My Triplet Lovers

Tell me the truth

Today is the day the truth will finally be set free, I'm hoping and praying it isn't as bad as I think it is.

In our classroom I waited for him to arrive.

I know he's gonna tell me at lunch but I want him to feel at ease even before he says it.

He arrives and I could already tell he's bothered by something.

I approach him as soon as he arrived.

“Are you ok?"

I asked.

“I mean if you want to talk about it now, I-I still don't know wh-”

Before Troy could finish his sentence, I reassured him already that I'm not rushing for an answer.

“It's ok, I understand. I'm just here to cheer you up!”

I answered.

He looked shocked and confused 'cause obviously he thought about what I asked him as soon as he saw me.

I don't want him to feel uncomfortable because of the truth I've been asking for.

I was there to show him that this day is as normal as any other day to lessen the tension between the both of us.

He smiled back as soon as he realizes I'm serious.

“Thank you, that helped a lot”

We both sat down and talked about some other things.

It seemed like we felt comfortable enough that even after our other classmates came in, we didn't stop talking.

To me, that was a good sign.

We were never able to continue a conversation before when other people were around, now it doesn't matter.

The whole morning, I was trying to keep the atmosphere as comfortable as possible and it looks like it worked and right on time, It was lunch time already.

“Ready?”

I asked.

“Ready!” He replied joyfully.

- Lunchtime -

We went to lunch to the place we always went to before. As we were walking to the place, I checked him constantly if he was still alright knowing that as soon as we get there, the confrontation begins.

He seemed fine, much happier than I expected to be honest.

We got in and bought lunch. When we sat down, I looked at him.

“So... I don't wanna ruin your mood but just wanted to ask if today you're ready to tell me?”

I asked.

He looked at me and didn't say anything yet.

“It's ok if you don't want to do it now, I'll completely understand”

I added.

“Now is the perfect time”

He smiled at me calmly.

There I just sat and waited for what he was about to say...

“I'm really sorry, none of it is your fault...”

I'm glad I didn't actually do anything to make him drift away from me like that. Anyways, I continued to listen.

“It's because I'm leaving”

I was shocked with what I heard from him and I knew he could tell that I felt that way because I couldn't help but let it show on my face. The same goes for him, I could see he was surprised about what he just said too.

We both were surprised with the news.

He paused and didn't say a word after that, I assumed he was waiting for my response.

“Leaving? What do you mean?”

Sounds like a dumb thing to say. I mean, I know what leaving means but what does he mean by that? like he'll be far or going to another school? I mean, we aren't even halfway through the school year so it could be possible to happen.

Is he leaving now or in a few months? Was it that bad for him that he'd rather not be friends with me anymore or even just avoid talking to me? Is that enough reason to do it though?

I know I should just ask him all this rather than just question it with my own thoughts 'cause I don't know what's actually happening so I won't know the real answer and it'll lead me nowhere.

I decided not to ask him because it took both of us quite a while to actually face these things and lower our pride of who should talk first specially him so I just waited for what more he has to say.

It couldn't be that far right?

“I'm gonna live in another country”

Oh- he meant that far huh...

I still don't know what to say or what right words to use in this situation. I mean, this wasn't the first time it happened to me with another person yet I'm still shocked that it happened again.

But only this time, we got less time to be around each other yet it still hurts as if I've known him for so long.

He looked at me concerned, pretty sure he saw right through me because I wasn't talking and didn't look at him much either because I was still trying to process what he said.

I still chose to reply to what he said even if I was at the moment still trying to understand what to think and what to feel.

“When are you leaving?”

I didn't hesitate to ask and find out. I mean, I already am shocked with everything so why not ask now and not be surprised another time. We're already talking about it now so why hesitate?

This time, I looked at him. I wanted to see through his eyes how it feels for him if he's actually leaving soon.

“After this school year and a few months...”

I could tell he didn't want to go as his tone got more quiet by the end of his sentence and again with his eyes. I knew he felt that he didn't want it to happen so soon too... but it could just be me thinking that way...

“When will you come back?”

Another stupid question, it's as if I'm not even listening.

I know he said he'd be living there but I thought, he might come back a few years and I might even consider waiting for when we see each other again and try it again. I mean, who knows? it could happen but

I wouldn't know unless he tells me.

“I might never come back...”

It shattered the hope in me yet some of the bits and pieces of it chose to stay hoping that when he said “might”, it could be wrong and he'd eventually come back in a few years.

I just told myself we'd see each other one day ‘cause I'm not ready to let go of the friendship we just built or even the fact that I've already fallen for him deeply.

But like I promised, we'd be friends this time. I guess I really won't lose him if I just chose to hide how my heart chooses to see him.

Again, I didn't respond because what do I even say after what he said?

Good thing is, I didn't have to think of what to say. He carried on with what he wanted to say and I guess it was fine if I didn't answer. Besides, I was the first one who actually wanted these questions answered and now he's doing it, all I gotta do is listen.

He proceeded to explain to me that his parents, him, and his brothers have planned this a long time ago yet it kept on getting cancelled each year so he eventually doubted they'd leave this year so he took a gamble with what he felt for me and just went on and took risks to make both our feelings work out not until the news was actually true.

“It was just terrible timing for both of us to meet at this time...”

All I could keep thinking in my mind was, why of all times was this the time for both of us to meet? Couldn't we have met earlier? We definitely would have had more time if we've met earlier. Or maybe not meet at all so I wouldn't have held on to him so quickly.

I mean think of it, for about 7 years it's always been cancelled but the time we meet is where he finally leaves??

What was that for huh?

But I guess it's true when he said it was terrible timing. Neither of us planned this to happen, even if they told Troy he was leaving I understood why he'd doubt it again because of the many times it got cancelled. I don't blame him.

“I hope we could actually still be friends no matter the distance”

I didn't care if he was gonna be far away.

Pfft, it's just..

*searching how far he's gonna be*

13... thousand.... miles.....away... and in a different country...

To me, it still wasn't far away enough to end this.

I guess I gotta settle with what I've gotten from him which is friendship, It isn't that bad because I would take him any other way.

I gladly agreed with him and we both ended the conversation on a good note.

From there, things started changing so I hope my feelings would too.

“If it's the only way I can't lose you,

Then I'll stop my heart from beating what's true”