My Triplet Lovers

How Will I Ever Get You Back?

- Saturday -

Saturday morning came and as I woke up early, I was expecting at least one message from her. I mean yeah I'm still not gonna reply to it but I still love how she constantly chats me in the morning especially this early in the morning.

I checked my phone but there was nothing. Not a single message from her.

Like I said before, I won't reply to her messages even if I do want to, That's why I still wait for her messages.

Now that I think about it, I sound like a huge jerk like, I would be waiting but I won't do anything if I get messages.

One hour has passed, still nothing.

She was still online though, but she did nothing.

I waited a couple more hours just repeatedly checking my phone to the point that I'm only staring at my phone on our conversation.

5 hours have passed I still got nothing.

Now I was sure that she was ignoring me.

It just caught me off guard, like, I thought she'd still try to talk to me after that.

I guess it hurt her so bad that she doesn't want to try anymore.

I guess it's for the best anyways...

But I don't want it to end this way...

I still need to wait 'til my thoughts are clear so I can finally say what I've always wanted to say all this time.

If she could wait 'til then, things would probably turn out better.

I got too tired of waiting for a message from her to pop up on my screen so I fell asleep since my eyes hurt from watching my phone for hours.

- Troy's dream -

I see someone from a distance...

IT WAS HER!

“Maya? is that you? You don't know how much I missed you!”

I looked around and it looked nothing like reality so I assumed this was all a dream.

“I DON'T CARE IF THIS IS ALL A DREAM, AT LEAST I'D LIKE TO BE HAPPY BESIDE YOU JUST THIS ONCE BECAUSE I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!

I just want you back...

Can I at least have that here?”

I tell Maya even just in my dreams as she slowly turned to face me.

She gave me a blank look. I really didn't care, I just hugged her so tight until my tight grip on her slowly broke down into dust as she fades away and I soon wake up and get back to reality. I try to fight it and just stay there but once again, my body wins over on what to do then I soon opened my eyes and woke up.

- 12 pm -

I soon realized that it was already noon, but I couldn't care less about the time.

I was hungry but I just wanted to lay there even longer before I get up and eat.

A few more minutes later, I went downstairs to eat.

As I was eating, I wondered what Maya's doing or even thinking of right now.

Could she be mad at me? Well, there's no doubt that she is.

I mean who wouldn't be? with the way I acted these past few days and her not even knowing why I did it makes matters even harder to explain.

The whole time I was eating, I was only thinking of her.

In fact, the whole time she was the only one on my mind. No matter what I did that day, she was stuck on my mind which made it harder for me to focus on whatever I was doing like, simply walking to get something it's either I'd almost slip or forget what I was doing which made me look super clumsy, I almost broke a pot or two.

Seemed pretty boring without her because I'd constantly message her just to play at the playground or eat somewhere. Before it was fun but now it just feels dull. Makes me even more gloomy that I can't think straight yet. Although, even if she can't hear me right now, I promise her that once my thoughts are all clear, I'll tell and explain to her everything. EVERYTHING!

I'll tell her the whole truth.

I just wish that day would still come where she'll try to understand, but by the looks of it, I don't think it's happening any sooner 'cause she really REALLY looks mad and disappointed at me and looks like she's moving on but I don't wanna leave until I could fix this mess because I know I'll miss her and I want her to miss me too with only the good memories because for sure If she remembers the terrible things I've done to her then that's basically our friendship over and I don't want that to ever happen again.

I just want her to be happy with or without my presence because I'm sure her heart will break once it's the last day she sees me. Who am I kidding? it's more like my heart will break once I see her one last time before I go.

I hope both of us are prepared when the time comes that I leave but more importantly, I want us to be both ready to finally put the whole truth out and just let me explain.

Up until now, I still wonder what she's doing, how she's feeling or what she's thinking.

Does she still think about me? Is she just waiting for me to finally talk?

I really don't know yet and temptation's telling me to chat her already but again, I'm still not ready.

I just lay there for the whole afternoon thinking of endless possibilities between Maya and I. And endless ways to apologize to her too. That's the most important part.

I lay there looking at her photos, stalking her account and digging deep enough on her profile to see what she looks like before.

Now that I've reach that part, I now notice how adorable she is especially now and one proof of that is how she stole my heart on my first glance of her.

I'd never let go of her again once everything's clear.

I want her to be mine and only mine for the rest of our lives but of course that can't happen yet 'cause we're still too young for those stuff.

But hopefully when the day finally comes when we both aren't that young anymore, I hope we end up together just like how I envisioned it to happen.

I shouldn't get too ahead of myself because I haven't even thought of a good way to approach her.

As the sun was getting closer to set, well I mean 3 pm is kinda close right?

I couldn't stop the feeling of getting even more bored again that I decided on chatting Maya to hang out again and go to that fastfood place again or at that cafe shop we went to before and as I opened me and Maya's conversation and soon started to type in the words

“Hey, are you free today? or right now?”

I soon realize as well that I keep forgetting that I told myself countless of times that this isn't the time to talk to her yet specially since we haven't really talked properly for almost a month or so because of this coward ass body of mine!

Since that idea is out of the window, I look around the house to distract myself with other stuff and probably get myself busy with whatever I find.

30 minutes in, still nothing.

Since there was nothing better else to do, I spot my little cousin's toys and start fidgeting with some of them wondering how they work or how is it possible that a kid could spend hours having fun without even knowing the actual use of that toy.

Before I even knew it, I was enjoying something for once and because of a kid's toy!

I figured that if I enjoyed that, I'd probably enjoy the other toys as well so I grab the huge box where all of our toys, even mine, are combined in.

I dig in deeper to find my old toys and not long after, I reached my area of toys.

I grab them out then start playing like a five year old with new toys.

It was hours and hours of fun but then, I got one of my knight toys and suddenly reminded me that it has two other knights along with it and one princess.

The knight reminded me of me and my brothers how instead of playing with them, I told them this story instead.

The one I keep telling them since we were little.

Where there were three knights that were very close brothers then the first knight meets this princess that he immediately falls for and the two other knights find out about it and meet the girl, they also fall in love with her which soon 'caused the brothers to fight who's more worthy for her hand in marriage.

The first knight didn't want to tear their close relationship as brothers so he let go of this beloved princess no matter how much he loved her, he cared about his brothers too much to let just one princess stand in the way of all those years they've been together as close brothers. After that, I never really recalled how I finished that story.

Wow, now that I said that story out loud, I never realized how literate I was when I was younger. I understand the whole princess and knight thing but I never realized how specific I was when it talked about the brothers.

I'm glad that story actually never comes to life because if it does, that's a mess I'd never get out off.

Come to think of it, my brothers and I never really liked the same girl.

I remember they don't really have a thing for girls which is somewhat of a good news to me because I can count on them to never fall for Maya.

Woah, I just heard myself back there and damn, I sound very possessive.

Nah, it's maybe just the way I talk and maybe doesn't mean anything serious.

Yeah that's probably it...

“Another sleepless night with the thought of you in my mind,

Worried that someone like you is what I will never find”