Above And Beyond

[It was a Saturday morning, it was bright beautiful and peaceful, I left my house early to go for Bible study, I was glad I left early, because I was supposed to be the one to lead prayers] [After 2 hours later, I greeted each and everyone of the members and left] [I stood outside the building waiting for Joshua to pick me up] [After waiting for almost 10 mins, he arrived] Joshua: Just get in, and let's go [His expression looked like he was irritated] Me: Is everything alright Joshua: None of your business [His voice grew a little louder] Me: I only asked a question Joshua: Shut up and let me concentrate Me: If you don't want me to sit in your car, just tell me so I can leave [He looked at me and stopped the car] Joshua: You wanna go? Me: No I said if you don't want me to sit in your car, I'll go [He laughed at me] Joshua: You really are naive Me: I'm not Joshua: If you wanna go..go Me: Is that what you want Joshua: Baby do you think I care? Me: So you don't care? Joshua: Pretty much [He looks forward] Joshua: The door is right there if you wanna leave..leave [ I was already exhauseted and alI I wanted was to go home] [Silence] [Sigh] Me: Let's just go [He laughs loudly and continues driving] [The whole ride was silent] [We were getting a closer to where I lived] [I broke the silence and asked him a question] Me: Do you really love me? [I look at him] [He slowed down a bit] Joshua: What kind of question is that, if I didn't love you, you wouldn't be with me Me: Do you? Joshua: What do you think? Me: That you don't Joshua: Why Me: You treat me like I'm not worth, and you act like I'm being a nuisance to you, and you never say you love me when I say I love you, are you really a Christian [He turns to me in anger] Joshua: Who do you think you are to ask me such question, is it because I take care of you that you think you can do whatever you like, You are nuisance, and you don't deserve love from anyone, Just take a look at yourself before and now, if it hadn't been for me.. [I bite my lips and held back my tears] Me: You don't love me [Silence]u Me: Is that how you treat someone you love, is that what the Bible says you should do, if you really are a Christian why don't you act like it.. [He slams his hand at the window] Joshua: Look I am Christian, and I love you very much, and I want the best for you, I'd hate to see you weak, so I try to train you to be strong and i- Me: But you aren't my parent, and I'm not a child, what do you take me for