The journal of deep thoughts

Monday April 23

Violet

Hello stranger...

What to tell...woke up...rode to school with my friend that literally looked like she was in heaven, I can't blame her, the first kiss thing was really important to her...had like a thousand of exams which I'm pretty sure I'll suspend half of them but oh well, life right? Yelled, broke some rules, insulted people ( oh how I loved to do that ), got kicked out from classes several times, yeah I'm quite the rebel without a cause but I couldn't care less. All I wanted to do was the school to end to pay a little visit to Nathan, I hadn't seen him in way too long. 

I can't believe what I'm about to say but I'm actually starting to like Damien. Most boys would want to be kissing all day and lead it to s*x but he was clearly different. All the guy did was stare at my friend with puppy eyes like he still couldn't believe she was real and all she did was play with his hair, I hate to say this but they look really cute together. As to Abby, she's been quite uneasy but I still don't know why, that girl really has some issues.

Finally the hours passed and I went directly towards Nathan's classroom, there he was with his jeans and a buttoned down shirt that I so wanted to take off. He was reading some book when I knocked on the open door to let him know I was there. He looked at me and smirked

"Its been a long time since we've seen each other"

"Too long if you ask me"

He laughed and signaled me to come closer, something about what we were doing was wrong and made it even better. I sat on his desk which coincidentally was clean and he got closer to me, he wrapped his hands around my waist and buried his face on my neck, s**t, that was my weakest point. As he kissed my neck all I wanted to do was unbutton that shirt of his. When I had undone the first two buttons I couldn't resist it any more, I hurried my hand into that chest molded by muscles, oh god, I hadn't felt this good in way too many days. This time he was the one that pulled apart and all he did was stare at me with a smile, was this a revenge of what I had done the last time? So this was the game he wanted to play...well then...game on.

Selfish diva

Abby

Hello stranger...

God how I hate exam week, studying, stress, sleepless nights, I hate it. Plus today I have to fulfill the dare Oliver told me, s**t, do I actually like him? I guess I'll find out soon. Finished my exams and took the subway as always towards Oliver's apartment but he wasn't there, he must still be in classes. I came towards the kitchen to have something to eat but I found a note on the table with a rose:

"Meet me at the park's gate at 5:00p.m"

Well he was really looking forward to take me on a date, I went to my room and found my short blue dress laid on my bed and a note:

"Wear this"

Yep, he had it all planned. I got dressed and took the rose, I have to admit I was liking were this date was going. I walked towards the park and there he was wearing a fancy coat and the biggest and most sincere smile I had seen.

"I knew you would look great in that dress"

"I appreciate you going through my stuff"

"Sorry but I needed this date to be perfect" 

He took my hand and guided me towards the restaurant I told him I wanted to try but was too expensive for me, s**t he was actually trying. 

I have to admit that it was the funniest date I had been, I laughed a lot and didn't feel uncomfortable at all plus the food was great, maybe I liked him? I mean I had a lot of fun with him, he's attractive and he genuinely cares for me and I do to...maybe it was worth the shot?

When we had finished he guided me towards the roof of the place, I had no idea we could go there and it was amazing. We sat there a bit and had a drink then he looked straight towards my eyes like not believing this was really happening and honestly, neither could I. 

We walked a bit in the park near the river and sat on a bench, I don't know why but the place had this romantic air that I had no idea where it had come from, the moon was shinning at its brightest, it was beautiful. We went silent for a while and I felt he reached for my hand, I didn't resist, we stayed there for a while until we faced each other, I don't know what got into me but I really really wanted to kiss him, s**t. He started to get closer and I did also but not knowingly, like if my body was thinking by itself, all I was thinking about was knowing what he tasted like. I could hear him breathing...he reached for my cheek and smiled... his lips pressed on mine...oh god he was good...shit don't stop...After a while we pulled away and just stared at each other, he just smiled as I leaned my head on his shoulder, maybe I did wanted this to happen after all.

Confused girl