I'd messed up a lot in my life , done some stupid f*****g things. But nothing like that. I can't think now how it even happened. She was talking to me about how she always thought Nikki was taking things too far, she told me she knew about some of the things. But not all of the things Nikki had done or planned to do. The next thing we were kissing. I don't know who made the first move. We were just talking one minute, kissing the next.
When I'd seen Maya standing there , I knew I'd f****d up. Like the most f****d up I'd ever f****d up and I'd been hammered at school , and got kicked out, now I'd hurt her again. She had looked at me like she didn't know who the f**k I was. I didnt know who the f**k I was. I knew this wasn't my burden , this shouldn't still feel so heavy on my shoulders.
