both gramps and Ariana with a questioning face. Yet they both just shrugged, Ari's made it sound like I was putting myself about, Nate's going to hate me more now.

I decide once I had my breakfast I was going to let Leviante out for a run and try clear my head. We walk into the forest and I strip off, feeling eyes gazing on me from a far, I search around but notice no one, I quickly shift into my wolf she is completely black with a white streak on the tip of one ear, we start running and for a little while I feel free, until we smell something that is out of place. “Rogues” I hear through the mind link I run following the smell, I'm a warrior wolf and it's my duty to help fend off the rogues, as I reach the clearing there's five rogues. Only one warrior is here with me at the moment and I don't hesitate in attacking, I bite down hard into a dark auburn wolfs shoulder, he whimpers in pain but I push my teeth down harder feeling his bones break under the pressure of my jaw.

I throw his body to the side and another warrior wolf appears and rips out his throat, whilst preparing to attack my second wolf I feel a sharp pain in my leg I growl as I turn around to see a grey wolf with his teeth sunk into my leg, as I whip round to bite him I see a pure white wolf with purple and silver flecks push him off me and pin him down before ripping out his throat and dirtying up his pretty fur coat. Several warrior wolfs have arrived now and all the rogues are dead, I look down to access my leg it's pretty deep so will take a while to heal. I decide to shift into my human form to allow my wolf to do her job, as I do I fall towards the ground but someone catches me, I look up to be met with amethyst eyes “I think it's broken” I say to him, looking down at my leg “I'm okay you don't need to stay” I say trying to move out of his arms but loosing my footing, he steadies me with his big hands, closes his eyes and takes a deep breath, whilst tightening his grip on me. He stands up pulling his t shirt off and pulls it over my head to cover me in his shirt. He lifts me up and carries me bridal style “I'll take you to the pack doctors he says” not looking down at me, I nod my head but don't speak again.

Whilst he's carrying me I try not to concentrate on the fact I'm being carried almost naked by my possibly fated mate that wants to drink my blood. I try not to rest my body against his too much although I want too, I don't know how painful this is for him. Yet he doesn't show it on his face, he looks hard as stone completely emotionless how is he doing that?. He carries me and I can feel faint sparks coming from the little contact I have with his skin, can he feel this as well? We get to the pack doctors, Ellie comes rushing towards me, “what happened Effie?” she asks, “Rogue attack I think her legs broken” he says answering for me.  

He places me down on the bed and leaves, I look to him but he doesn't turn around to look back at me. “What was that about?” Asks Ellie, “I don't really know” I say shaking my head, “Lets check this leg out” she says, within seconds Ariana is stood next to me “what the hell you go for a walk and end up in a rogue attack” she says glaring at me “how did you get here anyway? You better not of tried walking mrs and damaging yourself more you could of called for me I would of brought you here” she says rambling on so much she doesn't stop for air “Ari I'm okay, Nate brought me here” I say, she looks at me gobsmacked “he did?” she asks before a wide smirk appears on her face “and your wearing his shirt, he saw you naked” she says laughing, blood rushes to my cheeks, I'm so embarrassed I grab the closest thing to me and throw it at her “Oooh what a gentlemen” she says in a teasing tone, luckily Ellie came back and rushed her out, she needed to sedate me to break and reset my leg.

I don't know what time it is but when I open my eyes it's dark outside, I look down to my leg and it feels heavy and tingly at the same time “she put it in a cast once she reset it” a deep cool voice says, I try to sit up so I can see better, as I'm shifting up I feel tiny sparks under my arm, I look to him and his amethyst eyes are glowing in the dark room. Once I'm sat up he takes a seat on the chair by my bed “you came back?” I say confused, “I didn't actually leave” he says with an odd look on his face “I didn't expect you to be here of all people if I'm honest” I look down “I thought you hated me, especially after last night, disgust was written all over your face” I say sinking slightly trying to avoid his gaze “Hate you? No it's just, well it's complicated and the disgusted look was well, I could smell other men” he says and I can see the pain in his eyes “Other men? Huh about what Ariana said it wasn't like that, two guys they tried to dance with us before they were told straight” I notice his face go from angry to satisfied, “you don't need to be here if it's, if you don't want to be” I say not wanting him to feel he owes me anything “I want to be here, I needed to be” he looks uncomfortable “even if it's” he clenched his jaw and took a deep breath “it's hard” he admits I can feel a blush rushing to my cheeks remembering what Ariana had said about him. I nod as an awkward silence fills the room.

“Is it true your leaving when you turn twenty one?” I ask trying to make conversation, he nods his head “well yeah if I tap into the rest of my powers before then, I'm not sure if I want to go but I know I have to” sadness filling his eyes “You want to stay?” I ask feeling slightly surprised, “Yeah I fount my mate and I don't know if I'm ready to just leave her” he says, I look down Ariana said I was his mate but I don't think I should believe her, why would the moon goddess bless me with a god? “you have a mate?” I ask hoping he's not going to say it's someone else I'm not sure my heart would take it.

My face clearly gave away my feelings as his eyes meet mine and he smiles lightly “are you jealous Effie?” he asks with a cheeky smirk now on his lips, he's toying with me this is frustrating “No” I answer bluntly, I try to slide down the bed and roll over but this stupid leg won't let me, he walks to the side of my bed and helps me get into a comfortable position that's facing away from him, maybe he prefers not having to look at me I think to myself. A long silence fills the room an I'm not sure if he's still sat there until I hear his deep voice “your my mate” he says a smile sits across my face hearing those words, warmth fills my heart Leviante howls in my head “I am?” I ask with happiness in my voice, “you are Effie” he sighs, I try to shift to roll over to face him and as difficult as it is I manage it “you don't seem very happy about it” I say with anger now replacing the happiness that was there moments ago, offended and hurt by his sigh.

His amethyst eyes meet mine once again and I feel as though the anger is going to dissipate right away but he continues “I have so many emotions about being paired with you Effie, I don't even know where to begin”, Ariana was right yet I need to know why he feels many emotions. “Why so many emotions? Am I not good enough for you?” I find myself asking, “What? No I don't feel like that at all, I'm part vampire Effie and my lust for blood well it's becoming unbearable especially when I'm with you” he says, looking to the ground as if he's ashamed “It's a battle within, My Lycan desires you, I desire you but I also want to taste your blood. Effie I could hurt you even kill you and your worried about being good enough for me?” he looks annoyed and his tone seems so sharp. I feel so stupid I don't try to ask anything else and just stay quiet we both do for a while until I fall to sleep.