No Hope

XII - Scars

"her hand is moving"

"no it's not Oscar"

"yes it is Stephen"

"Oscar enough. it's not"

"Stephen you didn't even look at her hand"

"yes i did"

"no you did not"

"Oscar, enough"

"but she is awake"

"Oscar i will shoot yo-"

"yes, my hand is moving Stephen, there is no need to shoot the poor kid" i said without opening my eyes. and as soon as i opened my eyes and i tried to raise myself up, i screamed in pain. Oscar and Stephen rushed in my way.

"No kid, lay back down" Stephen said and he helped me to lay back down. the pain was like i am on fire.

"what happened?" i asked, then i gritted my teeth in pain. why is it so painful?

"you we're stabbed kid" Stephen said and the pain started disappearing slowly.

"at least i am still alive" i said. Stephen and Oscar both laughed. why does everyone laugh at things that i am being serious about?.

"everyone on deck is waiting for you, everyone is proud to have you as one of us" Oscar said and i gave him a weak smile. you mean that they no longer want to kill me?.

"then, help me to stand up" i said as i tried to get up, Oscar was quick to gently pushed me down.

"no, you are not leaving this room until you recover" Oscar said and shot him a death look.

"Oscar, if i stayed in this room until i recover, we would all be dead" i said. i am being serious, it would take forever to fully recover.

"at least relax for a few" Oscar said and i started losing it slowly.

"Oscar, help me to stand up" i said and he just looked at Stephen to help him.

"kid-" Stephen started but i instantly cut him off, i hate repeating myself more than twice.

"Stephen, help me to get up. and don't discuss me about it" i angrily said and he rubbed his face. then he gave Oscar a look, then Oscar helped me to get up. as i stood on my feet, i avoided the pain in my stomach.

"see? i am fine. i can handle the pain" i said to Stephen. son of a bachelor, i am going to die from the bloody pain.

"yes, you can definitely handle such pain" Stephen said. he knows that i am lying. 

"where is the captain?" i asked. Oscar and Stephen just gave each other a dirty look.

"in his room" Oscar said before he winked at me. it took me a few moment's before i understood what he meant.

"go to hell" i said and he laughed out loud. then he grabbed my left arm and threw it over his shoulder, and he walked me out of the room. we slowly walked on the stairs, and i was talking small steps to make sure that i don't end up falling.

"take me to his room" i said as we reached the floor that had the captain's room in it. Oscar gave me the same dirty look, and i shot him a deadly look.

"ay ay" he said. and he helped me to walk to his room. and after a few moment's, i was standing in front of the captain's door. i don't know what am i doing here, but all i wanted is to see him. to see those beautiful deadly eyes. stop it Cecile.

"you can leave now, thank you" i said to Oscar, he smiled at me before he walked away. i took a deep breath before i knocked on the captain's door. and after a few moments, the door was pushed open. and there stood Elias, he was not wearing any piece of cloth to cover his upper body, only pants. and his shoulder was wrapped with a piece of cloth, and for the very first time, i saw his tattoo's that i didn't even know he had.

"you are awake" he said and i smiled at him and i opened my hands wide. you thought that i will die this easily? you thought.

"awake and alive" i said and he smiled, then he wrapped his arms around my waist and he pulled me closer to him. i was too shocked to hug him back. did this just really happen? did Elias just hug me? he just hugged me. Elias just hugged me. oh god.

after a few moments, i decided to break the barricade that was holding me back and i hugged him back. but after a few moments he broke the hug and i was disappointed for a second.

"how is your stomach?" he asked, and i looked down and before i had the chance to say anything, i realized that my clothes have been changed. no no no no no no, this means that someone saw my body, someone saw my scars.

"who changed my clothes?" i angrily asked, then i looked at Elias and he was looking away while rubbing the back of his head. he saw them.

"YOU UNDRESSED ME? WITHOUT MY PERMISSION?" i screamed and i noticed that he tried to hide his laugh.

"no thank you? no nothing?" he said. i angrily pushed him with my hands but he didn't even flinch. he looked at me with boredom in his eyes. we get Elias, you are strong, good for you.

"this is your strongest push?" he said, which made me more angry. he thinks that i am just joking.

"shut up" i said and then he laughed out loud. i was both mad and enjoying this.

"you saw my body without me even approving" i screamed and he started tearing up from laughing so hard.

"I AM BEING SERIOUS" i screamed, and he started laughing harder. i angrily folded my arms. then the sight of him laughing this hard made me happy, so i failed to hide the smile on my face.

