My Triplet Lovers

Should I Tell Him Now?

We continue playing on the swings and have fun, then a few minutes later, I decided to mention what happened earlier in the car and in the cafe.

"What were you dreaming of earlier?" I curiously asked.

"What do you mean?" He asked and seemed clueless.

"What were you dreaming of earlier in the car and in the cafe?" I asked.

"I was dreaming of a beautiful girl that I just met, she's beautiful but she doesn't even know it. She also has a sweet beautiful voice but she doesn't know that either and I've fallen in love with her already but she doesn't know. If she did, would she even love me back?" He said those words like he's already deeply madly in love with "this girl" he met in his dream.

"Did you kiss her?" I asked.

He looks at me very confused like he doesn't remember a thing of what happened earlier.

"You looked like you were about to kiss someone earlier while we were in the car, And you smiled from ear to ear while asleep when we were at the cafe. Don't you remember?" I asked while smirking at him.

"I did, although I wish I could've done it in real life knowing she's not just a picture of my imagination.."

He sadly replied.

W-Wait...SHE'S REAL?? I got even more curious...Beautiful? A girl he just met??

I'M SO CLUELESS! For a few minutes, I didn't know the look of jealousy was still painted across my face.

And he notices it and once more he gives me a smug look on his face.

"Are you jealous?" He looked me straight in the eye while still having the smug look etched on his face.

I wonder, should I tell him now? If I admit that I'm jealous, would he notice that I have feelings for him?

If I deny it, would he still see right through me and notice that I lied?

But I look at him once more...

No... it's not the right time yet...So I just laughed and joked about it like it wasn't true, like it didn't affect me.

"HAHAHAHAHA! Me? jealous? no way HAHAHAHA!" I just laughed it off hoping he didn't notice anything about the way I said it.

"Who is she? you mentioned before that she was real... Who is she?" I added and the look of curiosity was once again seen so clearly on my face while waiting for a response.

"If I tell you who she is, it might.. ruin our friendship.." Troy looks down avoiding any eye contact while sounding a little nervous.

"Why would it ruin our friendsh- You know what? you can just tell me anytime that you're ready, ok?" I assure him while patting him on the back.

Now I'm even more curious to know who that girl is and why would it ruin our friendship if I find out?

I try to remove the thought of this girl in my mind but instead I get even more curious about her, how Troy fell for her. I distract myself as much as possible so I won't think about it.

4:30 pm

His aunt and uncle arrive and then I rode with them again to get to my house.

When I arrived, I tried looking for clues about "the girl" he's talking about. So far the prettiest girl I could find in our classroom was only Jia. I mean they are together in one of our paired activity and he's only just met her too... They also seem close whenever they were working on their activity...

I mean.. who wouldn't like her?

She's really beautiful like any guy would fall for her... She's smart too, she could probably be the top of the class... She has a sweet and beautiful voice too...

She sounds sooo great and fits the description Troy said earlier.

And here I am... Not even that smart nor good looking like any guy would be disgusted just by looking at me like my other crushes before... Not even one of them thought I was beautiful and no guy has ever liked me.

Great voice? Mine could break glasses, mirrors, you name it.

Smart? I'm nowhere near there, I don't even know if I could achieve my goals for this year like being top of the class...

I lie down in my bed staring at the wall thinking...

"I don't have any chance with Troy... I'm the exact opposite of the girl Troy described earlier... That's it! it's over... This will just be another heartbreak story of me getting rejected 'cause I'm not good enough..."

While I lay there, tears started to form in my eyes. "but... I really like him... I really do..." I say to myself while wiping off the tears that doesn't seem to stop...

Why am I getting hurt over something I'm not even sure of? That's it! I'm telling him tomorrow!

Nothing seemed to change my mind. I went to sleep that night practicing. Other than our presentation, I was practicing what I was gonna tell him but I know it would be useless because even if I practice this over and over again I seem to forget all those things when in front of him.

7:00 am

I woke up and got ready for school. As I was heading into school, Troy was behind me shouting my name trying to catch up to me.

"Hey! ready for the presentation?" He excitedly said.

Should I tell him now? Maybe it's too early for that... probably this lunch? Yeah! this lunch! No more flaking out! I'm doing this!

Oh shoot! what was he saying again?

"Yeah" I answered but I'm so clueless, I didn't even know what he said??

We arrived at our room then our first subject teacher came and told us to come in front and start the presentation. I forgot we were doing that today but good thing I brought our presentation. At first I was nervous and shaky but it went well in the end.

Time seemed to fly by fast like it's telling me "Do it already!"

11:30 am

Our classes have ended and it was already time... to tell him... how I felt...

Just in time, he's here.

"Hey! Let's go to lunch together! I know a place! I'mmm soooo hungryyyy!"

He excitedly told me.

This is it... no more backing out... better late than never, right?

"Before we go... I wanna tell you something... I know we've only just met and it looks like you like another girl already and she sounds great..."

Before I continue, I look at him to see if he's paying attention and it looked like he was only focused on me. So then I continued.

"... But ever since the first day we met I've already fallen for you and I don't know why... and I know you probably like Jia because she's perfect and all... I know I can't be her but I just really want you to know that I like you so much and I'm sorry if I do... But please if you'll reject me, I hope nothing changes between us or our friendship... " I finally told him and grabbed all the courage I had to say all this

"Sorry... I don't feel the same... ".