Paris Blues

Baby Blues

I could see the sunrise through my blurry vision as I threw my head back crying in pain. I looked at the clock on my bedside table and realized that I had been in labor for over nine hours and still no improvement, I was nowhere near pushing and I was started to get frustrated I just wanted the pain to stop and I wanted to hold my baby in my arms.

"Hans". I cried and his eyes fluttered as he slightly jumped up from the chair he was sleeping. His training as a soldier made very alert and he could everything even in his sleep.

"What's, wrong baby". He cooed as he stood next to me.

"Please make it stop it hurts so much". I cried and he kissed my forehead.

"Just a little longer it will worth it. I'm sorry Gracie". He said and I could tell that he felt guilty that he couldn't do anything to ease my pain.

"In a few hours you will have your baby in your arms focus on that". Dr. Kinski said and I nodded trying to focus on my breathing.

"We haven't decided on a name let's discuss that". Hans said trying to distract me from the pain I was feeling.

"Okay". I agreed.

"If it's a girl I was thinking Sofia, Eva or Teresa". He said and I nodded breathing heavily.

"I like Sofia but I was thinking Josephine or Reign". I said and he nodded.

"We'll agree on Sofia and Josephine". He said.

"We if we have a boy?". He asked scratching his growing beard.

"I was Henry". I said watching his eyes darken

"After your former fiancee?". He said and I nodded. I could tell that he wanted to argue but decided to hold back.

"We'll discuss the name when the baby gets here". He said dismissively.

The sun began to set and I was still tossing and turning in pain. I could feel pressure down there and I was exhausted I just wanted to get it done with. Hans had fallen asleep on the chair after he gave me a back massage. My eyes drifted to the clock and I noted that I had been in labor for fifteen hours. I screamed in pain and Hans jumped up from the chair and ran a hand down his face. The doctors rushed to my side, Dr. Kinski put his hand under my nightdress and inserted two fingers inside me.

"I can feel the head, you're ready to push". He said as Dr. Rosberg and the nurse started prepping everything for the birth. Hans stood next to me comforting me as I began pushing.

"Aaaah". I cried pushing before I fell back in exhaustion.

"Come on you can do it". The nurse said and I repeated my actions.

"I can't do this anymore". I cried falling back into the bed.

"You're doing so well just a few more". The nurse encouraged, I repeated my actions again. I was exhausted and in pain, I didn't know how long I pushed for when I felt something coming.

"There you go, almost finished". Dr. Rosberg said and I pushed one more time and my baby came.

"There you go, it's a boy you have a son". Dr. Kinski said as I laid back crying in exhaustion. I quickly realized something was off.

"Why isn't he crying?". I asked as I watched the doctors take my baby rushing him to the side.

"He's not crying". Hans declared and I could see the look of fear in his eyes.

"Why isn't he crying?". Hans asked I could see the doctors putting a device on my son's face to try to get him breathing. Dr. Rosberg turned to look at us and I knew from the look on his face.

"No my baby". I cried loudly.

"We did everything we could his lungs had not developed properly. I'm sorry". Dr. Rosberg declared as I shook my head.

"No my baby no I want my baby". I cried attempting to get out of bed but Hans held me down attempting to comfort me. I could see the nurse take a needle out before she poked me in my arm.

"I'm sorry". I heard her say before darkness took over me.