"the look on your face" he said between laughs, i couldn't help but laugh out loud with him. and after we stopped laughing, we looked at each other and we started laughing again and harder. and after a few moment's we managed to stop laughing. i was about to say something but i was taken back from his deadly expression, did he just change from happy to mad in less than a second?.

"we need to discuss something" he seriously said. i didn't answer him, i just admired his body. Cecile, something is wrong and you are admiring his body? are you serious?.

"and i want you to be honest with me" he said. and when he said this, i instantly felt that something is really wrong.

"and don't lie to me Clay" he said. and i looked into his eyes as i waited for him to say something. this is not good. not the scars, not the scars.

"let's go inside" he said and he opened his door wider for me, he grabbed my waist and helped me to walk inside his room. he closed the door and he helped me to sit on his bed. and he was standing in front of me. 

"what happened to you?" he asked and i instantly felt my throat burn, because i understood what he meant.

"i don't understand you" i said and it was obvious that i am lying. he rubbed his jaw.

"don't act like you don't understand me Clay" he said and i tried my best to keep a straight face on.

"i am not acting, i seriously don't know what are you talking about" i said. stop lying to him Cecile, he will hate you more if you keep lying.

"the scars" he said. and i felt the walls close around me. i closed my eyes and i took a deep breath.

"i don't know what you are talking about" i whispered. and then he suddenly grabbed my chin with his rough hand and he raised my hand so i can look at him. i started breathing heavily.

"do you Clay? do you really don't know what i am talking about? because i can sense some lying" he said, then he pushed me on the bed, and before i had the chance to push him away, he was quick to raise the blouse i am wearing. and now the scars on my stomach was visible.

"don't you dare now tell me that you don't know what i am talking about" he screamed. i closed my eyes and wished for the floor to open up and sallow me. why him? i wouldn't mind if anyone else saw them, except him. i never wanted him to see them.

"look at me" he said, and i opened my eyes to only find his face very close to mine. 

"who did this to you?" he said in my face. i didn't answer him, i just kept looking at his eyes until it felt like i am drowning inside them.

"ANSWER ME, WHO DID THIS TO YOU?" he screamed in my face. i didn't move, i just kept my eyes locked with his.

"everyone, everyone used me to empty their desires and i wasn't strong enough to fight them" i whispered and his eyes changed when i answered him. his face moved to my ear, and i felt his hot breath tickle my neck.

"tell me who did this to you, so i can kill them one by one" he whispered in my ear and i instantly pushed him away. he stood up and just looked at me with hell inside his eyes.

"if i wanted to tell you i would have told you from a long while ago, but things like these, they don't concern you and it's not any if your business. it's called privacy" i said as i stood up on my feet. i walked outside his room while he just stood there and watching every step i take carefully. after i walked away from his sight, i was standing in front of the glass door, i took a deep breath before i opened it.

"glad to see you standing on your feet" one of the pirates said in my face. i gave him a small smile.

"you are a brave girl, i hope that you know that" another pirate said. i again gave him a small smile.

"Clay" another pirate greeted me. i nodded at him. what the bloody hell is going on?.

"it's the hero, who saved the captain" another pirate screamed. i looked around me, too shocked.

"the poor kid is shocked, leave her alone" Stephen screamed from above me, i turned around and i looked up. to only find him standing on the poop deck and smiling at me.

"we need to thank her for being brave and strong" another pirate said. this is too much, i barely did anything. i walked to Stephen and i stood behind him as each pirate thanked me or told me how brave i was.

"Stephen, this is too much, i didn't even do anything. i just stabbed everyone in my face" i said and Stephen just laughed at me. then he turned around to face me.

"you fought like a man and you saved the captain. they would never show you how much grateful they are" Stephen said. and that secretly made me happier than ever. does that mean i gained their trust?.

"so, what happened after we won the fight?" i asked Stephen as i walked around the poop deck, like i always do.

"we made sure that everyone is dead, then we took every supply they have. including rum, whiskey, food, canon balls and everything else, then we burned the ship down" Stephen said and i was slightly amazed by them. they did something impossible.

"how is the rum?" i asked and Stephen closed his eyes, as if he is trying to forget a bad memory.

"horrible" he said and i laughed. i never liked rum. doesn't match the type of liquor i desire.

"look who is awake" a voice said, i turned around and i saw Edward. i gave him a big smile.

"how are you feeling little one?" he asked as he rubbed my back. i can't explain how much he changed, he changed from a scary pirate who treated me badly to a very nice and caring pirate.

"there's still some pain, but better than before" i said and he just smiled at me before he turned around.

"GET READY FOR TOMORROW PIRATES, WE HAVE A COASTAL TOWN TO STEAL" Stephen screamed out loud. let's just wait until we find out what tomorrow hides.